People who don't pick up after their dogs shouldn't have dogs, as far as I'm concerned. I take my dog to a nearby soccer field which is an off-leash dog park in the winter. With all this dog shit around, I'm afraid they're going ban dogs from the fields.

Also, much more trivial: people who continuously spell Youtube as "utube" annoy me.

Furthermore: I have had the Toreador Song from Carmen stuck in my head for three days straight.

I have a 3000 word essay due next thursday, and i simply cannot be bothered to do it.

I feel disconnected from everyone I know. Friends, family, I am not sure if it's just me or is there something really going on inside my head. I keep fainting at school, not once at home and I am always so...glum. I feel like all happiness has been drained from me and I am not me anymore. I am always upset, I stopped drawing, my grades are slipping and I feel like I am making the people around me think I am a depressing person, which I swear I am not, I just don't know why I am feeling this way, I am confused and my mom is never free to talk. She doesn't ask how my day went, she doesn't care if I tell her I fainted, she just keeps on yelling at my siblings and ignoring me.

Is a hug or a morning chat so hard to do? I've decided I am going to talk to the counselor at school, she's a good listener and I need someone to talk to other than a none caring parent. My dad is awesome, he truly is, but..he's easily upset by anything that happens to me so I keep to myself sometimes.

People never fail to get on my nerves. I wish I could just take breaks from everyone and abandon all forms of communication and socialization until I felt ready to face them again. If I were a sim I'd definitely have the loner trait.

I don't get this history essay and I've been crying about it for hours and my mom is just telling me to shut the fuck up. Nice really, seeing as how I wanted to drop out of this AP Global History class, but she FORCES me to continue, even after my lovely teacher last year I've vented so many times about before.

I hate my life sometimes, I really do.

Some One Direction fans are so nuts. Sending death threats to Taylor Swift for supposedly dating Harry Styles? Not okay.

ETA: That said, some Swift fans are reacting in exactly the wrong way. #directionersdeservecancer is 100% not okay.

What is wrong with this country? We get the tiniest bit of snow and all public transport just falls apart. This seems to happen every single year and every year they say the same thing about how we don't have systems in place for snow because we don't get it consistently every year. Only we've had snow every year for at least the past nine years so that's not true. It's clearly an issue. Why doesn't somebody do something about it? It's 11.30am now and all the snow that caused problems this morning has already melted; so it's not like we're talking about snow several feet deep here. You'd have been lucky to find it an inch deep. Public transport here is such a joke. One time they stopped the trains because there was a swan on the track.

Minor but, OMG SO MUCH GOOD ANIME ON SALE, RIGHTSTUF.

...And I can't get any of it. (Unless you count not-so-subtly slipping a hint to my dad that my favorite anime is on sale for 40% off. Hehe.)

Great, I was ill three weeks ago and now I'm getting sick again. This is so unfair. I'm such a hygenic freak, I always use anti-bacterial hand gel, I always wash my hands after using public transport and I even go so far as to use tissues when I touch door handles in public places if I think I can get away with it.

I am sick with one hell of a cold. My whole body is numb with pain and I have exams next week and I skipped two this week. If I am still sick I hope they'll let me have make up tests or something.

Now where did that tissue go...

A tornado hit the west part of the city yesterday and killed 3 people. One of them was an older man from my village. This is sad.

I feel so ill and my exam is in three and a half hours. I don't think I can do this but there's no alternative. Exams in winter: Whose bright idea were they?

Edit: I've put on one of my brother's hoodies because I couldn't face getting dressed in nice clothes...I hope this doesn't look like that time when, as an eleven year old, I informed my mother that I could pick out my own clothes because "I know what's cool" and proceeded to dress myself in a navy blue crop top and black flairs.

If only this cold didn't affect my brain's efficiency I would've finished my homework and studied for all my tests this past week. But no! The cold and the meds have to make me feel nauseas and dizzy 24/7!

I am scared I am going to flunk this year.

I think I just saw two teenagers about my age having sex in front of a Dunkin Donuts. If not, they were grinding very much.

I hate people my age. I really, really, really do.

I have two gripes about the new Youtube.

1) I hate that you have to click on something to see just your recent subscriptions.
2) I miss that button above videos and next to the uploader's name that showed you the person's videos in order of upload date.

I suppose I can live with the first thing, but I'm so pissed they got rid of the second feature. It made things so much easier in so many ways. <_>

People who use the wrong version of "there," "their," or "they're" irritate me.

My ex is talking to me through MSN, trying to find out all about my new boyfriend. He's torturing himself and I don't like this one bit.

This has been a really shitty year. I can't wait for it to be over.

I think this new guy in my class is crushing on me. Why you ask? Hmm, let's make a list shall we? We shall!

- He constantly looks and stares at me in class or in the courtyard at school.
- He tries to start a conversation or insert himself into one I am already doing.
- He likes pretty much anything I post on facebook. And everything, I might add. Even the really old posts that are considered stalker alert when liked.
- He always messages me whenever I am online.

I mean, it's nice to have attention and all but I honestly don't like him, not even on a friendly basis to begin with and he makes me feel awkward and now it's become an inside joke between me and my friends.

And on a more weather based vent, it's currently freezing and I can't feel my limbs. And it's really dusty and windy, too.

It sucks that I have to go to school tomorrow just to take the stupid exams I missed. But it's worth not getting a 'F' for not attending.

Sometimes my dreams greatly disturb me.

My ex's mom passed away early last night after 3 long years of battling against very agressive cancer. I'm so sad right now. She was so young.

I was talking to my school college counselor today about what I should do as my college major. She keeps telling me that I should find something I want to do for the rest of my life. I ended up admitting the truth about what I want to do, which is incredibly sexist against my own gender, but I honestly want to be a full time wife and mother. I want to spend lots of time and attention caring for my kids, I love cleaning and doing housework.

I'm not saying I don't want to work, because I have no problem having a career. I actually really do want a career and to work, even when I'm married. But I just don't want to be a mother and a career-woman at the same time. It's hard to be both, especially when both are so time-consuming.

My school college counselor, who's a woman, scolded and got pissy because it was the 21st century, I have rights and the choice/opportunity to get my education and all that. I don't have the right to decide that I want to stay home and be a full time housewife I guess.

I really want next year to be better than this year. It has been nothing but horrible, scary and just plain crap.

Oh, and I am freezing my limbs off. Awesome.

This annoys me so much too. My housemate was really feminist and she used to say the same thing to me when I told her I'd quite like to be a stay-at-home mom. It was all, "Women died for you to get the vote and have the right to do the same work as men" like I didn't appreciate how much women's lives have changed in the past fifty years and was some anti-feminist against women's rights. Well I know that, but surely saying all women have to have careers is just as bad as people saying all women have to stay at home to look after the house. They didn't fight so that I had to go to work, they fought to give us the choice.

New day, new vent.

I had such a bad day today and I just wanted to cry by the time I was on my train home. I really had to fight not to cry on a train in front of strangers. And my best friend has gone to Germany so I can't even talk to her, which led to a realization: I have no friends. Sure, I have 'friends' but she is the only one I actually feel able to talk to about anything important, which turns out to be a problem when she's not around. I just feel so miserable right now.