You guys know what the high school "senior ad" is? Where the parents put pictures of their kids throughout the ages and a small paragraph about how much they love them?

My mom handed me the money, told me that it was a full page ad and to go find the pictures and write the paragraph of about 100-200 words. It wasn't that they were busy. My dad honestly stated that he didn't want to do it and my mom hinted that she didn't care. I know it's silly, but it makes me feel kinda unloved that I had to pick out my own pictures and write the paragraph myself when every other parent (according to my classmates) spent hours and hours tearfully going through the old pictures, old memories and constantly having to shorten the paragraph because it was way over 100-200 words and decide between 50 pictures. I really wish they could have taken the time to do it. It was really hard for me to even find pictures and making the paragraph stretch to 100 words. I sounded like I had a big ego when I wrote it, which is the main reason why I hated writing it.

Retail has killed my Christmas spirit. It's Christmas Eve and I still have to go into work. Ugh.

I'd like to echo the not being in the Christmas spirit this year. I was really looking forward to Christmas this year but now that it's almost here I'm not feeling it at all. I'm going to do some last minute Christmas shopping tomorrow so hopefully that followed by watching Home Alone and Miracle on 34th Street will do it.

I'm probably coming down with something. Merry early Christmas to me. >.<

You know you rely on television too much when its Christmas Eve and you are in a deep pit of depression because Merlin ends forever tonight.

I am one really lame, nerdy teenage girl.
But honestly, I wouldn't have it any other way.

Oh realy mom seriously? I need to learn to work hard at something? !!
Yeah your right
because I'm not in double accel math or advanced RD/LA and I don't spend hours everyday doing homework or working on homework. Oh wait, I am.
GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRRrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.
The sims is one of my only games that I play I like to go on it every other day. No I am not addicted. Many people I know spend hours playing black ops. kids i know have spent 5 hours playing it and their parents didn't even care.
Lighten Up.
yeesh.

Well the last minute Christmas shopping didn't really happen because my friend turned up so late. We ended up going for dinner instead and I (naturally) felt the need to eat a full on two course meal. Not a good call considering the amount of food I will be expected to consume tomorrow.

Right before I went out I asked my father if he'd got my mother anything for Christmas because there was a DVD I wanted to get for her but I had this feeling he might have already bought it. His reply was, "Oh yeah, I did. I suppose you should wrap it." And he hands me the DVD for me to wrap for him. I wasn't asking if he had anything he wanted me to wrap!

I finally got the courage to come out to Dad and he's too busy watching some TV show to pay any attention to me.

Is it just my family that seems to be idiots about contraception? I just found out last night that my 19-year-old (maybe 20? Can't remember) cousin got his 17-year-old girlfriend pregnant, she's now eight months pregnant. His sister has one "accident" daughter (no father in sight). On the other side of the family, my uncle has two children with his "former-fiancée-slash-on-again-off-again-girlfriend-(currently off again)", and my cousin (he's mid-twenties and basically a flake) has an autistic son with one girl, and now has gotten another pregnant (this latest girl also has her own kid).

I don't have a problem with people being married/not married before kids. I love all of my new baby relatives. But every time I turn around it seems someone's popping a baby they didn't entirely mean to conceive; it just boggles my mind.

Well, I now have to change my avatar in order not the cry every time I come online...
Bad TV endings/bad film adaptions/good TV series being cancelled just makes me more determined to go into TV and Film and make stuff worthy of having its own fandom.

^ I am dreading when my favorite TV show gets canceled. I have a horrible feeling that this season might be the last and I'm not ready!

Lately I've been feeling a vague anxiety. It's always there in the background and then at certain times, like at night, it intensifies. The thing is there's nothing specific that I'm anxious about so it's not like I can fix whatever it is that's bothering me. I guess it's a lot of things.

I had a diasgreement, shall we say, with my father today. I really think it would be better if the two of us just stopped talking unless it's absolutely necessary. It's like the Cuban Missile Crisis every day in terms of relations. He's never going to change and I don't know why I keep thinking he will.

My dad got my sister a computer. Now, normally I wouldn't be pissed, but she already HAS a computer. Two, actually, that she refuses to use. And she'll refuse to use this one because it's a Mac and she hates Macs. She's told me so several times "I refuse to use Macs". And when she does refuse this Mac, I'll gladly fucking take it, since my computer SUCKS MAJORLY and cannot play disks.

I hate my period. Plain and simple.

I'm so not ready to go back to work today. It's only a 5 hour shift, but after spending a minimum of 10 hours there everyday for the past two weeks, three days off is not enough.

My phone's not working again because I forgot that you can't turn it off, ever, or it won't let you enter the code to turn it back on.

My mom wants me to write a full paper for tomorrow when it's due on Monday. She wants me to spread myself too thin, and when I refuse her outrageous demand, she yells at me and tells me that "You took the class, you're responsible for the work!" While that is true, the work is due on Monday and I wrote the introductory paragraph for it. So I did some work, just not all of it. I can get it done by Monday, that's not a problem. My mom needs to calm herself down and let me be responsible for my own planning.

I get a little depressed when I stop and think, and realize the only friends I have that aren't online-only are all adults. My parents, my teacher and a woman who pretty much babysits me, at 16.

Don't get me wrong, I love my friends that are online, I've known them for five years and I can't wait to meet them, but sometimes I get sad when I realize I have nobody to hang out with in real life.

Hmm.

When people in lines are very impatient and push you and tell you to hurry up

I was getting my mom's medicine at the store, and while I was there I picked up a few things I knew we needed at the house. It was flipping crazy crowded there today and one woman followed me to my car (and I actually somehow got a great parking spot to) and proceeded to cuss me out and honk obnoxiously at me, flipping me off and acting like she was going to run me over before I could even get to my keys to unlock my car.

Just to be a bitch because she was so pissy, I did take my sweet ass time putting my stuff away, arranging everything just so. Then got into my car, redid my make-up, listened to a few songs, ate some of the chips I bought, and then slowly left.

A kid at Wal-Mart bit me...................

I am exhausted and I was supposed to finish a chapter of chemistry and finish some tests for it but period cramps had another idea.

Now I have to do all the work for chemistry and Arabic tomorrow. FML.

My grandmother's sick. What a great start to the new year. So far 2013 is shaping up to be as bad as 2012 was.

Hope she gets better!

I'm having the worst depersonalization/derealization episode of my life so far. It's been going on for a couple of days, and most of the time I've got no idea what's going on. It's really frustrating and I just want it to go away.