I have the weirdest urge to kick someone in the teeth and then throw them into a volcano....
Yep, that's Aunt Flowe alright, she gives me the darnest ideas!

Really minor vent, but firefox's latest version is really bugging me. I hate things changing!

Anyone see the preview for the Grey's Anatomy season finale? If Meredith and Derek breaks up I am going to be PISSED. After 7 Seasons why the hell would they choose now to break them up ? ? ? And Weber is being an asshole, Meredith saved your wifes life and you fire her? Yet when Izzy cut Denny's wire, they wanted her to come back. And I'm even more pissed that Alex would tell on Meredith in the first place, how the hell do you just rat your friend out like that?

I have to miss the Harry Potter midnight premiere because I'm going to be in Bangkok. It's a stupid vent and really, going to Thailand should rate above seeing Harry Potter, but Harry Potter is essentially my childhood, and I'm going to be missing it. I hate growing up.

I really have to learn how to be more confident with myself and stop being so insecure. A guy finally showed interest in me for the first time ever (and I'm not all that young, I was starting to lose all hope), and my insecurities keep getting the better of me saying "maybe it's all a big joke and he's doing it for laughs because no one could ever find you attractive."

Hohum. And here I thought I was doing so well with myself.

Every single game online now has some sort of payment, be it for things you want to buy or to actually play the game, the concept of paying for a bunch of pixels (no matter how cute) is outrageous to me.

^ You pay for Sims, don't you? They're pixels.

^I think she means that online games used to be free and whatnot, but now every one has all these super options if you pay, and if you don't, the game is just boring and repetitive. Plus, the fees for paying for online games, in my opinion, are often ridiculously expensive. Plus, with Sims, there aren't ongoing payments (unless you buy things from the Store). You pay once for the game and then bang, you're done, rather than monthly payments and whatever.

My vent: Going to a party in an hour and I have no idea what to wear and Gemma isn't at her house yet so I can't raid her wardrobe. We've gradually merged our wardrobes into one seeing as we live five minutes away from each other and have the same style.

^ Even so, it costs a lot of money to produce and run online games. I don't know, maybe I'm biased because I play an MMORPG. It's only $10 a month, though.

I have to take an unexpected journey today which involves at least two buses, three if I can't get a ride at the other end, and now the stupid bus timetable website is not letting my check the bus times. I hate having things unplanned. I'm going to pack and try again in a minute.

I never paid anything for Sims, I never bought pay items, heck I never check out paysites!

Pixcii pretty much said it all for me but to clarify what I meant was small games like the ones on Facebook, they are pretty small and in my opinion don't deserve me paying 100 bucks just to buy my character some fluffy bunny slippers.

New vent: My baby sister has the most annoying habit to keep squealing all the time and crying whenever she wants something. NONSTOP.

I'm having the worst cramps ever.

I submitted my housing preference form for college next year and am now crossing my fingers in the hope that I end up being matched with a good roommate. I know that I'm a little bit neurotic— I alphabetize my books, I need absolute silence and pitch darkness to sleep, I keep a very orderly desk— but I don't think I'm too completely crazy to live with. I've talked to people who've become best friends with their roommates and others who end up getting in screaming matches with them. I'm not a hermit, but I'm a fairly private person and I need my alone time, so the idea of living with a stranger makes me uncomfortable. Maybe I'm getting tied up in knots over nothing, but I guess I'm just nervous.

I didn't do anything remotely productive today. I never do. I need a life, but there's nothing for me to DO. My mental crap prevents me from going anywhere with other people, I have no friends outside of the internet, and I don't go to public school. Now I've reverted back to being nocturnal so my waking hours are even more boring. It's driving me nuts because I feel like I'm wasting my life even though there's nothing better for me to do.

Also, mornings are too fucking bright.

Cupcake, you sound like a mirror image of me from 15-18! No friends, I homeschooled (eventually dropped out) and my sleeping hours were like 7am to 3-4pm. It was like I was a prisoner in my own home because I lived in the middle of nowhere, no car, so I couldn't go anywhere. I ended up in a depressed slump.

Don't get discouraged! You'll get "out" eventually. I did a full 180 once I got a car and was able to get out of the house and get a job. And thanks to the job, I was able to get myself on a flexible sleep schedule. Now I'm confident saying I'm content with my life right now. Hang in there!

I agree so much with Nightly about the 180. I was constantly bullied throughout Middle School, and my parents divorce didn't make it any better. So I clammed up and became this anti-social and depressed kid. I had to go to therapy, and something my therapist told me that STUCK was that I had to be willing to make some changes instead of accepting what"IS". So in 8th Grade, despite my social anxiety I forced myself into joining clubs and socializing etc. I did whatever I could to get myself out there, and I found a love for Theater, which put me in the limelight because I had to act on stage in front of people. I'm SOO glad that I did though, it really was like a full 180 flip. You just have to be willing to change your lifestyle to one that you favor, instead of accepting that you "cant do this and can't do that"

And now you know my whole life story

My mother left a message on our machine that didn't sound like anything - just garbles - so I asked my dad and he just looked at me and said "she's been drinking quite a lot, hasn't she?" and went back to his laptop. Then he gets up and goes to the fridge, cracks open a beer, and tells me "Oh, yeah. Your mother and I are getting divorced." Excuse me, but this is NOT a casual conversation topic . . . men. Honestly. I mean, I'm actually not very torn up about it- they've been living apart for a while now - but my mother has custody of my two younger siblings, plus my dad wants to adopt Reese, our ex-foster. What will happen to them? Damien already told me that they're starving half the time because she's out with her friends and Jenna is left to babysit them. Ugh. Is there a rewind button on life?

EDIT: Don't. Even. Start. The. Shit. With. Me. Mother.

Insult gays to my face again, I kick your judgemental ass. "Oh but straight is the tradition!" I have one word for you - GIRAFFES.

The guy I've been chatting with (over 100 texts since last night) just told me that he smokes weed "sometimes" (now "barely at all") and other "legal stuff from smoke shops" but no cigarettes. I've seen way too many negatives side effects from drugs and alcohol and that shit doesn't interest me in the least bit.

As much as it bums me out, it's a deal breaker. I'm not picky and I'm easy going otherwise, but I'm not going to be around/with someone who does it even if it's only "sometimes."

I don't know if I've posted this before, but my hair is falling out. I've lost about half my hair over the past five months and I'm really, really scared. I've cut it, swapped my shampoo and conditioner, started taking a multivitamin and it seems to have gone back to a normal rate of hair loss, but half my hair is gone. I just couldn't bear it if I went bald at 16, my thick hair was one of the few things that helped boost my confidence, and I know it shouldn't matter so much to me but it just does.

I'm so stressed out and upset for no reason. My English teacher is putting a lot of pressure on me - which I'm totally okay with - because he thinks I'm one of the most competent students he's ever taught (marks all above 90%, 10/10 on in-class debates, etc.) but it's starting to weigh down on me. I tried talking to a 'friend' about it and she immediately said "You'll be fine, I have my own problems to worry about, too." I did not need that after the terrible day I've had and if I dared to say something like that, she'd rip me to shreds, but I can only sit here and wallow in sadness because I'm so stressed and tired and I feel like I'm about to explode because people are talking about me behind my back and everything is horrid.

Prom is this Saturday and I've been planning to have a movie marathon with two friends because we don't want to go. It turns out that one friend's sister is graduating from college in the neighboring state, so she'll be unavailable, which is completely understandable. The other friend just told me today that she's thinking of going to prom after all. She always does this; she changes her mind on a selfish whim, does what she wants to do, and doesn't think of how it effects anyone else. My parents have always forced me to stick with the first invitation because ditching that person for the greener pastures of the second invitation is rude. It's like she hasn't even thought of the fact that ditching me will hurt my feelings. People are just toys to her, and I hate it.

Dear Aunt Flowe,

We've only met a few years ago, we started off fine and then the roads started to get bumpy with us in our little red van.
You were nice to me before, then each month your royal arseness began to appear more and more, and I am terribly sorry to say this but....you're annoying, repulsive and you ruin my best pants and sheets.

Hate you always,
Dina

Call me fat? Okay. Deal. Call me fat and stupid? Houston, we have a problem.

Honestly. People these days -.-

There is a credit card skimmer in my home town and I got a message today saying my debit card has been comprimised and cancelled. I have been in Melbourne two months now, So I obviously haven't spent any money there.

I just screwed up my first Chemistry exam dfgagah.