Ugh, just found out that a girl I really don't like is going to study in the same city as me. Among her classmates there are some acquaintances of mine, cue the talking behind my back. She was my main source of petty teenage drama in high school and I couldn't wait for her to get out of my life. I just hope I won't run into her often.

Thank you, Rabid, that really does help. I just moved into my dorm this morning and said goodbye to my dad, which has been the hardest part of the process so far. I figure that I'll give myself an hour or so to sit in my room and be depressed, then try to suck it up, move on, and meet my neighbours. I hope that the rest of your year goes well, and that things do get easier from here on out!

I hate it when people knock on your door and then walk straight in anyway, before you've had a chance to say whether they can come in or not. My parents do it, which is irritating enough, but my housemate at university used to do it all the time too, even after she had walked in on another housemate totally naked.

My freshman year of high school starts in 2 days. I'm not sad about going to high school, to be honest, I don't feel any emotion about going, it's just the fact that.... I'M GOING TO MISS SUMMER VACATION!

Tomorrow I have first two of the three biggest exams of my little life. I'm so nervous, and you can't even study for them. Ugh.

At 1am I was thinking about my life and suddenly I got quite depressed and I was thinking about how I needed friend. I looked through my contacts in my phone for my best friends but nobody felt quite right to call, and I then I was thinking about someone I used to be friends with...we've known each other since we were two, which is almost 19 years....I suddenly really wanted to talk to him more than anyone, but we haven't spoken in about a year and what will he say...he'll think why is she contacting me now after a year of silence...but I want to talk to him so desperately. I'm just worried that he'll wonder why am I talking to him after all this time?

God, I feel so alone and so much like I need a friend. I just want this one friend so badly. I think I might be a bit drunk too, which is really bad, because I want to send him a text or a facebook message...however I think he might have already moved away in which case I'm wasting my time contacting him because he's miles away. I feel miserable.

Getting a Disconnection Notice from my power company telling me they are going to turn of my power this weekend when I have already paid the bill, ugh!

I really miss TS3. I have my toe dipped in so many different academic and extracurricular puddles that my free time is limited, and when I have it, I prefer to read for pleasure or browse the Internet. I can't wait to have a block of time in the near future to reconnect with my pixels.

I'm not one to get worked up over sporting events, but the RadioShack-Leopard Trek merger is too ridiculous for me to stomach. I guess I just don't like seeing people being treated like crap.

I have no inclination to do my homework. Seriously, I can't do it. All I want to do is sleep... and I don't even know why, I slept plenty. I wonder how mad my dad and teacher'll be if we just add it onto this week's load.

My best friend hasn't spoken to me in months. And I think it's because she's dating my ex.

So I've been thinking more about the fact that I'm stuck at university for a year, and even though it's way too early to tell, I feel like I really want to transfer to a local university this fall. The tutition would be (much!) cheaper, I wouldn't have to be away from my family/high school friends, and it might even give me edge in getting into the graduate program I'm after. But two things are making me hesitate: the grad program happens to be at that same university, and in spite of the fact that I'm planning to get an apartment in the city for it as opposed to living with my parents until I'm 30 (I love them to death and want to be close to them, but also feel like I'll want more independence), I worry that by transferring back, I'd miss the chance to see new places. Then again, I do plan to travel a lot when I'm older, so maybe it wouldn't be so bad-- I'd always be stationed in the same 'home base', but still get the chance to see the world and experience new things.

Secondly (and I know how stupid this sounds), I'm really scared that I'll get too attached to the university I'm at now. I want to like it, but I don't want to love it, if that makes any sense-- I want to want myself to go home. I don't want my priorities to change. The last thing I'm planning to do is isolate myself and be miserable all year, but some weird, immature part of me worries that making tons of friends and having tons of fun will totally mess up my plan. I'm already starting to get close with a girl on my floor and she's so fantastic, but something in the back of my mind keeps nagging me not to get to close to anyone, because I'm only here for a year. I hope. I think.

Sorry for the novel-- I'm still trying to sort my feelings out myself, and hoping that writing them all down will help.

So much of the stuff I buy is foreign that I've begun to hope that the shipping won't be more than the item I'm buying.

Haven't slept well because of serious stomach ache. Still having that feeling in my throat that makes you wanna throw up. Sorry for being disguisting. Can't really concertrate right now....

Get well, Nixxy!

I'm also ill... School just began but I've already had health problems... Yesterday I had very high temperature, I'm always sneezing and coughing, I felt dizzy and I had nausea... I guess there's nothing serious, I just got a cold (But temperature is still high... How did I manage to do that?), and luckily just the sneezing and coughing stayed of the symptoms... I hope the doctor won't make me to stay home if it's not infectious. My classmates never give me the homeworks and notes they 've written on the lesson... Maybe it sounds weird but I'd rather sit on the lessons with problems than getting bad marks because "even if you're ill, you have to learn"...

My boyfriend accidently broke a window and now I am scared that my cat ate a piece of glass --.--

I hope nothing bad has happened!

I hate civics so much. today was my first day of being a sophmore and i almost fell asleep in civics class today. Its all about politics & how the Canadian government runs. BOOORRRINNNGGG!
Besides, I hear all about that from my dad and on the news. I find it so pointless -___-

I hate how "professionals" are usually people who sit around in spinny chairs and play Farmville in their pyjamas, and don't know how to turn on a freakin' printer.

When you have to guide an "IT Pro" through this, please hang up and try again.

I hate neighbors that leave their large, barky dogs outside all night. It's midnight, bring them inside so they shut up!

I have an interview in a few hours with a guy who just might get me a job at his computers store . . . except it's in a REALLY bad part of town and I have to walk there. GREAAAAAAAT. D: Excuse me while I practise my "missing person on milk carton" faces.

The fact that I can't go out today is making me furious T.T . It's not that I'm not allowed, I just can't. There are too many cars parked infront of my door that I can't pass them! I hate holidays sometimes...It makes everyone remember that they are christians and then THE WHOLE FREAKING COUNTRY GOES TO CHURCH. And then they decide to park infront of MY door. No wonder my dad makes other people feel very,very,very uncomfortable =_= .

Yesterday, while I was out with my friends, a freaking hairy white caterpillar was making its way on my. Fucking. Leg. I thought I was going to die. Jesus, I don't even know how I managed to get it off. Ugh.

It bothers me a lot when people say, "Oh, when my novel gets published" when they haven't been in contact with any agents, editors, or publishers throughout their entire time writing, haven't had their work edited or proofed by anyone with any literary merit, and just expect to be immediately published. And then, they turn around and are so crushed when they get rejected. The writing industry is a cut-throat bitch. You can't just expect to be published because you sent in a poorly written, unedited, amateur novel. Christ.

The fire alarms in my building went off at 2 A.M. and woke us all up. When they go off, we have to exit the building and go across the street. It was so cold and most of us were asleep. Who the fuck is responsible? I want names.

Ugh, our university gave us a whole lecture on that when we first got here-- what makes it even worse is that dorms are classified as high capacity housing, and fire trucks are required by law to come to them before practically anything else (excluding hospitals and retirement homes). Someone apparently died in my university's town a couple of years back because of a house fire, and the fire trucks couldn't get there since they were responding to a false alarm in residence! I seriously wonder what people are thinking when they pull those alarms. :/

My vent: it's so cold here! A couple of days ago it was almost too hot, and suddenly it feels like November. What happened?

I want to kill whoever came up with the idea of "dispersed scheduling". NO, I do *not* want to start at different times each day and NO, I do not want my breaks in 5 minute intervals. Then you tell me that I can finish an hour early and go home when my bus doesn't come for another hour.

I'm really considering not taking this job.

^How great a difference in start times is it? I start work at either 5, 5:30 or 6pm - Although next Thursday I have an 8:30AM start. It's fine once ya get used to all the different bus times (when you're using public transport, obviously) Being able to start at whatever time the employer needs ya to will always help ya land a job. Is there not another bus you could take when ya finish?

As for breaks, you have a better offer than I've got, lol. There's no time for breaks in the restaurant. When we get dinner we nibble on food whilst working. Job's a job, main thing is to get one and then you can start looking elsewhere for a different one, so you're earning money in the mean time. ^.^

Oh, you know, the usual, cramps, cranky mood and vicious thoughts: the monthlies.

Men! Can't live with em!

Edit: ... can't live without em either I suppose

Same here. It's horrible, but at least it'll be gone by Monday.

My legs hurt so bad from staying and running and dancing the whole night. My throat is sore from screaming on Top Spin. I can't even speak properly without coughing! Well, at least my friends and I had good time.

It's like 5, 6:45, 9, 10, 5:30. There's not that many buses to the area I work so this will be hard.

I hate when Windows crashes down when I'm building something!!!!!!!!!! $*"!#$#"!$#$#"#!"#$&%$& !!

People who post fake pictures pretending to be scene. >_> I've seen like 5 people with the same profile picture on one site, of a random myspace chick that they're claiming to be.

^ Oh god, that pisses me off so much that I feel the need to out anyone who does it. Which I've probably demonstrated a lot of times here XD

^ Exactly. Some people just need to accept that they're not gonna be like a Covergirl commercial and whip out their flip phones, take a picture and suck it up. And if they *do* post a picture . . . it's enchanced byphotoshopping. I hate photoshop.

This fucking sims 2 downloads folder Felix gave me off a USB drive is pissing me off. LIKE HOW MANY TIMES ARE YOU GOING TO CRASH, MR ANYGAME1?! Fuck, I NEED YOU TO WOORRRRRKKKKK-AH.

-incinerates game-

I can't remember if I replied to someone I was messaging, it's been 3 days now and I had no reply from them and I am getting worried.

Cute boy is no longer going to the party I'm attending tonight. Ugh.

I haven't written anything worth reading in so long.

I want to sleep, my brain is as good as a wooden plank but I can't go to bed now.

I'm going to murder someone in my dorm. It's difficult to write a paper when a noisy leapfrog championship is occurring in the hallway.

Yes, I'm writing a paper on a Saturday night. Don't judge.

People who complain for getting *only* 39 comments on their video when most people are lucky to get 3. Especially when these people have like 300 subs and the people with 3 comments have 1500.

Ugh, my brother plays his music at such an obnoxiously loud level, with the bass up so high! It makes doing anything in the lounge, which is directly above his bedroom, absolutely impossible unless you enjoy a particularly bouncy visit.

I bought my school uniform a week ago, the school administrators told us to get either gray pants or skirts, I got two pants and one skirt. Today when my dad went to get my books they told him girls are not allowed to wear pants, only skirts. The issue here is not with the skirts but with the shoes, I bought sneaker-like black shoes to wear with the pants and they look hideous,HIDEOUS with the skirt. And they cost 360 pounds.

FML?

Why have I suddenly gotten a powerful urge to play TS3 when I have homework to accomplish?

I hate therapy. So it's only fitting that my doctor should stop focusing on my medication (which I am still taking) and start focusing on helping me "understand" my problem and "stop it before it starts." YEAH, I'VE TRIED THAT. Not. Fucking. Possible. Acknowledging the fact that someone might sniff does not help me. The sniff still bugs me. And understanding my problem? I'VE BEEN LIKE THIS FOR A YEAR AND A HALF, I THINK I FUCKING UNDERSTAND IT. He's asking me to try to understand WHY this is happening. YOU THINK I KNOW THAT?!

See what thinking about therapy does to me? And to make it worse, he's brought in a student to my appointments. I DON'T WANT A STRANGER IN THERE. I'm still not totally comfortable with him.

Poor you. If I may ask, what's your problem?

It took me 5 hours (not exaggerating one bit) to do Social Studies homework. It wasn't hard, just tedious!

Very, very long story. I've been venting about it since March of last year. Let's just say that I'm autistic and have issues.

Oh, I'm sorry for it. I hope your situation can be better! I can listen your story, if you want to tell anyone.

cupcake12winx - i completely understand where your coming from! I supposedly have Aspergers (riiiiight, more like ADD...) and they tried doing counseling and meds on me, that didn't do anything for me, so i understand how frusterating it is!

my rant is how ANNOYING my Grandmother is, dont get me wrong, I LOVE that woman to utter death, but shes so munipulating and on your case about everything, she has to have a say in everything, like she can't be quiet. sheeesh!

Okay, apparently tourists caused 9/11.

Dumbasses.

My boyfriend wasn't treating me right so i broke it off.
Mom still treating me like im 16, no staying out past 9pm. Im 20.
Cant get my face to clear up T_T

We have a new, DEAR classmate in college, who seems to forget that she is new and I am OLD, so to speak. Wow, she's really smart, calling me everything there is to be called in front of one of my (now ex) friends. She is so proud of her stupidity, it really amazes me. She's going to "beat me up" if I do not kiss her ass like everyone else. If she even dares to touch me, it'll be her WORST mistake ever.

It seems to me that you and I would agree very well with eachother,my friend

My vent: I just got back from school(actually,few hours ago,but I wasn't feeling like having fun on computer at that time...) and we got our schedules today. It is HORRIBLE. I'm going to be stuck in school(at Thursdays only,but still!) for 7 HOURS(translate to english: 7 periods, am I right? o.O )! I was like, WTF??? And what kind of creature can survive this schedule for Tuesday:
-Physics (our teacher is horrible T.T)
-History ( don't let me start on Mr.Donut -.- everyone is afraid of him! But,he treats me nice)
- 2 periods of Geography( let me just say this, ALL teachers in my school are horrible. Okay, I'm exaggerating right now, not all of 'em. English and math teacher are awesome But my Geography teacher is a real. Pain. In. The. Fracking. Butt. With. His. Stupid. History. How do I say this,oh yeah!, FACTS! I mean, he always talks about stuff that I will never understand or I just simply don't care,none of us do!)
-And Math in the end...great -.-

Loooooooooooooooong vent but I think you get was I trying to say,right? That tomorrow is going to be HELL for my classmates and me. God,help us!

^Classes, actually, but, OMG, the only classes missing there are Biology and Chemistry. Then, the "menu" would be complete.

^I know! Actually,there are quite a few more missing than just Biology and Chemistry. There's Croatian, English, German and RE(religious education-or studies?I believe that is the right expression I learned in school-,not really good at translating my classes to english o.O ). Then the ''menu'' would be complete. But this is hard enough,no need to squeeze those in too!

^ Being at school for 7 hours on one day is really nothing. Try college - 8:30-5:30 - every single fracking day, doing the same thing >.< lol

I managed to, in summation:

- Find out that two guys I know down the street are plotting to beat me up for money
- Fully kill a macbook and my prized video editing program within a 20-minute period
- Lose my USB Flash Drive, twice
- Get a magnet near my harddrive, and now all my icons are white "file" icons
- Lose a sandwich and fruit cup to a flyby horde of bees
- Fuck up a wireless network
- Drop my camcorder off my deck
- Choke on water, and then on ramen
- Eat bugs that were in my cornflakes

Just beautiful. My homework got deleted for seemingly no reason. Rawr.

Having problems with modular stairs in TS2. Just can't understand what happened. >.<

I could totally punch something and then laugh at it. Life is so weird and I need to sleep but I can't.

I'm really sick and I have two essays which I need to finish by the end of today but all I want to do is curl up and watch Breakfast at Tiffany's.

So much happened that is bad...

• I cut myself for the first time, but fainted when I saw blood ( It was an accident)
• I lost my phone in NH. I live in MA
• I have Friday by Rebecca Black stuck in my head
• I have homework to do now
• I have PCOS and I need birth control to get my period. FML :'(
• I might be becoming an emo
• I am losing motivation in my flipnotes

I'm crying all over the place and, to top that, I've got this splitting headache. Ugh, such a fun day.

The amount of parking tickets I've gotten this year is ridiculous.

Effing homework. I've tried to do it, but nothing I read registers.

Hey homework, could you quit asking me to describe revolting paths through the body? Thanks.

My right arm is swollen and I am in the beginning of a migraine. I wish I could buy a servo to clean my room up, it exhausts me so much.

Just got the news that someone from my old high school has passed away in the last 12 hours. So sad to hear the news. But I'm glad he lived the life he did, and happy to see the amount of people he has affected during his life time. It's not how long you live, but how you live the life you have ♥ RIP Isaac

That feeling when you know that you have to wash your hair every single day. Just because you want to look good and hate greasy hair. Ugh.

Youtube's subscription box. -sighs- WHEN WILL THEY LEARN TO LEAVE STUFF THAT ISN'T BROKEN ALONE.

^Same goes for The Sims series.

Excuse my ridiculously long vent, and I will probably delete this later but for now I am extremely pissed off and I need somewhere to talk trash freely without feeling bad about it.

My big sister is so annoying. She gives me crap about nearly everything when she does so much worse, 9 times out of 10 she's the cause of any problems we have in this family.

So my friend and I are both attending UCLA and we're living in an off campus apartment for the entire 4 years. My parents and my roommates parents helped buy us a 3 bedroom apartment in West Hollywood.

My older sister of course complained that our apartment was too expensive and we were too young and immature to be living on our own. The issue being that I have discussed getting an apartment since my Junior year of High School and I had to prove to them that I could live responsibly on my own. Of course they could have bought me a cheaper apartment, but our parents chose the apartment for us, obviously its affordable and its certainly affordable. What really annoys me about my sister is that no matter what my parents buy me she's always jealous or pissed off about it.

Now my sister and I have never gotten along, and here's some of the many reasons:

1. She went to New York University and dropped out in '09 during her Junior year because she got pregnant.
2. She literally cried that our parents didn't care about her because they refused to by her a condo in Upper East Manhattan. Finally they gave in and bought this ridiculously expensive condo for her... literally about 3 months later she wanted to move out and wanted them to buy her a ridiculously expensive house here in L.A. My mom and step-dad were planning a move anyway and put our house up for sale, but since my sister wanted a house they gave her the old house and they STILL pay the bills for it. Because she refuses to get a job. Oh wait... that brings me to problem #3.
3. She doesn't have a job. She worked at McDonalds for a week before she complained that it hurt her back to stand up for so long and the smell of burgers "make her nauseous" (Wtf? And not to mention how the hell is a job at McDonalds gonna pay the bills?). Girls, she has a FAMILY that consists of a husband and a son and she nor her husband WORK. My parents and her husband's parents pay the bills for her. Seriously? I mean yes my parents will pay for my apartment but I am a COLLEGE student with no intention of getting pregnant, being a spoiled brat or dropping out.
4. My parents spoil her rotten, and it infuriates me to the highest stress-level degree!
5. She wants to have another baby. SHE WANTS TO HAVE ANOTHER BABY. I put that in caps because it's just unbelievable. You can't even afford to take care of yourself and you're trying to have more children?

She's spoiled and she's a brat and she thinks that the world owes her everything and she only thinks of herself. And then she has the audacity to complain to my parents that I am a spoiled brat, and it angers me because that's not the first time she has said this. First of all I HAD job and I used my own money unless I needed my parents help, she definiitely has the roles mixed up to call me the spoiled one! My parents don't see anything wrong with what she does, however my other older sister and I are always made out to be the bad guys.

My other sister goes to school in Indiana, she and her fiance spend their own money and bought themselves an apartment. I look up to her so much! She doesn't mooch off of my parents and unlike me she can actually stand up to our other sister. I mean I can stand up to her but she pisses me off so badly that I can't keep my cool without blowing up. I hate to say it, but she's the worst sibling anyone could ever have. I can't wait for her to fall on her ass and the day my parents decide to stop helping her and she's left with the cold hard truth that she's an adult and the world does not cater to her every whim because THAT'S the only way she will ever learn anything.

I'm done.

Oh God, I love my new year in college so far but seriously... the workload is a bit crazy. You have to stay on your toes a lot more, there are tests coming out of my ears at this rate. I'm practically doing 3 tests a week it seems. My days are 9am-4pm usually, but when I come home I like to relax a bit, eat dinner, check up on some things online. Then boom. Next thing I know it I'm tired and want to go to bed. I find myself doing homework at about 6:30am and I'm sick of it. One thing I am pleased about though... is I don't have math until Thursday, but knowing me, I'll probably only bother doing my homework for it Wednesday night or Thursday morning.

And this next bit is directed towards my former friend...
You were almost perfect, I wish you were someone else. Similar mind, different body/life. I sincerely hope everything you've ever told me was true, but I know there are many occasions you have lied to me, probably because you thought you were protecting me, but it was all so obvious.
Most of all, I wish you weren't such a sleaze-bag.

Me + 4 hours of World History Homework (college level, mind you.) = Bitchmode.

I spent an hour making vegetable soup that tasted no where as delicious as it smelt.
Also, I have to leave my pyjama bubble to go to the post office and get some cat biscuits.

Three more assignments, on top of the novella I have to write? I wub Year 12!

Why hello, sore throat. Really bad timing.

So my sister called me crying ---> -__-

Of course she always has to make herself out to be the victim, I hope she doesn't expect me to feel bad for her though, because I don't.

So many pages to read, and so little motivation to do it. I feel like I'm gonna be in over my head unless I can get all this stuff done today, but I can't focus on anything at the moment. :/

I'm feeling like utter shit tonight, and I really can't put it into words, I think it can be best described as 'growing pains'. I really just don't know anymore, I don't know what I want or what I need, an it's now down to small things like eating or sleeping. I'm just so cold and miserable tonight and I really don't know what to do to make me feel even slightly better.

My American Literature professor is so frustrating. If you express an opinion or an interpretation with which she doesn't agree, then your views are automatically incorrect and invalid. The beauty of literature is that there isn't a right answer-- anyone who sees it as black and white shouldn't be teaching.

Last time I checked, my name doesn't have an invisible "e" anywhere in it, so it shouldn't be pronounced like it does.

I HATE reading stories that were written a long time ago. Why? Because most of the time, they're written in such a manner that I can barely understand them. Fuck it.

Wheatley is being such a little terror tonight.

I have the worst headache over a World History quiz! I've gotten 9 wrong (so far. It's online) out of 20, and the answers I put were in the fucking textbook! I want to kill my World History teacher. I feel like I'm going to pass out. My mom is yelling at ME over this. Tonight is Meet the Teacher night at school, and I just want to see what they think of this mega dick.

Have to have someone come over to fix our broken window today, ugh social interaction.

I am crying my eyes out because of poor Jamey who killed himself because of some fucking bullies only cuz he's gay.

There's a party on tomorrow night and I'm so sick of people trying to get me to go. It's a forty minute commute out there, another forty home, and I'll only be there for two hours at most. Plus, I would much rather curl up with someone and a good movie than go to another party. I just wish everyone would stop hassling me!

I wish I could fast-forward to tomorrow.

Double-posting 'cause I fail at life.
I'm so embarrassed. My brother's friend came over quite unexpectedly, the house is a mess and I look like a bum. I'm ruining my chances with the football team.

Sooo, my being-sick-every-day season has officially began. I caught the flu. My stomach hurts like crazy and my nose is fucked up. It will be like this until Spring. FML.

I came back yesterday from my 4-day excursion and I feel so sore...I will never walk that much like I did those days or see things that I saw in that damn disco...

The sad truth is that their will always be jerks out their bullying others on their orientation, ethnicity, etc. When I was a little this kid committed suicide who went to my elementary school. I wasn't friends with him, but he was very nice although shy and he lived across the street from me. Ever since then I've always made a concious effort to be friendly to others, not just by their orientation but even if they're an outcast.

When I was in 6th grade my parents had just gotten divorced and they didn't handle it very well, it was messy and ugly and I became depressed and wouldn't talk to anyone... I mean literally I didn't talk even when someone asked me my name. My freshmen year of High School I made a concious effort to change myself for the better and I'm so glad that I did.

To relate this back to the topic. Because of my experiences I try to help others the best I can, whether it's defending them against a bully or getting my friends and I to sit with them at the lunch table.

At the end of the day we're all human beings, we're all one in the same.

I woke up smiling for the first time in a long time, and now I'm close to bursting into tears. It's kind of funny how things can go so wrong so quickly.

I hope none of you have tickets to the London Olympics next year, because the public transport in London really is appalling. I've been to quite a few countries in the Western world and without a doubt this country's has been the worst for public transport. It's ludicrously overpriced, incredibly unreliable and completely unable to cope with the amount of people using it each day. It feels like you're on a cattle train, and let me tell you, chivalry most definitely is dead and I'm pretty sure it died on the train I was on this evening.

I felt like crap the last few days. Always sleepy, tired, not in the mood for anything other than sleeping my ass off. Going to college every day certainly doesn't help either. All I need is a nice little one week break, during which I would sleep from 11 pm to 1 pm. Maybe that would make me feel better.

^ That's how I've been feeling lately, and I haven't even started college yet. I think I kinda made myself sick on purpose so I had an excuse to stay in bed. I don't have the motivation for anything, and it just sucks.