You're certainly not foolish for expecting better, any sensible person thinks the same as we do. At the end of the day though we can only worry about ourselves, make sure we stick to making the smart decisions and wait for them to finally realise that they're actually the sticks in the mud for being stupid.

You'll be the one with the better grades, able to remember your entire university experience, and remembered later in life for the right reasons. Don't stress over it too much.

I'm sorry, I pride myself on being quite a sensible person, but I've been known to go out and party quite wildly, yet I still come back to school, get incredibly high grades, get my writing published in literary journals, etc. I'm not a stick in the mud because I like to party, partying certainly does not make me stupid, and my grades aren't altered by my weekend activities. If anything, my experiences when drinking at parties have made me a better writer, because I've seen more sides to life, and that certainly doesn't make me stupid, either.

This just seemed a bit judgmental, and I just wanted to defend myself and others like me.

What Rabid and I are saying is the people who do nothing but party excessively and then have the gall to judge those of us who prefer not to do such things are the stupid ones.. I don't have anything against partying - it's the idiots who thinks that it's the only way to have fun and get themselves absolutely trashed every weekend on alcohol and illegal drugs with no idea what they've done the night before that bothers me, but if they wanna do that to themselves, go right ahead, I'll watch from the sidelines and see just how much damage they cause to themselves in the future.

WHY are my neighbors, who are 10 feet away, choosing to hammer themselves silly at TEN O'CLOCK AT NIGHT?!

I agree with all three of you (Rabid, Geah and Lethifold) and can definitely relate to Lethifold. I love to party but that's just my part of my personality, however I definitely could not go out and party all the time. Some students party all week and avoid studying all together.Obviously the failure/dropout rate for them are really high. Very few people can party all the time and still pull A's on their finals. But even if that were the case, as a college student and even in general, you have to have a balance.

As for my vent, Friday I felt incredibly dizzy, I was sweating profusely, and had this very warm fuzzy sensation in the back of my head. I was walking to my next class and had to sit against a wall because I was stumbling and felt as if I were about to pass out. My friend actually drove me home and I went to sleep and didn't wake up until around midnight. I think my blood pressure might have dropped although I'm not sure why. I woke up this morning still feeling dizzy and even a little nauseous, I'm heading to the ER after this next class.

Apparently because I'm pale I'm "sick." One of the non-Irish guys from my class has gotten into calling me "sick girl" because of my pale skin.

Well I'm sorry for living in a country that hardly gets any sun, not using a sunbed and not using fake tan.

What's so damn wrong with being comfortable and happy to have pale skin?

I feel so awfully sick. It feels as though I'm swallowing a cheese grater.

I wanted to buy a Japanese version of Fairy Tail volume 30... but the shipping from the Japanese Amazon is almost $40. The book is $5. That's not fair.

Page 69! Sorry. Just had to share.

I've come to the realisation that I absolutely, without question, hate everybody I know. I have a lot of rage - everyone without a doubt is only in it for themselves, and those who say they aren't bitch and complain about it which makes them into even GREATER assholes. Honestly if I had a penny for every single time I was fucked over, I'd be a millionaire. Everyone passes judgement on everybody else without even KNOWING it half the damn time and if you have an opinion, it's always WRONG or MISGUIDED. I plan on getting the fuck OUT OF THIS COUNTRY when I'm 18 and moving somewhere like . . . oh, I don't know . . . THE MIDDLE OF A FOREST IN FUCKING CHINA.

TL;DR: Society can fuck itself.

I'm sorry I don't like Lil Wayne and I listen to Queen and Guns 'n' Roses instead, dear friends. My bad. Yes, yes, I know, I don't know what real music is. You're right. Now go fuck yourselves. Thank you very, very much!

I acted like such a dorky idiot for most of the day today. Dorky because I was happy and an idiot because well... I just felt like an idiot because of some things I couldn't remember.

And I have math homework I need to do tonight. Bleah. I freakin' haaate math.

Can't concentrate.

Can't get off MTS - have four kids....I may just be the oldest person here (33?) Got to get back to my responsibilities.

Why can't people get the hint?! I thought my 'I'm not interested and am seriously contemplating joining a convent shortly' vibes were pretty obvious, but it seems they aren't as strong as I was hoping.

Just because my vagina isn't a revolving door doesn't mean I'm a stuck up prude. Shut the fuck up.

I felt like I was being talked about... I did not like that at all. It made me feel extremely self conscious and annoyed. Then when I asked what it was about my friend didn't hear me properly, so I thought maybe I should just let it go, then I get called the B word for trying to let it go? So nice...

So much STRESS.

It's exactly 15 years today since my father side grandfather passed away. I never really felt anything about him, since I didn't know him too good (we lived far away from him, and I was only 4 when he died), but I kinda regret not getting to know him. From what I heard, he seemed like a really nice guy. Oh, well.

We have no milk.

Girl I agree and you gotta add some extra attitude to that. "SHUT THE FUCK UP AND SIT THE FUCK DOWN."

Making big decisions about my education and future this year .
I go to a private school which i absolutley hate, and I always find myself in trouble or not going, because I generally hate being there. I KNOW I'd do better education-wise at a school i do enjoy, because then I'd actually go, and concentrate and not be pulled out of class for behaviour issues or suspended. As it is I failed nearly every single subject last year, meaning i failed that year altogether. I have hopes of becoming a psychologist or welfare worker and to do those I need to go to higher education after high school, and I really can't see that being an option if I continue where I'm at, but at the same time I can't just up & leave and go to any school because I want to be at one I enjoy and get educated at...

>_<

I am so sick of hearing the term 'nimby' at the moment. It doesn't matter how legitimate your arguments are, people seem to think that all they have to do is reply with "Nimby!" and that automatically rules all of your points void. While it's true that I don't want it in my back yard, I also don't want it in anybody else's backyard. Yes, obviously I especially don't want it in my backyard, but that doesn't mean that my arguments aren't worth listening to. 'Nimby' isn't some kind of super trump card in a debate! And it's such a derogatory term that once it's been used everybody else then decides they don't need to listen either because obviously you're only making your points for purely selfish reasons because you're a posh, selfish idiot.

Something I was dreading has happened. Great. Bleah.

What a great way to start the morning.

Bleh.

I'm aching all over from the double PE class I had this morning.

I can't sleep, ugh! And I am tired, as fuck, but I can't fall asleep. It's so annoying!

Cramps can go die in a fire. That is all.

Edit: I've changed my mind. Cramps can be hung, drawn and quartered... Owwwwwwww why do you have to annoy me for 8 hours and counting..?!?

Of course the day I get a 3 day weekend is the day I start feeling like shit. DAMMIT!!

Starting to doubt myself and beginning to question a lot of things. I thought this would be easier.

Okay, so my options were keep the virus and play TS2, or have no TS2 and have no virus.

I kept TS2, fuck that noise.

Okay, so my sister's boyfriend was insulting my best friend that I've been Skyping with & playing a game with for 4 hours. Really? My best friend, asshole? What the fuck did he do to you, you douche bag? He really needs to be wiped off the face of the goddamn Earth. He's a douche bag and a half!

That one turning point in your life where you decide to throw it all away for the one you love, and regret it immediately. I wasn't ready for this. Any of this.

I feel so nervous about having to see him tomorrow, which is completely stupid because we see each other all the time and it's always fine, only now things feel different. I hate awkward situations.

Health essay on teenage pregnancy. Joyus.

One more year until Sherlock season 3. I hate getting emotionally invested in TV shows, but this one is so well-written and beautiful, ugh.

It's just makeup. It's not real. It's just makeup.

<__>

EDIT: WHAT THE HELL, LAPTOP?! YOU JUST TURN OFF LIKE THAT IN THE MIDDLE OF MY GAME?

Oi.

My 'friends' forgot it was my birthday last week, yay.

I don't care how sunny it is, I'm still turning into a block of ice when I step outside of the house. It's FREAKING COLD.

I'm so damn self conscious and have massive body image problems. My friends asked me to go swimming tomorrow and I've refused because I hate how I look in swimmers and I abhor what my face looks like without makeup on. It's such a pain in the ass and I wish I didn't have such awful confidence issues.

Today was rubbish. I hated almost everything about it.

How am I supposed to study for Physics, English and Algebra all in 3 days? I can't split my time and study each daily because that confuses the heck out of me.

Oh and dad? Please stop buying chocolates, I just gained two kilograms and I ain't happy. -_-*

Hi, I'm new here and I'm sorry that my first post is in this thread (and not in the introduction section). I'm really stressed out, because I have to make a presentation this friday and I have to write an exam next tuesday. And to make everything worse, there will be 4 exams in two (following) weeks next month. In addition, I feel bad because of these annoying dates I'm not able to spend as much time with my daughter as I wish (though I'm happy that she loves her grandparents who take care of her in the meantime). Why, oh you stupid professors, has everything to be done in the end of each semester?

My mom is in the hospital. They suspect she might have diverticulitis. Everyone's been trying to tell me that she'll be alright, but... she's my mommy and I don't like seeing her in so much pain. I'm just nervous as hell right now.

been on the computer all day and I can't seem to get off (my eyes are so tired) curse you internet!!!

I dislike Tuesday night for one reason. My FB newsfeed fills up with five pages of useless, fangirly screaming about Glee. One friend of mine posted 12 times about it in a few hours.

Enough Glee spam, take it to a forum. Not everybody likes the show.

Well that really hurt even though I pretended it didn't. I wonder though, did I bring it upon myself because I was being nice to someone else? I honestly hope it was, because the other thoughts that are going on in my head are really getting me down.

I don't want to do my math

Had just over $200 stolen and my credit card used to do it, so I've had to cancel my card and track where the money was spent and request a refund immediately. Grrrr

Bodyshop is playing with my nerves for 2 days now. >.<

So, I was with four of my male friends today and this random guy came up to one of my friend's, I had never met him before, he shook the hands of the guys he didn't know and then when it came to me he said "sorry, I don't shake hands with women" I don't know whether it's wrong or not of me to find that incredibly rude despite the fact it was for religious reasons.

It's cold and I'm lonely and I wish he would call like he did yesterday.

A guy in my writing class told me that I'm too pretty to be as smart as I am. I get that it was a compliment, but what a horrible thing to say. So pretty girls can't be smart? Ugh, men.

Of course, right when Megaupload (and therefore Megavideo) goes bye-bye, I get an incredible urge to re-watch a Fairy Tail story arc.

Fudge.

Why do I have to make everything in my life so complicated? It's like I subconsciously orchestrate everything in my life so that it couldn't be any more awkward or difficult.

Ugh, and I just got a text from my friend telling me that people saw me and my friend "flirting" last night (even though I really don't think we were seeing as I just end up laughing when I try to flirt anyway) and they were all talking about it and asking her what was going on, so I guess that will be around the entire class by Monday lunchtime. It's nobody else's business but ours. I really don't want everybody else watching us to see what's going to happen (or not happen). Clearly I should have spent the whole evening ignoring him instead.

No motivation to do homework. And I can't do this book summary thing because I don't remember any of the books I read well enough and now I'm getting all freaked out and somebody please help me and gah.

Try Videoweed. I watch all of my House on there .

Pretty sure people are working on getting Megaupload back though. Thank god.

^ I would, except the person who makes the subs doesn't put their videos on there. I don't trust any other sub group.

Oh, they are? That's good news.

Also, 'nother vent.

I have at least 15 different productive time-passers that I can think of off the top of my head. Surely more. And how often do I do any of them? Barely ever. I sit here and listen to music and complain about being bored instead. How do I stop myself from wasting time? I vow from here on to do something productive when I get bored.

Well, I vow to try, anyways. <_>

I sold a shirt of mine on Trademe (NZ equivalent of Ebay) for a whopping total of $5 today. The auction itself didn't generate any bids but I put a price offer to the 'watchers' and it was accepted by one chick. I get an e-mail from her a couple of hours after this asking if she can pay on Friday. It's $5? If you can't afford that right now why the hell are you on a damn auction site???? Don't waste my time!

I made a huge mistake a couple of days ago in saying yes to that girl that posted below me when she asked me out for the second time.
The world doesn't work like that, there's no way she wasn't bullshitting when she convinced me she actually had feelings for me. She just wanted to use me again because she constantly needs to be dating someone to fill her shallow, narrow-minded world. And as soon as she wrongs them (me) a month later, somehow it will be their (my) fault.
No, it's not my fault. You're the one who needs to get her act together.
And don't 'hughug' me when you don't mean anything.

(Look, ma! I can time travel with this magic thing called the edit button!)

I have a headache that wont go away but I still can't get off the computer!!!!

I have to help out tomorrow with a photoshoot, but I reeeeaaaally don't want to. I want to stay in bed and have the world leave me alone.

Gah, community theatre is eating my life.

I'm sick and tired of helping people, but never being appreciated in return. Sometimes it seems like I'm the only one with a heart.

Sometimes I feel like a real bitch on the inside.

That's all.

Sore/dry throat, go away!

I am so sick of people behaving like I don't have any feelings. I hate feeling like I've been used.

I think I broke a sneezing record today.

I feel like I'm in love with someone, but I don't know who. It's such a strange feeling, and yet it's there. I think I'm just really lonely and confused right now.

Everything is so awful right now. I just want to sleep for a very long time.

My mental issues are steadily growing worse again, despite the increase in medicine dose.

Please, god, if you're up there, don't make me go through that shit again. It's been a wonderful six months.

Everything is going fine, except for the fact that I'm lonelier than ever. I just sit near windows and stare out at the streets for hours on end, even down in my shop through the pavement-level windows. I just feel like there is nobody to talk to in my real life that actually gives a damn enough to help change things.

Today doesn't feel like Monday, it feels different. I'm a little scared about what today may have in store for me. I hope it'll be a case of "everything went better than expected."

Great, I'm lying in bed with fever. Every move is pain and even opening my eyes hurts like hell. Once again, GREAT.

Today was god-awful. I really thought I might cry this afternoon at one point. I didn't have time for lunch so ended up having a cup of coffee on the go and some mints, which meant that by mid-afternoon I'd had about five cups of the stuff and nothing to eat, so I was feeling pretty sick and edgy as it was, then in the space of five minutes three different people commented on how terrible/upset/awful I looked and it was so close to being the final straw.

Why does it feel like nothing ever goes right? I know I'm only feeling like this because the past few days have been crap, but all the little things are really getting to me at the moment and I just can't help it. All I want is for this one thing to go right and I'm pretty sure it's not going right at all, so instead I have to sit back and watch other people who have completely screwed me over getting what I want and pretend I'm not angry and bitter about it. I swear to god this is the last time ever I'm going to be this naive and trusting. I am done.

I really hope everybody involved has the good sense to stay away from me because it's quite clear they haven't given me a second thought and I am done being polite and considerate.

I know none of this makes any sense, but I feel marginally better telling someone this.

My stomach hates me.

This, except I'm not sure sleeping would do me any good.

I just tried to lighten the mood of everything by joking with my old roommate that my life has turned into a really bad episode of One Tree Hill, then told her the whole sorry story of the past few weeks of my life. Her response: "OH GOD YOU WEREN'T KIDDING. One Tree Hill is really your life's template."

Slightly TMI, but you know what sucks? When you desperately need to fart but you're in the company of people. My tummy felt like it was dying inside.

I wish I was a burper, at least I could burp and say "excuse me" ...but with a fart? No amount of apologizing can allow you to get away with your dignity intact.

Doing something incredibly dumb, with incredibly dumb people, and being ditched to try and find a way to a safe place when I couldn't even remember where I was and I could barely even walk.

I'm going to a friend's pool tomorrow for Australia Day celebrations and I'm really not happy with how I look in a swimsuit, so I think I'll just sit by the water instead. Of course, this means I'm going to be subjected to the usual questions about why I'm not swimming, why I'm not in a bikini, how I'm so antisocial because I don't want to hop in the water, etc. I'm sorry for not being confident enough to swan about in a bikini with my tits hanging out like every other girl I know, and I'm tired of people saying, "Oh, you're fine, you look good, etc." because I don't feel good and that's more important to me than what other people think.

I feel butterflies in my stomach, like something really big is going to happen, but I don't know what. GOD, I hate this confusing feelings I am having lately! There's absolutely no reason for them. Am I some kind of a robot which broke, or what?

My body has been unusually nice to me. No heavy period this time around. It's TOO nice. I'm getting paranoid about this!

How the hell does reading render one so physically exhausted?

I feel like I'm gradually becoming sick. I have this need to sneeze a lot of the time and I hate it.

I woke up with a funky husky voice, I sound sexy but I don't wanna get sick!

I've got Bruce Springsteen's "The River" stuck in my head. It's a lovely song but so sad, and I just want to be in a good mood today.

Ever since I stopped treatment, it seems like every other day I'm sick. I got my Flu shot the other day, so I'm guessing that's why I feel under the weather today. Monday morning, I was brushing my teeth and my gums were bleeding and a little inflamed, they've been doing that this entire week now. My hematologist said that without treatment or surgery, my largest issue right now is dental bone loss, meaning my teeth are going to fall out. Of course I can get Porcelain veneers, but as I'm going through these things, I'm definitely reconsidering getting this surgery. I'm thinking of changing my mind at my next appointment this weekend, it's a big hesitation though.

I have nothing to wear tonight and I look awful in everything.

Ok, I am stuck. The boy I talked about the other day, remember him? Well, I don't know if he likes me or not and I can't find out because a) I usually don't talk to boys, b) I turn red whenever I am near him and c) I am scared that my reputation in school will be ruined, because most girls who befriend boys and become, you know, a couple are looked down upon like their doing something wrong, so I am torn between 'fessing up to him or at least hinting to him that I love him. But either way I think he knows because on our first geography test, he was sitting on my right and he kept cheating from me and I let him, which I NEVER do, and I kept giggling like an idiot whenever he said anything and there was a day that I had to go to a contest for an English dialog, We basically didn't stop talking the whole way there and back. And when he came to school early in the morning he used to smile and wink at me, then when the exams were announced to be three weeks earlier, we stopped talking. So I don't know...I even considered asking one of my friends who knows him to ask him if he likes me.
(I know there may be grammar and sentence massacring but I am too stressed to care).

Help?

After I came back from college, I found no snack to eat. I had to eat a sandwich instead. It made me mad. I'm weird. -.-

I don't feel like doing anything...it's FRIDAY!!!!

That's me every day.

Dear french judges,

I know we totally owned you in handball few days ago, and I also know that now you're trying to get it back to us by bad judging decisions which are good for Serbian team, but please, pretty, pretty, the prettiest please of all, NOT TODAY!

Sincerely,
Me.

I don't think it's fair that the independent high school (AKA my school) gets the normal high school's old textbooks. I just want to read a textbook with 9/11 in it, damn it!

...That sounds weird. But seriously, I just want books that were written in this decade. Or at least after 2000.

Several things some friends of mine have said have upset me way more than they should. I need tougher skin, eugh.

I need brain bleach, so many things I want to forget.

I have so much work to do today, mostly on the areas I find most confusing, and I really want to get most of it done this weekend as I have plans next Saturday. Why did I go to law school, why couldn't I have wanted to be a window cleaner instead? That always looked like fun.

You can't be with her because of reasons. /badlogic

Stress stress stress.

I'm a member on another forum where, I swear to god, people go looking for offence. There are a few threads there recently which got locked because people somehow saw insults that don't exist and even when it was pointed out that no offence was meant they still keep harping on about how it could have been implied. What the hell happened to giving people the benefit of the doubt? It's like some of the members there just want to read everything everyone else says and interpret it in the absolute worst possible way. It's so infuriating and is the biggest reason why I don't post there any more.

"Bitch Tits" is not a charming term of endearment, and addressing me by such a name will guarantee you will not get a response.

Where did the weekend go? I am not ready for another week.