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#4501 Old 16th Sep 2021 at 4:36 AM
Another day, another soul-sucking set of phone calls made to tame my mania and bipolar.

For those wondering the abstract concept of the torture I receive when I am weaned off old medicine and prepare for new pills, only to have an episode. Think of Pixar's Inside Out...only with 100 emotions and a video wall comprised of 1,000 flat screens, all normally working in perfect synchronicity. Once weaned off certain pills and the opportunity strikes, the screens take on individual feeds of various thoughts, some happy, some sad, some angry, some showing my lovesickness, some triggering anxiety when I was in middle school, some showing random shit that doesn't make sense in our world like the "Let It Go" sequence from Frozen (one) translated in Hindi but the movie was never distributed in India.

In short, I am not really a happy camper right now. Only thing that made me cry was Steve Burns of Blue's Clues fame talking about student loans, jobs and families while I am a NEET who lost her training center after the government misplaced the funding, her reserved position at Boeing after the 2008 economic downturn and suffers from PCOS, and approaching 35 quicker than Sonic the Hedgehog's cameraman.

Only thing that kept me happy was a series of animations based on Mo Willems' bibliography which includes the Pigeon books and the Knuffle Bunny trilogy. Most of the voice credits went to Mo Willems and his daughter Trixie. I was a big fan of Mo Willems since his series of shorts titled "The Offbeats" and his half hour, 3 act series "Sheep in the Big City".

I should be the only one to shine,
I am the Golden Queen of Shadow Galactica
(Translation of a line from image song Golden Queen Galaxia)
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#4502 Old 16th Sep 2021 at 10:46 AM
My livingroom looks like a bomb hit it. I'd like it to be back to normal, but that's not going to happen until this evening or tomorrow.

It started with going to check the mail the other day. As I was coming back from the mailbox, I noticed the window sill under the air conditioner was all discolored. Later I would figure out the discoloration was from rust. The air conditioner is basically rotting from the inside out. When the fan turns on, it blows rusty water everywhere. That air conditioner is about 5 years old.

I've been listening to more and more people talk about how things are not made like they used to be. It seems as though it isn't only me that is having issues with appliances only lasting for about 5-6 years before they crap out. I'll spare everybody my rant about that; the air conditioner is sitting on the coffee table with the mat I use to do fish tank water changes. The mat is water proof as window air conditioners always leak water when they've been moved. The POS is going out to the curb with a free sign. It still works, I just don't know for how long and I'm not wasting more time cleaning up rust stains. In the meantime, I moved the portable AC we bought a few months ago into the livingroom. The unit itself sits inside and the exhaust vent is made from plastic, so no rusting problems but having another thing sitting on the floor adding to the 'mess' problem.

No problems with groceries yesterday. The store however ran out of the snacks I ordered, so they called to see if I wanted something else. I told them no and decided to put a big box store order in as snacks are one of those things that are seeing price increases and hoarding. I guess people think they can live off of Cheez-Its.

It is still cheaper to order from the big box store for that kind of stuff, so I also ordered 2 cases of flavored water, olive oil, snacks, bread and some other random things. The bread went in the freezer, the olive oil and snacks were put away, but the 2 cases of water are sitting on the livingroom floor. Since I'm talking about groceries, the veggie box I ordered came in the other day. Said box was very well packed, but the kale didn't ship well, the cucumbers have that gross wax all over them that is used to preserve them and then there are the carrots. It is a tiny bundle and they are the most bendy carrots that I've seen in awhile. They're so rubbery that I can bend them into a U shape and they don't break. The carrots will be chopped up and used in a potato soup or roasted, the kale has gone away and the rest of the stuff was okay. Perhaps I should have just ordered a box of potatoes and garlic as those are 'normal'. There was also a lemon, a pear, Italian tomatoes and few peppers and some other random things. For what I spent for this box of 'farm fresh' vegetables, it wasn't worth it and rubber carrots are not fresh.

When I haven't been moving air conditioners and muttering to myself about false advertising, the rest of my time has been spent with more budgeting stuff. Our mortgage company is out of their mind if they think I'm paying them another 10 years worth of interest. Since we don't have a life and won't for the foreseeable future because of Rona and whatever else rears its ugly head, may as well put proverbial blinders on, buckle down and pay the house off. It isn't going to happen overnight, we're not wealthy but there is no reason why we shouldn't be able to be done with it in a couple of years. I've spent the past year or so grumping about the crappy quality of things anyway, so I don't have any reason to be blowing money on crap that comes with a whole bunch of marketing hype only to complain more about how other stuff is a POS that I had to throw out for one reason or another.

The rest of the budgeting stuff is going to work like the grocery / household budget except for things where the amount doesn't change, like the mortgage. Whatever funds are not used will be rolled over to the next month in most cases with exceptions. A example: If I budget $150.00 for the electric bill and it only comes to $100.00, the extra $50 will either go into a savings account, added to the pet food budget if it will be needed or tossed at mortgage principle. I'm going to be flexible and apply funds where they need to go from month to month. In the case of paying off mortgage principle, if I don't specify where the extra money goes to them, they will automatically take it as interest, because banks.

We talked about moving the mortgage to our bank just to get away from the disaster that is our current mortgage company, but after considering points that would have to be paid, the cost of inspections, paperwork and all the other BS that goes into moving a mortgage from one bank to another, it wouldn't be worth it. It would make my life easier in terms of paying the stupid thing off, but I'm not willing to spend a couple thousand dollars because I don't want to have to make a phone call or log into another website. As low as interest rates are right now, it still wouldn't be worth it. The savings would be lost with the cost of all the other nonsense that would need to happen.
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#4503 Old 18th Sep 2021 at 4:03 AM
It's been a month since my father came home from the hospital and we're now getting on each other's nerves.

I don't want to go for a walk. I hate going for walks in warm weather with moist heat.

I sleep to escape his grouchy attitude when he's in pain. He sleeps because of the pain they put him through in physical therapy.

I don't think I can handle another 2 months.

I should be the only one to shine,
I am the Golden Queen of Shadow Galactica
(Translation of a line from image song Golden Queen Galaxia)
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#4504 Old 20th Sep 2021 at 10:07 AM
I finished the book I was reading. It ended perfectly. But now I feel that horrible sense of emptiness. The Renegade series is amazing and I encourage anyone to read it. Now I've just started on another book but I just can't get into it.

Also I'm just not in a great mood today. I didn't sleep well last night, my neck hurts from sleeping in a weird position, my legs kept cramping throughout the night and I'd wake up in pain. Plus I had my vaccine yesterday so today my arm hurts and I have a bit of a headache. Ugh.

~Your friendly neighborhood ginge
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#4505 Old 20th Sep 2021 at 10:56 PM Last edited by PANDAQUEEN : 21st Sep 2021 at 1:22 AM.
Saw my nephrologist Dr. MP and I have a change to the routine.

Nothing too drastic. I also have to see Dr. DB again for a flu shot and a few diagnostics.

Edit: I'm also attending a birthday party for my 93 year old grandfather this upcoming Sunday. He lives in a house neighboring a Korean American strip mall.

I should be the only one to shine,
I am the Golden Queen of Shadow Galactica
(Translation of a line from image song Golden Queen Galaxia)
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#4506 Old 21st Sep 2021 at 12:13 PM Last edited by Gargoyle Cat : 21st Sep 2021 at 12:35 PM.
Mortgage balance is moving in a direction that makes me happy. The more I throw at the balance, the less interest goes into the bank's pocket. Doing this also means more of our regular payment goes towards principle unlike right now where more of our regular payment goes towards interest. I'll take progress wherever I can get it.

Grocery order this week came to $53.67. The Boy wanted lettuce for sandwiches, I got some eggs as I want to make pumpkin bars and I'm almost out of potatoes. I like the baby potatoes, but a tiny bag of those is almost as much as 5 pound bag of russet potatoes. Nobody cares if they eat small potatoes or ones that are cut into chunks. $53.67 is still way better than $120...

The crusty air conditioner finally made its way to the curb on Saturday. It disappeared some time either Saturday night or really early Sunday morning. One less thing I have to deal with, store and maintain.

EDIT: The things mentioned for groceries didn't come to $53.67. What was mentioned put me over $50.00. I don't know why I felt the need to clarify on that, but here it is.
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#4507 Old 22nd Sep 2021 at 10:53 AM
I'm tired.
I was up late yesterday. I had to go to hospital because I was bleeding. The bleeding happened at 2pm but the doctor didn't see me until around 7pm, where he wonderfully had a look at me and declared I wasn't bleeding, including holding the speculum up to my face and showing its clean. Then he walked straight out of the room and I never found out why I had a random little bleed. Finally got home at 9pm. Quickly ate a Mcdonalds and went to bed. It wasn't like I went to bed super late I guess, but I kept dreaming that I was bleeding again so I had to keep getting out of bed and double checking.

Now today I have to walk past my stalker SILs house. Makes me almost not want to take my child to school because last time she was stood at her door shouting my name as we walked past. Maybe I'll find a secret back street?

~Your friendly neighborhood ginge
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#4508 Old 22nd Sep 2021 at 2:31 PM
The full moon happened the other day; one wouldn't know it.

I had my butt chewed this morning because I mentioned that the grocery order I put in the other day needs to be picked up. I said that it would have to be picked up today when I placed the order, I got the not-listening-to-me answer of "Ah-huh". Then in a lame attempt to play a game of GOTCHA, there was mention of the order I put in with the big box store I decided to put in yesterday as we were out of Pepto and I didn't feel like placing at a later time. I ordered: dish liquid, cereal as I refuse to pay almost $5.00 for a box, Pepto Bismol, coffee because again, not willing to pay out the nose for that, 3 cases of water because heaven forbid the man child should drink regular water and snacks. The big box store should not hear from again for at least a month.

Apparently according to one person in my house, this is a well balanced diet. We've discussed time and time again the things I will no longer buy from the big box store and why.

While the adult tantrum was being played out, I said that I could cancel the order for today since it was causing such mental anguish and that the man child otherwise wise known as Dingus could take over the entire responsibility of making sure there is food in the house, one less thing for me to keep track of. That lead to whining about not being perfect and a whole bunch of other crap that had nothing to do with food.

As tempting as it is to cancel the order just to make a point, I'm not going to. I spent over 2 hours yesterday meal planning for the end of Sept and the whole month of October, that time is not going to be wasted because somebody decides to act like a ass. We have no plans this afternoon, there is nothing going on, so picking up food is not interfering with anything. The big show was nothing more than somebody not wanting to do something. If the charade continues later this afternoon, we'll sit at the kitchen table and he can explain to me what kind of tasty meals he can come up with with the stuff I bought from the big box store.
Test Subject
#4509 Old 22nd Sep 2021 at 3:01 PM
while on the nerves because of study
Mad Poster
#4510 Old Yesterday at 6:55 PM Last edited by PANDAQUEEN : Yesterday at 7:15 PM.
Well, my intake manager never called today.

Good thing, I was not in the mood to be emotionally drained.

Read up on Napoleon Bonaparte and his embarrassing defeat against 3000...bunny rabbits. His men were supposed to kill for sport after paying off numerous rabbit breeders, but they were overwhelmed by the sheer amounts of lagomorphs. Napoleon fled to his carriage and fled the fields.

Also, my father is able to drive again as of today.

I should be the only one to shine,
I am the Golden Queen of Shadow Galactica
(Translation of a line from image song Golden Queen Galaxia)
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#4511 Old Yesterday at 8:06 PM
Wrote my wedding invites!
1st one and I spelt my partner's surname wrong. Realised I didn't have enough RSVPs, and turns out my partner has spelt several of my family members names wrong...

Also one of my bridesmaids has changed her mind. She doesn't want to wear pink anymore. She wants to wear blue or purple. The colour theme is dusty pink, sage and silver.

~Your friendly neighborhood ginge
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