I seem to be losing my ability to type coherently. Bucking annoying, considering my hobby requires me to type in two languages. Bleh.

I miss my best friend so much.

Norway breaks my heart.

I watched one of those true movies today. It was about a girl with Leukemia and I cried at least five times. I'd really like to donate bone marrow now.

All those dead dogs seen on the highway today broke me in small pieces. Bloody and... Jesus, it was HORRIBLE.

The Sims Social is bugged to hell.

I miss gymnastics. I have resigned myself to the fact that my knees will never be able to handle it again, but sometimes it just feels like there's a little rubber ball bouncing around inside me, and the only way to make it stop is to do those things I can't do anymore. Right now I feel like nailing a front tuck, or anything to stop feeling like I'm about to jump out of my skin. I just did two tuck jumps, and it's just not enough.

Just like in all the terrible movies, being friends with benefits brings the worst heartache. Especially when you're a girl and you've developed crushing feelings for your mate. =/

My closest and best friend in the entire world is leaving me in less than 48 hours for college. So far I've been in good spirits about college, but after today and realizing I wouldn't see my friends anymore, it's kind of bittersweet. *Sigh*




That has to be a tough one. I've never gone "friends with benefits" with a guy friend, because I was always afraid that one of us would get attached in the end, I can't see myself having sex with no strings without getting emotionally attached to the guy, and once that happens a friendship is usually bound to get ruined more times than not. Because now that you have feelings, your friendship will never be the same. Because now you have to tell him how you feel, and if he doesn't feel the same way he'll feel guilty.

If you feel like you're becoming more attached to him then I wouldn't continue to see him, unless he feels the same way of course. Because in a situation like that you would be setting yourself up for a heartbreak. If I were you, I would talk to him about taking things farther in the relationship, if that's what you're looking for. HOWEVER, just make sure you two are on the same level before you continue anything.

Spent about an hour waiting for a bathroom to free up so I could have a shower because my father and brother were hogging them. And they say girls bathroom hog...

I wish there was a cure for love... Or for being haunted in your every single f*cking dream by the one you love. It's killing me slowly and painfully, but surely.

My mom is being a hypocrite. A few days ago she was yammering at my dad about portion control, and today she's eating a freaking huge bowl of salad.

EDIT: And I officially hate Gmail. First it tries to merge my Yahoo and Gmail accounts, now it needs my nonexistent phone number to verify a new account. My god.

^ Try using Hotmail/Windows Whatever It's Called Now. Chrome won't let you click -anything-. Gmail sucks though.

I keep losing inspiration on my projects.

Somehow I fixed my Gmail. Dunno how.

Now my arm hurts and I don't know why. I haven't been typing more than usual today... and I've typed loads more without it hurting. Bah.

Too tired to stay up yet not tired enough to sleep.

Waaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaay IN THE EARTH is L.A. Noire only on friggin' Xbox!? Waaaaaaaahaaaaaaaaay IN THE EARTH can't it be on PC or Wii, so I CAN FRIGGIN' PLAY IT! Jesusss!!!!!!! Well, it's official, I want an Xbox 360 for my birthday, WAAAH!!!

I got woken up at 5.30am this morning by a very loud noise outside. Because I've recently been watching something about the end of the world, I sat up in bed and was like, "Well, this is it, the world is ending", then I realized it was actually a tractor going past, so I'm pretty glad I didn't actually voice my doomsday concerns out loud by screaming the house down. On a less positive note I suppose this means harvest is starting soon, which means tractors early in the morning and late at night keeping me awake.

My friend is complaining to me about her broken nail. When I complain to her about my headache, she said it's no big deal.

People are so stupid.

Wanting to call someone out on ripping a plot for their video straight out of Skins UK, but I won't.

My ex best friend just had her baby.
With her druggy boyfriend.
Hmm.

My desktop is okay, but I had to uninstall all the TS3 EPs. Fffffffuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuu...

I hate when you reach the end of a fantastic story. It's a bittersweet feeling. Even when the end is absolutely perfect.

So it goes like this...I wait for my friend for an hour infront of the mall. I go home thinking of revenge( yeah,I'm evil.). After I dressed in my pj's she is calling me saying: Where are you?! Don't tell you're gonna be late!

I just hung up. And I should do that more often. It makes person feel gooooooooooood. >:DDDD

I was supposed to go into the bank before the 21st of August to change some of my details and reinvest some money, but it completely skipped my mind. There's so much going on right now that I just can't keep track of it all. Ugh.

I just want one day when I'm not in pain. Is that too much to ask?

It's 11:30 at night and it's JUST NOW below 80 degrees outside. I cannot wait for fall. Seriously.

Eh, cramps... I feel like my body is trying to kill me...

80 degrees? o_O Which country do you live in, Cupcake12winx?

At us ther is 'just' 35 degrees...

^ 80 degrees Fahrenheit equal 27°C, so I guess it's equally hot over there.

Ugh, I want to write an e-mail but I can't bring myself to it, and it's making me all fidgety.

OH MY DUDE! I'm flipping out, it's results day tomorrow! AH!

It's 29 degrees Celsius here and I'm going to break the air conditioner sooner or later.

Thank you, Minus, really, I'm silly. First I thought it's measured in Celsius... I hope you'll manage to write the e-mail!
Good luck, Zela!
The Creeper, the air conditioner is a good idea. I have it now turned on, and the air is really pleasant and cool (in the house).

It's usually really hot at us. In the 'dog days' the temperature begins at at least 33-35°C... But once we measured 44,1°C. Well, it's really hot. Otherwise I live in Southern Hungary, this part is the hottest and dryest one...

What the fuck, Gaga, Jo Calderone?!

I want my teachers to be mailed to me.... -___-

My brother did something completely out of order today and I'm really bugged that he got away with it, again. I know it sounds like the kind of really petty thing siblings say, but seriously, when are my parents going to set boundaries with him? Frankly his maturity level is at least several years below his actual age as it is; in fact I can recall him being far more mature when he was about ten compared to how he is now. It is ridiculous that he dictates where he goes, who he sees and when he sees them, never mind how rude and disrespectful he is I really thought after his appalling exam results my father would finally set some serious rules down for him, but apparently not.

I can't believe I just said effects instead of affects. Gah. And on homework, no less.

Every time I go outside I get really scared and I don't know why, or when I'm around more people than my dad.

I hate caterpillars. *shivers*

My mother says eisteddfods have traumatized her.

I can't seem to use a calculator to save my life. THIS ISN'T HARD, HANDS.

And our house has ants. Fjklds I'm so paranoid that this bedroom is going to get infested with them, giving its past history with the little buggers.

AND I have nowhere to put a bedfull of stuff. I need to sleep in here tonight.

Everyday I get these weird cramps and stabs in my stomach and I get stabs in my heart too.

I have no idea why but it's seriously annoying.

Video about flies. A funny one.

29 degrees? I'm dealing with 39 degrees Celsius out here

Ooh, crap, that sucks.

People are so stupid. People who are younger than me say "I don't smoke, drink or do drugs!" Well, when you post pictures of you and your friends on facebook doing just that, it makes you wonder!This reason is why I am now comfortable with the fact that I don't have friends in school. They're all moronic...

Tell me about it

>>I'll rather mop the whole neighborhood than vacuum the whole living room. TRUST ME.

Vista.

Startup.

Repair.

/NEVER AGAIN

My period is seriously late now.

^I know the feeling. Mine's close to two months late now, but I have that ovarian thingy which DOESN'T SEEM TO HEAL. :/ I have an appointment at the endocrinologist in September, anyway.

University schedules are so damn impossible to plan around and my period is due in the next three days. Urkasdlkfj.

Stop being snippy at me when you know I'm right.... asshole!

Dear Lord,
I appreciate your hard work to make a lot of different species on our planet but I have a question related to that: WHY MOSQUITOS? I believe there's enough bugs frogs and others can eat so in that point of view,mosquitos are no use to anyone. I certanly hope you'll wipe them out ASAP.
Thank you kindly,
Me.

I just want my mom to get 100% better :/ she had a nervous breakdown this past November, she's battled depression, and she's been to hell & back, which is another storty to be told...
It's beeen really hard on me since this past year was my first year of highschool, and it was really tough. I didn't really talk about it with people, besides my dad who's been great through this whole thing. I talked to my Pastor's wife, i just needed to talk to someone. She was incredible, we're going to talk more. My mom is doing a lot better, but she's not there yet. :/

My mom was going to take my dog out to go to the bathroom. During Hurricane Irene. I'm sorry, but if she pees on the floor, that's better than a tree through your house.

I seem to fail at being a printer owner. I've printed things on the wrong paper, forgotten to open the tray that catches them, rendering my pictures extremely bent, and messed up the colors of this one picture.

I've had like a huge fight with my best friend. I may seem like an ice-queen, but things like this really hurt me. I was always the one who closed conflicts, with the risk of admitting I was wrong, albeit I wasn't. Who can't appreciate that, well, that person isn't my friend.

I like my volunteer work for the theatre, but I don't always have much creative freedom. The director of our next play doesn't give me a single chance to be creative. He shows me something he found online that he basically wants to copy. So I work up the poster, but I put work into updating it (the one he wants me to steal off of is a little dated).

And everything I actually improved, he wants gone. For heaven's sake, I'm not a vain person, I know I'm not a great designer, but to be used purely to steal someone else's crappy poster is insulting.

Never buy a used scanner. It will be covered in glitter.

So I'm watching the VMAs, and this rapper, can't be arsed to remember his name, is performing... they have to censor him so often I keep thinking my TV is freaking out.

How the shit do people like this crap, again?

History tests will be the death of me.

This year's VMA was a big fail. I couldn't watch past the Pre-Show. From 5 to 5 minutes, a stupid thing appeared, presenting Katy Perry, Nicki Minaj, whatever with an annoying music in the background, which lasted about 10 minutes each time. Not to mention the stage, which sucked big time. Such a fail. I was like, "I stood up until 4:30 a.m. to see this???" For Christ's sake! I just read the winners on VMA's site and watched their speeches and that's it. Stupid show, stupid, stupid, stupid! I wonder if EMA and the Grammy's will be the same.

Haven't seen VMA's(didn't bother to get up so early) but I believe I didn't miss much. The fact that it's all about Beyonce,Lady GaGa and rappers doesn't seem good enough to watch. Fail!

EDIT: Just got back from walk. I wish I didn't even go. I. Am. Melted. [END]

Re-Re-Re-Install/Try not to scream/angering angering angering angering/Okay imma scream. /failsong

I have to reinstall all of my TS3 stuff because my external harddrive switched letters. My computer is not cooperating, as it keeps booting up the scanner and external CD drive every frickin' time I hit Uninstall.

I stepped on a fking PUSH PIN! My foot was bleeding like mad and it hurts.

Hi, I have trouble sleeping!

Mom,if you don't stop touching my stuff all the time so I can't find it anymore,I'll tell DADDY!

School is the most immensely pointless thing in my life right now. I could accomplish so much more if I didn't have to spend six hours every day listening to things which won't further me in any regard.

Aw, come on! Everybody likes a good bleep filled song.On the other hand, I am glad I didn't watch it.

I wish that for once, when I plan something that it actually goes according to plan.

So apparently I didn't get the job by my own merits. My 'friend' who already worked there keeps saying to me "Oh it's such a good thing i got you this job, i keep getting **** from A, B & C for it" then he asked if I got back with my boyfriend (We never broke up) and when I said as much he went off and said "well, I got you the job, now i'm just going to stay out of it"

Stupid Assjkfh8w3h ... I'm not interested in you, i LOVE my boyfriend and I am SICK of everything you're saying to me.

Now I have to go and talk to my boss, the head waiter and the GM and tell them that I don't appreciate the fact I wasn't hired on my own merits but I AM grateful for the job and I AM a very hard, and loyal, worker.

On top of all that, said 'friend' keeps making innapropriate comments to me while we're working AND has led almost everyone working upstairs to believe I'm his girlfriend and having sex with him. Oh you wish buddy.

Screw you dickhead.

My friend legitimately thinks that I'm trying to steal her boyfriend. I honestly have no clue why she thinks I would want him, and I apologised for acting so chummy with him, but she doesn't seem to believe me when I say I'm not interested. I cannot wait until this year is over and I can say goodbye to these people.

I'm sorry that my foot hurts with every step I take. I'm sorry I'm in a bitchy mood today. I'm sorry I don't want to help you with your computer problems that are SO SIMPLE a person without a brain could do it. I'm sorry I don't eat that often. I'm sorry my brain melts down whenever you bring up the topic of food. I'm sorry I'm too complicated for your tiny mind to handle. Asshole...

I was talking to a girl yesterday who said that she'd rather starve than eat alone in the dining hall. I just don't get the aversion people have to eating alone-- sure, I would rather eat with someone else given the choice, but I can be just as happy taking along a book and getting some reading done when I'm alone. People care way too much about what others think.

There are now (at least) two auto-tuning microphone toys.

The fug.

No matter how hard I try I cannot get over the fact that I'm not going to see anyone but Felix come the 1st

K-what?

^Why does it matter?

I'm hormonal and bitchy and I hate everything except tea and Chuck Bass.

My father is beginning to drive me crazier than normal...

Yesterday I was browsing a forum as I usually do, reading an old thread that was about 300 pages long because I wanted to refresh my memory regarding an event that happened back in 2008 and my father who was sitting on the couch that is just behind me pipes up and asks me what I was reading. I replied "a thread about Berbatov. Why?" I was beginning to get annoyed with him constantly asking me to check his e-mail and such earlier that day, my father then said "just wondering." I still wasn't satisfied with that answer, so I asked him 'why' again.

Then he says "I don't want you reading anything bad." I'm like... what? It's a thread about Berbatov! Then he says he'll have to "ban" me from going online if I do. I'm 22 years old! Gah.

Some bitch joined my volleyball team today (HATE HER)

Bitch: Hey! you got your braces off!
Me: yeah...
Bitch: When did you get them off?
Me: 2 years ago

I can't get this guy off of my mind. I want him out of my head, gah!

Why'd I leave my homework till Wednesday?

Why is it when I feel all happy and hyper, everyone I know is in a bad mood and when I am tired and upset everyone is just jumping up and down with excitement?

Seriously?

Christ, this is so petty, but I wish people from school didn't follow my tumblr. Honestly, I wish I was free to post whatever I want without people going "oo-er!" but as soon as I post a picture of a topless chick or a nude man, everyone is up in arms, questioning me the next day at school. Plus, I'm totally unable to write personal posts on there because I can't keep them a secret.

/first world problems

I'm so frustrated and pissy for no reason.

I wanna kitty *sob-sob*

I leave for university tomorrow, and now I'm really freaking out about it. I was fine for the longest time, but last night it suddenly hit me that I can't back out of this. Besides, my university is a two day drive from home, so it's not like I can pop back to visit on the weekends. It might sound nerdy, but my parents are honestly my best friends, and I'm so scared to live without them. I guess I'll probably wind up loving it when I get there, but right now I wish I could go back in time and choose to stay home instead.

Ranta, I understand what you're feeling; I share a similarly close relationship with my parents and felt the exact same way. I've been at college for two weeks and I still miss my parents like hell, but it gets better every day. Your university will have so many planned activities for you that you'll hardly have time to miss them, not to mention the fact that your new friends and your classes will absorb even more of your attention. It's an immense adjustment, but I promise that it will get better-- you're going to love it.

My vent: why do I always hit a creative stride on my writing projects when I have no time to work on them?

I hhhhhhhhhhaaaaaaaaaaaaate games like CityVille (on Facebook), all because of the STUPID requests I get from the STUPID people who don't understand when I tell them that I DO NOT want to play their STUPID game! Jesus Christ!!!

Don't put spices in food without telling me. I am highly sensitive to even bell peppers and will end up sweating for hours afterwards.

HUH?!?!?!?!?! And the site for TS2 is still down?!?!?!?!?!
http://thesims.ea.com/

My brother came home at half midnight last night, minus his keys to get into the house, after telling us he was "Just going to see Stephen for a few minutes" over five hours earlier.

Minor rant.

Ever since I spent 4 days at the hospital two months ago, I've become so bad at keeping up with things on the internet. Like, I used to keep track of a dozen or so articles on Wikipedia. I'm gone for 4 days, haven't checked them since. I'm 15 episodes behind now on a let's play this guy on Youtube is doing, and I keep letting another Youtuber's vlogs go for several days without watching any of them. I stopped checking my daily sites, too. It's just bugging me so much because I used to be so consistent on these things and now I'm not. They didn't even take that much time out of my day.

The headache I have had for the past week won't go away and it's making me cranky and annoyed as hell.

People take things too seriously and really just need to calm the fuck down, take a chill pill and maybe check into a rehab facility for people with no sense of humour.

I'm a real joy to be around today.

My cat, charming as she is, has somehow messed up my laptop's touchpad. Sigh.

If I am what I eat . . . I think I'll have a fun life as a can of Coke and a bowl of cereal, thanks, Dad'snewgirlfriend.

I absolutely hate people. Just because I've worn a pair of shorts for a day doesn't mean I have to change them. Stop fussing about whatever I wear. Just because my asshole brother is coming over with his nephews doesn't mean I have to look like a porcelain doll. If it isn't someone important to me, I don't give a shit what I look like!

I hate so much of the raunchy movies out there! Like seriously, the whole friends with benefits shhhhaaaatt is really bugging me!
Like the most recent movie i saw in the theaters was "The Help" which was absolutely incredible, but these days, we only get good movies like once or twice a year, and it bugs me so much!

I HATE it when my parents / sister / brother walk in my room while I'm listening to music. It's sooo annoying, Jesus! I always notify them when I plug my headphones in and start listening to music, but THEY DON'T REALLY SEEM TO UNDERSTAND FREAKIN' PRIVACY! For Christ sake! And, while I understand my parents and brother, because they are either too old to understand my age or too young, my sister is only 11 years older than me, it's not really that much and she doesn't like being disturbed either! Come the heck on! Is it that hard to knock at the door or frickin' beep me, to stop my music?

I simply HATE IT when my parents make me dress faster when we are ''late'' somewhere. Because of my ''slowness'' we always get in time! I mean, can't you even say thank you to your own daughter?!?! Pff.