I had a dream where someone had me in a headlock with a gun to my head and I was scrambling out and I broke free. I was running when my blood pressure got too high to stay asleep and when I awoke my wife was about to kiss me and I freaked a little.

Because I had no female peers, Darla K. Anderson (a producer at Pixar) helped me with finding what was needed for the wedding. I made it abundantly clear I didn't want to waste my money on a dress I'd only wear once. I told her I was going to wear a fancy top in white with colorful designs, a white skirt and platform sandals because I'm ri-doo-doo-diculously short (5'3") so I can kiss my husband officially as his new wife.

Meanwhile, John Lasseter, who heard over the intercom me and Lee were engaged, invited Lee into his cramped office and told him he's happy to see Lee remarry and asked "Why her? She's a little girl to old men like ourselves!" Lee cleared his throat and said "Last year, I got a call, my wife divorced me, my kids won't talk to me about anything beyond money, I was in New York City and the sky just opened up on me. It was my weekly session with Kym and I saw her coming toward me in a black and olive rain coat and a rainbow umbrella. She escorted me to the bathroom. It was a gender neutral bathroom, so she came in, wringed my shirt out while I wringed my hair out. She likes me with long hair. After drying off as much as I could, she held me to thank me for putting up with her crazy antics. I remember the smell of her hair, it was like someone served coconut cake and hibiscus tea, I wasn't going to be mad at her because she was an hour late. Right now, I just want an audience to bear witness to this kind, gentle, delicate flower of a woman and someone to marry us." He then started messing with his phone and decided not to rent a tuxedo and instead wear jeans, sneakers and one of those t-shirts with a print on the front resembling a tuxedo front.

We forgone any bachelor(ette) parties and we spent the night at home watching Sailor Moon, which I was up to the anime breakup arc between episodes 61 to 77. I told him how King Endymion was a complete dick to Mamoru Chiba staging visions of destruction and how King Endymion had a face that badly needed a punch for endangering his future. It became a geek fest and soon it was 9:00PM. Lee went to bed in his room and I went to bed in my room. I got a text.

Lee: Tomorrow, we'll share more than this house. We'll share a name and maybe a bed.
Me: That last one will be a pipe dream. I still thrash in my sleep. But the last name is just normal. Besides... less work rewriting my last name, just jumbling, subtraction and addition
Lee: Good night.
Me: Good night, my sweet prince.

The morning came. Darla arranged my wedding to be an outdoor affair outside the studio. We got dressed and headed to the studio. The weather was cloudy, with bits of sun poking through. It was perfect. Then it came to the make or break point. He was asked of his responsibilities "until death do we part" and he said "I Do". I was asked of my responsibilities (they were pretty much the same as his) "until death do we part" I said "I Do". Then came "If any just cause for reasons of objection are present, speak now or forever hold your peace" It fell deathly silent. Normally at this point in dreams, some ex lover who was jilted by either of us would cause a fuss and my dream would fall apart.

Well, we had exchanged rings and for the first time in my dream, I was able to kiss a man I love without him stooping down.

The reception was inside and it was fine. I was bored and wanted to get to Kyoto and find the Hachibei Shrine. Lee and I decided to disappear after our participation in the number of wedding traditions. However the cake tradition took a Romanesque turn when Bob Peterson smashed it over my head and Lee's. We weren't hurt, but try getting frosting and ganache out of your hair.

We escaped after the cake was smashed over our heads together. We went home and showered (separately, of course). I decided to sleep in Lee's room that night. We worn clean cotton underwear and t-shirts, standard clothes for someone like myself. He and I were cuddled together and I fell asleep latched onto his side and he was he was like "What am I going to with you?" And he rubbed my back and said "It can't be helped."

It was a weird wedding, yes, but I prefer my clothes to have multiple use and I would NEVER buy a wedding gown.

Besides, in the dream, me and Lee didn't have much in the way of money. It mostly went to bills, utilities, mortgage, groceries, clothes, office supplies, the eco-friendly white Mustang he drove us here from New York City. We couldn't have a wedding until John and Darla had the entire studio pitch $10 to give us a decent ceremony and reception.

Weird how reality is disruptive to my dreams.

And yeah, I am very much aware of the story that bonded them during recording with him stupidly sitting on a bench in a downpour and how he got dried off and even the evocative scent of her hair, combined with her loving heart leaving an impression she is just a nice woman who was treated so badly growing up by her peers at various academic institutions. This image is supposed to be a scene of revelation in their relationship. She doesn't have much interest in him until he played up to her desires, which he uses to help her overcome her camera shyness. He is a man whose life is falling apart due to him working as a director. They fit like puzzle pieces.

today i had this weird dream about winnie the pooh
i was outside looking for something, and then i bumped into winnie the pooh and told me he was looking for honey in the tree

however there were bees and they all hit winnie the pooh. i did something to all of the bees (i don't know which one though)
that he could take all the honeys with him and he thanked me about taking the honeys and give it to him

i said you're welcome

2 days ago i watched christopher robin and winnie the pooh and his friends were involved by this so that might be the reason why i had this weird dream

We went to Japan and we were quickly sent through customs without fuss. We took the Shinkansen to Kyoto from Tokyo. I dragged Lee all over Kyoto and then, after much zigzagging, we found the shrine...As we said our prayers in silence...
Me: I really want a baby to our little family. I wouldn't mind if it acted out, was a crybaby or was quiet and peaceful. A baby is all I ask for.
Lee: We're barely making ends me and I promised to my wife I would provide for her and if we have a baby, I worry it would be given up to someone else and it would break my heart and my wife's heart. Please bless me with enough money to live comfortably.

After we returned home, we fell asleep and starting that Sunday morning, we tried for a baby. This went on until the following Saturday. Any free time was just me and him trying for a baby.

A couple weeks later, I did a pregnancy test. It was a digital one, but the display blacked out. I had Lee drive me to the clinic. After they tested me there, it turned out I was pregnant and the color in Lee's face disappeared.

Lee dropped me at home and I fell asleep in my bed. He went to John and pleaded for help. "My wife is pregnant, she's gonna have a baby and I need more money. Please, John, I will do anything to see the smiles on my wife and child's face." John, being CCO, said "I want you to do a collection of shorts of your life with Kym. Tell how you met, the day you connected in the downpour, the day you moved in together. Do it all the way to Christmas!" Lee corrected "She celebrates Christmas and Hanukkah. Mom is Jewish, Dad is Catholic." John said, "Whatever, just work with her and I will guarantee you will be handsomely rewarded.

That bear and his sweet tooth is his fatal flaw. He can't help himself! Hence why I gave you a "Love". I have my own addiction to sweets.

During the first part of my pregnancy, I only had one month of morning sickness, which is weird, because a lot of the women in my family by blood had 7 months of it, there was soreness and I was eating everything in the fridge and Lee would lose sleep because of any late night craving. Eventually, it came to the appointment we wondered about: How many heartbeats?

The doctor strapped some prototype of a heartbeat detection apparatus. He took a snapshot. And they counted. According to the apparatus, I was to have octuplets. He asked me if me or Lee were using any fertility assistance and said "No".

Lee looked up listings for larger houses, a nanny, a butler and for old cars that seat 10. (yes, there are actually cars that big.)

P.S. I let him keep his Ford Mustang. Men are usually pretty touchy about their cars being taken away and the fact he has to find a specialized minivan that hasn't been made in years, a couple decades, even, to cart our children around is daunting in its own right. Besides, we chose a nanny close to home: my aunt Stephanie, who understands what we desire in terms of care and our butler, a gentleman from England brought his three cats with him, a white and orange Manx, a black cat and a grey tabby American Curl. The house we moved into was large enough for games of hide and seek and our hired help got their own room. Then came the gender identifying appointment. Evidently, it would be evenly matched with 4 boys and 4 girls. I told the women at the studio "I don't do baby showers! Just send the goods to our new house." I then explained celebration before birth is bad luck because it could lead to possible death in the womb. Seriously, I'm 30 years old, I don't like the traditions that makes no sense to me at all and they don't understand the Japanese-Russian superstition.

I eventually was on bed rest for the rest of the pregnancy. Lee would come into my room to rub my back, rub my oversized belly to feel something he took part in creating.

Me: Lee, I have to confess...about 9 months ago I prayed with you at the Hachibei Shrine. I prayed for a child. I didn't care if the child was a naughty brat, a sensitive crybaby or was Zen-like calm and quiet. I didn't expect the 8 times over return investment in regards to the shrine to be that strong.

Lee: I need to confess regarding the same thing. The moment you brought me to Kyoto, we were short on cash and I would hear you dream about having a baby. So I prayed for fortune. Currently I was working with Gary Rydstrom on a series of shorts based on the courtship, marriage and pregnancy. The shorts are silent, save for my narrating our way through the shorts.

As soon as I started to make a pained look on my face, I said "Ready or not, here they come. Get the wheelchair and get the station car." Lee said "Your water didn't break." I said "When my mother was pregnant with me, they broke the water at the hospital." He got me to the care and drove us to the nearest hospital.

After admitting me and the breaking of the water, the body preparing for birth... I began birthing.

First came a boy (Vance Rainier Unkrich)
Then a second boy (Joel Watt Unkrich)
After a third boy (Flanigan Pyros Unkrich)
Then a girl (Esther Diana Unkrich)
A fourth boy (Umberto Nolan Unkrich)
A second girl (Leanne Gracie Unkrich)
A third girl (Gloria Bridget Unkrich)
Our little baby, a girl (Sylvia Faye Unkrich)

Lee got to hold his children before they were to send Sylvia to have the jaundice cooked off. Lee felt that sort of love parents have for their children the moment after birth when they hold them, along the lines of "For you, I will die." I was worn out, crying and I noticed all my children had strawberry blonde hair from my family and extremely pale skin. However, Umberto looked like his daddy. He has his black hair and dark brown eyes. His skin had that Mediterranean color to it, like he is tan in the middle of a New England winter. Lee held Umberto and stared in wonder of his son.

The octuplets were born August 8. According to the Taiwanese Calendar, August 8 is Father's Day.

Explanation
August 8 > 8\8 > 8 = ba > 8\8 = baba > baba = father.

We eventually left the hospital and my aunt and Higgenbottom (our butler, who evidently trained as a ninja in life. No wonder the stealth factor in the house.) Got the nursery set up with all the precautions. Camera feeds, audio feeds, latest baby care tech from Japan used most off in day care centers, alarms connected to the sonic frequency of glass breaking or a door broken down with a kick into the nursery. They connected the feeds and alert systems to apps that notify me, Lee, my aunt and Higgenbottom to come in and do what they must.

Lee's hair reaches his rear end and I decided to tie it back in a long braid. I started by putting a hair elastic at the top, braided and as I asked him, "How does it feel to be a new dad again?" He said, "I feel weird. I have children who will want to spend time with their daddy. My hair above my ear, in sideburn territory is going grey and you don't mind it." "Older men have wisdom and knowledge, which are the greatest powers and experience within knowledge is powerful stuff." At the tips of his hair, I tied another elastic and I said to him "You're charming." I brushed back his bangs and kissed him gently. It was just the beginning as parents to our miracle children.

oh i see

The first few years were pretty messy even with Higgenbottom and Aunt Stephanie helping with the babies. Lee did not like changing the boys' diapers for obvious reasons and I would be running the washer and dryer constantly. Because I couldn't possibly breast feed all 8, I had to use formula and the woman who Mommy shamed me during a conference call with work was a woman with zero kids and zero experience in motherhood. In fact, she hated children outright and was this typical old crone who is too old to have kids and I laid into her about her criticism of my situation.

The writers, who were watching my PowerPoint presentation cheered me on and the PowerPoint was of the movie me and Lee were working on as a pet project. It was about a girl who could communicate to cats and how she was made to delegate to Humanity before the cats will attempt an attack on humankind. I actually put experience and expertise in feline communication and how cats made the first move in domestication.

My writer co-workers were interested in the pitch of a black cat with orange eyes getting beat up, plotting vengeance under bed and 3 days later he attacks the neighborhood cats and dogs, and every day, passing through the alley, the street animals cringe, flinch and wince as he walks to the grocery store and back to the apartment where he lives. (IRL my mother's first cat had this experience when I was a baby and he was a black cat with pumpkin orange eyes)

Then came the 3rd birthday. We invited our coworkers who had kids around age 3 and I begged Bob Peterson to behave himself after he decided to smash our wedding cake over our heads at the reception when we got married 4 years ago. I made little costumes of their Eevee-lution counterparts and they were cute. They were adorable. To tell the other seven children apart, I use a gentle dye to color their hair. Because Umberto had black hair and his counterpart Eevee-lution was black, he was exempt.

Then came kindergarten, which I sent off my children and I just hope they do well for the first day. Lee picked them up on his lunch break and a note was attached. They graded my kids with failing grades that apply to kindergarten conduct and a note "Send these wastes of genetic material to Montessori School or better yet, let them play in the road and the world will be a better place." Lee called a lawyer to sue the kindergarten for the toxic note sent home to us. The person who wrote the entirety of the note was forbidden to work in childcare and education ever again. Turned out, the kindergarten teacher lied that she could handle my 8 kids as each had personalities that matched the elements.

In all honesty, the stress of life is getting to me. Today, I called to tell the dental office I have had a bad track record with dentists by biting them, putting them in chokeholds and powering through laughing gas when stress. This was to set up an appointment with a dentist.

Those three infractions against dentists? I did them when I had last seen a dentist. In Washington, most dentists in my network couldn't handle my panic attacks. So it was out of network and pocket. I also hate when they yell at you for failed perfection in performance.

Somehow I ended up in this one boxer's manor. I was looking everywhere for him to ask questions. The dream ended. I fell back asleep and I awoke in his room. It was really small for some reason. He was on the bed and I was in a chair questioning and chatting. I went to unplug my phone was next to the bed and he ran his hand up my side I was like 'r u lost lol'. He started touching me in weird places and I stepped back and was like 'yooooooo, I'm not into that bro,'. Weird. VERY weird.

Groped by a ghost? Yeah, that ranks rather high!

For me, I wake up in my IRL room in my dream. I turned to the bed's edge and Lee Unkrich was sitting on the edge of the bed and I sat up, and ran my fingers through his tousled hair, which was greying at the temples. He said "You've been dreaming about me for some time." I told him "You are handsome with grey temples." and we kissed as the sun rose over the hills and mountains.

Weird. I also found out that our octuplets share his IRL birthday (8\8). In the grand scale scheme of it, I will continue the story, dreams permitting.

PQ - You should write a Sims story. Sort of like Osomatsu-Kun but the day to day lives of the PQ-Octuplets.

Currently working on it. Although MCCC allows for manipulation of pregnancy, it either doesn't have an Instant Baby option like Nraas had or I haven't found it because I don't want to screw up my game. So I at most can carry triplets per pregnancy with the aging off.

The Unkrich family (In TS4, I married Lee Unkrich's simself that I created that resembled him when he grew his hair out and they, his crew joked behind his back he was "The Black Stallion" which is bad form because he was the director of Toy Story 3) currently has the four sons and their first daughter, Esther Diana and I gave the children names indicative of their Eeveelution and element and in term of personality, rather apt traits. My simself is pregnant with the last three daughters and the house has been given the capacity to hold 20 sims.

But before the toddlers can become schoolchildren, I have to max out the toddler skills. Lee's occupation is writer and he wrote a number of books regarding fatherhood to a house full of children. Regarding his numerous royalties, he wrote a comedy genre book titled "An Endless Sea of Babies" and it's one of those "my experience as a patriarch" books.

In regards to this matter, I will probably post to my Simblr. I haven't yet put it together.

Bad New! I could not find Joel or Flanigan after the triplet sisters arrived and aged up. I need to troubleshoot before it's too late.

I don't really understand Sims 4
Sims 2 is easy enough, get both parents pregnant at the same time with sim blender or something, download the trips/quads mod that lets you choose and have them both give birth to quads. Bigger households mods help too. I don't know if these mods exist in Sims 4 though.

I think it would make a good sims story, but maybe better if you made up a celebrity (probably a rockstar) instead of using a real life one. You're making me want to write a story

Well, I commit two cardinal sins on regular basis when playing the Sims (any version, take your pick): 1. Marrying a simself of a celebrity and 2. Spending more than 3 hours on a session.

Mostly, being lovesick and being in pain is just how things have been going since August 2018 started. When I'm distracted, at least I am not fixated on shooting pains in my jaws.

Besides, I am extremely shy of approaching anyone with any amount of influence. Lee Unkrich is actually a director, but he's in an industry that's not really worthy of Oscars (or at least in the past 30 years.). The only reason I fawn over him is because I was into video editing at age 11 and he started at Pixar in 1994 for Toy Story. I actually like editing music videos together as a way to reflect on my current playlist

In my defense, I have been struggling with my family falling apart and putting themselves back together again. My brain is my only safe place to be if I don't feel safe venturing out into the world for normal things (I had pointed out that I suffer from claustrophobia and agoraphobia). I tend to hide under the sheets

But the luxury of customization is I can change it to how I see fit. I will get bored with Lee and go back to Bill. It happens. But remember, I am self conscious of any behavior, including obsessions and impulsive whims.

Well, usually my dreams of meetings of the men I desire to understand on a level where I can help them, if they help me. Mutuality is something I seek in any relationship, be it Good Friends or any Romantic Interest (that's a long shot because most of the guys I like are either married to a woman or their high-paying jobs in their fields.)

I think we veered off course on your suggestion of a slice of life comedy.

My dreams are just the only distraction I can take during the downtime when I drift off. It's actually keeping me sane while I await my dental appointment. It's next week.

Has it ever happened to have a dream where you know its a dream but if you try to fly and do other stuff, you cant because its almost like you need to "obey" it's rules, like a world created by your own mind that you cant change.
What about dream that you live a great story that you would never remember to creat irl. (I wish I could creat stories like that)
What about dreams where you know its a dream and you solve problems of real life inside it.
What about situations that, when you wake up, you have the feeling that it was real and then you say "phew" because it wasnt.
And dreams that you interact with people and objects that you never saw in real life. (Ik it needs to at least see it once so you can dream of but sometimes I dont remember)
What about dreams where everyone looks the same but you just dont care. --------> (That happened once to me where I FINNALY changed school and everyone looked the same (I mean exacly the same(but they had different personnalities)) and the school was also the same. This is what I call "lack of imagination").

i recognize most of the stuff so yeah especially the second one

like i said earlier (almost 2 weeks ago) i had this super weird dream about a luxury hotel, it's a long story
but then me and my friends got caught and even my parents knew about that and got mad at me by sneaking at the hotel

then the 2 naked people were in the house and punched both me and my mom, then we fell off the stairs.
and then my mom told me we were moving to the other city, i wasn't too happy about it.

i told my parents i never even knew about the city we were moving into

then i woke up and i was wondering why all of my stuff isn't in the box and why i didn't moved out at all
but after a few minutes after i woke up i was like oh 'phew' it was all just a dream

I seem to be having really horrible dreams lately. A few days ago I had one where I was in like a school or something, and was walking down a hallway towards the front door when I heard gunshots. When I got to the door there were piles of blood and guts all over the place, so I turned and walked back down the hall only to see even more of the same. Last night I had a dream where I was in some sort of building, not sure what or where it was, but it was a fairly narrow hallway with a bunch of people in it. One of the people suddenly pulled out a gun and started shooting everyone. That one was really weird because it wasn't like I was there in person, it seemed like I was looking down on everything as if it were a Sims game or something and I was in control of what was happening.

Probably a sign that I'm going crazy since I've never had dreams like this before.

I woke up in my real bed and I was watching the end of the first Lilo and Stitch.

(On screen)
Cobra Bubbles:... convinced an alien race mosquitoes were an endangered species. Now, about your house...

I heard a knock on the door and it was Lee. He came to watch me. He said "Your parents will be gone for a couple more days. They knew I was in the area. I came to study the countryside of Northern New Jersey for a movie. I quit my job at PIXAR and founded my own studio. I received your script about the Angstrom League and I have a question...will you play Kimber Cambridge, the heroine? To be honest, you certainly have energy." I did the cheek kiss greetings my grandfather passed down to my father and his siblings and it got passed to me. It's just a one cheek and the other, but sometimes with gestures there are moments I go in to shake hands and they fist bump. My etiquette world wide needs sharpening.

He sat at the edge of the bed, cradles me and said "You're such a sweet woman. You seem to be interested in me." I said "I am. You have such a strange sense of humor and such an interesting personality." He sweetly brushed back my hair and said "I saw you in tears. Why were you crying?" I told him "I am in unrequited love with older men who are either married to a woman, their careers or both. I want you bad enough, but you made your decision. Even going as far back as high school, I played matchmaker to the other students, but I never had time for myself." He kissed me and I asked "Why did you do that?" He stammered "I didn't know what to do but I don't want to see you cry."

Weird enough, I actually woke up at that point in Lilo and Stitch in the movie (the disc is on auto-play) I wrote in a prompt generator some of my emotionally starved feelings of feeling like you're drained empty and you're still shy to the point you're fighting not to run a 1 minute mile if you talk to your crush.

a few nights ago i had this weird dream about mobile's

my quidance told me but also my roommates and neighboors not to go on someone else's mobile and whatever
but right after my quidance went to the shop or so i checked everyone's mobile including my quidance's mobile's
i hacked everyone's mobile and wrote all of the whatsapp and whatever

luckily me it ends up very well. i sneaked out carefully and then i woke up and realized it was all just a dream

Yesterday I was driving my wife and she was like what was up with you last night? I was like idk what you're talking about. She was like you were freaking out, and I was like no I wasn't idk what you're talking about, what was I doing and what time? It was around 6am which is my deepest sleep no matter what time I wake up or go to bed. Apparently I was acting like I was trying to get away from someone or something and I was scrambling and fidgeting and biting the blanket. I remember waking up with it in my mouth but I didn't know why. I will probably never know what I dreamed about. Freaky.

During some downtime...I had a dream my shingles came back.

When I was a little girl, I didn't get chicken pox because I went straight to shingles when I was 6 years old.

I was visited by Lee, who distracted me as he helped the doctor administer lotions and medicines. He took me home and took care of me as my parents worked at night. He just said "I had chicken pox as a kid, so don't worry." Every couple of hours, I was dabbed in a lotion to calm my shingles and every 6 hours, pills were administered.

He eventually sat up on the bed and asked me "Why do you love me? I don't know why you find me attractive." I said "You once had beautiful long black hair. I would give anything to see you with such a great beauty." He said "You said I had a monkey face." I said "Dress like Lupin the Third and you'll look just like him. he's a troublemaking, heartbreaking jewel thief, because I was going to dress like a cute street savvy girl." He leaned in and said "I promise you, once your shingles leave. I will bleach your hair, self tan your skin, dress you in nice clothes and take you out for sushi. I'll go as Lupin the Third.

About a couple weeks later after much care from Lee, my shingles were gone. He inspected my skin and he began tanning my skin. Then he bleached my hair out, he found some of my nice clothes and I got dressed. He said "Somehow, I can't tell if you are being cute or sexy. You have this innocence and there's thing emerging aura that's trying to show you are tired of being seen as a liger cub. No, you're a full on ligress and your rare beauty is awakening." I hand him the clothes he is to wear. He comes out and is wearing a black shirt, blue sport coat, a red tie, white pants and brown ankle boots.

We drove to Easton, PA (I knew of a great place in the downtown area) As Lee got the car parked, he told me to go on ahead and he'll meet me.

We spent dinner talking to each other. But I heard a rude person at a table call me a "Cockroach" in Japanese because I looked disgusting and so I said to her in Japanese "I see you're eating alone while I sit with my boyfriend. Your judgment based solely on the way I look is much more disgusting. He spent the past couple of weeks treating my shingles. His touch healed me. He would stay up some nights and administer medicine to calm my nerves. Can you say your boyfriend is a prince?"

I sat back at the bar next to Lee. He asked "What exactly did you tell the woman?" I said "I said how much of a prince you were for caring for me during my shingles outbreak and that she shouldn't call me gross."

(In all honesty, I hope to avoid him in my dreams tonight. Sure I adore him and his devilishly charming looks, his wicked sense of humor, his art skills as a director and editor and his nice warm voice. But if I see him again it's going to be a case of "Oh shit! Not you again!")

I had a weird dream, it was about having 17 toes, normal 5 and an extra two index toes on the left foot and 10 pinky toes on the right.
makes me shudder even thinking about it, even thought I am not disgusted by toes normally.

Lee came back and I made peace with him.

Lee brought me some Ovaltine and he asked me "Do you still love a man like me?

I said "In some ways, you remind me of my father...My father is currently in rehab for a few courses of detoxing. But I understand the concept of detoxing all too well. When I lived in Washington State, I would be on medication that built up in my body. When switching to new medication, I would detox first. I would stay at home often and only go out supervised when I needed something. This is just one of those dark secrets I hid from you."

He said "Sweetie, are you crying?" I had tears streaming down my face and he took out tissues and he dried my tears.

He brought out a journal of when he was younger and say, "In my youth, there were some pretty dark moments of my life at stake. I fell off my bike when I was 10 and it resulted in this scar on my shin and this scar on my torso." He lifted up his shirt and his pant leg on his left side. "I bled a bit, but they got me cleaned up, stitched up and recovered me after a couple of days. I miss school on Tuesday, Wednesday and Thursday. Friday was our last day and eventually the beginning of the 4th to 5th grade summer vacation. My stitches came out and I was back with my friends."

I said "I remember a old friend from 6th grade elementary. Hohhauser was his name. Johnny Hohhauser to be formal. He was a kid who constantly was in the hospital if he wasn't at school. He was the type of person born with glass bones and paper skin in terms of his illness, always came to class bandaged like a mummy. After graduation from elementary school, I didn't see him ever again...or at least like he was in school. I was shopping at a discount grocery store in 2016 and when I bumped into him, he was unrecognizable. He grew to 6'8" and became a personal trainer. His father received money to pay for the surgery to save his life. His father's boss was a philanthropic type. Was very interested in the family."

I played with Lee's hand, rubbing the back of the hand with my thumb somewhat massaging the back of the hand. I said "I may not have your 20 years and two months life experience you have, yet my life is full of rich experience and I have to admit... I love you." I covered my mouth and blushed. Lee is like "You do?" And I said "The day after your birthday, all I could dream about was us and you were part of the couple we were. I dreamt of us working on vocal work and you had to seduce my sensibilities to not freeze up so you could give the animation department something to work with. We fell in love with each after feeling jilted by those who used to. We got married, honeymooned in a beautiful place full of magic and mysticism, with one foot in the door of tradition and the other in the door of innovation and had octuplets'. We had 4 sons and 4 daughters... It was a beautiful dream."

Lee kissed me.

Lee said "You are a sweetheart. If I come back tomorrow night, we can talk about babies and family." I sat next to him and said "Pinky promise? If either of us lies, may we swallow 1,000 needles." He said "Ow." I said "That is just one way to stay with a promise." (Pinky swearing in Japan used to end with the phrase "If I lie, may I swallow 1,000 needles". Over time, this gruesome contract of a phrase was dropped.)

9/4/2018
My, September...I remember it being March and surviving through a number of blackouts, having to drive to places with power to eat and my family and I having to huddle around the wood stove because of the county power outages being restored in order of urgency. Not to mention a Noreaster every week.

I was eating dinner with my parents, which shows that things changed in my life for the better. I heard a banging on the door and he screamed "Let me in! It's snowing really heavy out here!" I decided to let Lee in. As I hung up his outerwear, he said "How I forgotten that California is not Ohio or New Jersey." I said "Lee, what are you doing here? My parents are here." he asked me "How?" I said, "Like time travel paradox rectification, they made up for the sake of each other and my sanity. They actually apologized for the damage I did in terms of stressful destruction." He asked "Can you introduce myself to them?" I said "First, stow your shoes in the hall closet. Then you can talk. I went to my parents "Mom, Dad...I want you to meet the man who haunts my dreams." I signal to Lee and he comes in. "How old are you? You have gray in your temples" came from my mother and from the tone, she disapproved of him.

He said, "I just turned 51 and from your tone, I disapprove of you and your husband abandoning this young lady, who has a gift for the comedic arts. I had no choice but to fill the void you two created in her heart, but I bet those voids were there when she was younger. We got engaged, married, became parents to octuplets and we sent them to kindergarten, only to find out that they were really smart that online schooling was the only thing they excelled at. Then it just reset and we grew close with me just talking to her. She was usually in tears because I filled the voids in her heart. Blessing or not, we're in love and you must understand she is not a little girl, she's a 31-year-old woman who is shy and the fact she is talking to me like a normal person is just something you don't realize in that she's coming out of the shell she had and is wanting to be close to me. Madame, I suggest you be nicer to the only daughter you have left or history will repeat itself." I kissed him and I shown him the hearth room, which has a bed. I went upstairs and fell asleep. When I woke up, Lee was sitting on the edge of the bed and said "I think I was too forceful when your mother found out you're dating a man 20 years your senior." I said "You did instill fears. My father was kind enough to let you stay in the hearth room." He held me and sighed. I sighed back. He asked "Why do you let out such loud heavy sighs?" I told him "It's been a release mechanism for a long time. I have been trying hard not to get wound up over guys like you. I wish I could have seen you with such long beautiful hair when you were working on Toy Story 3. I enjoy hearing your warm voice when you threw in your knowledge and experience and maybe your two cents on the process of your line of work. I actually am both an editor and director and I am actually great with Adobe and Corel. In fact, I am just so in love with you and I hope you're feeling the same." He kissed me and said after we stopped "Sorry, but you must let me run."

When I woke up, it was early morning hours and I was getting ready with my father to get ready for the dentist. It was an early appointment at 8 but we prefilled the paperwork but we needed time to get lost.

It bothered me what he said before I woke up. "What did he mean by 'run'? Was someone coming after him? What did he do? Was he guilty of some petty crime? Was he framed for something he wouldn't do? What could I do to help him?"

I have feelings for him, but even if we were in arms' reach, I would be scared to even shake hands. I can't even talk to George in produce without fighting the urge to pass out or run a 1-minute mile. I haven't talked to George in produce in GORK how long!

yesterday i got this weird dream about a sleep-over. but i didn't know how it ends since i slept less then 6 hours
so when my quidance knocked at the door i thought the knocking was just a dream but it turned out it was real

but i had this super weird dream about a sleepover

me and my best friend was talking about our old best friend. we talked about horror movies our old best friend was Always watching
and how we wished she changed into a better person watching less horror movies and Always says about demones we didn't want to hear

but then she came into my room and she said why we didn't invite her into a sleepover and however.
then we fights with pillows (like best friends do)

but then at the end of this dream i heard someone knocking at the door and then everything in my dream was gone and was half asleep when my quidance came into my room

Had a dream that I invited 3 friends from back in Seattle. It started with my boyfriend Lee being sent to prison for something he would never do. I invited three guys I met in high school. (Weird part is it was Lupin and his gang and they were flesh and blood and evidently, we had some semblance of a history.)

When I found out Lupin framed my boyfriend for grand theft data with a lame disguise (my boyfriend and Lupin share a monkey face) and left a note that was obviously forged, the little get-together turned sour and after I wrestled his and Jigen's gun out of their possession I warned them "I was miserable for those 20 years in the Seattle area and you took away the man who was healing my broken heart. I'm calling Interpol and you are finally going to be imprisoned for eluding the Iaw.

I used the phone's voice commands and soon I dispatched the ICPO and they were arrested. Eventually, my boyfriend was released from prison after one day.

I thank the Inspector for his efforts to come on such short notice. He said "You don't know just how much I owe you for the tip. I've been trying to arrest these guys since Lupin took over the family business of thievery. Jigen is wanted for illegal firearms possession in a number of countries and US states and Goemon over there is to be stripped of any inheritance. I say they're going to rot for the rest of their existence." I said "It's a shame, because they're great lovers. Go easy on them but be firm to mean business." I was reunited with my boyfriend Lee and he said "I'm a little sore all over." I asked "Did you get into a fight?" He said "No, the food is terrible in prison." I asked "Ever see penguins in a chorus line?" He asked "No, but wouldn't they tumble like dominos at the arc of the kick upward?"

That dream left an interesting taste in my brain.

I had a dream the other day I took a bath with my aunt. X( I woke up feeling so gross.

You're gross, man! XP

I was married to @haywud - don't know why. He was wearing jeans and I was telling him that they didn't suit him.

Lee woke up early and noticed I wasn't feeling well. I was warmer than usual, had a clogged nose and itchy, teary eyes. He was kind enough to dose me with ibuprofen and Benadryl and said "The pollen count is dangerously high. I will be running errands. Text me if you need anything."

I rested in our bedroom, listening to him weigh in on the production of the films Toy Story 2 and 3 and Finding Nemo. I texted him to pick up ginger ale. (The effects of the autumn allergies on my body usually yields snot dripping down the back and upsetting my stomach.) He came back with the ginger ale and as I drank the ice cold ginger ale, he sat by my side and rubbed my back gently. He said "Feeling better, sweetie?" I said "Thanks. I actually fell asleep listening to the menu of Finding Nemo. Those deep underwater noises lulled me to sleep.

He was going to cook dinner for me and he asked "You want anything? I should treat you."

I tell him a basic udon recipe and he got it right. He and I ate and he helped me up the stairs to the master suite and he tucked me in. He said "Should I...tuck you in? I know you are not a small child or a child, period." I said "Don't worry about it, I find that you care enough to see me happy as an endearing thing about you" he took some pajamas into the bathroom. I went shopping a couple days earlier and at first, he was reluctant to wear the traditional type with long pants and a button up top. But I couldn't stand him in just pajama pants, and because he did a lot for me today, he put them on. He held me to his chest and he said "What am I going to do with you?" and I kissed him "I can't be helped".

9/7/2018
It was a cold autumn morning, the morning after my birthday party. I was waking up, but being that I rise slowly, required rubbing the eyeboogers out. From what I heard, Lee was in the shower. I wasn't at the point to use the toilet in the master suite, so I got up, use the hallway bathroom toilet and I was dumb enough to flush. He yowled from the flush changing the effects of the water. He and I didn't speak for the rest of the day and once he got home, I begged for his mercy "It was an honest mistake, I would never hurt you intentionally. I can't stand your silence. I enjoy hearing your warm voice. You mean a lot to me, especially since your experience could help me. Please let me know what you want." He lifted me in his arms, kissed me and said "Just say sorry. You tend to overcomplicate things with such a long, mouthy, and heavily worded apologies." He fed me the Chinese food from "Your Kitchen" an oddly named, but very reliable restaurant.

We went upstairs after dinner and as Lee took off his shirt, I saw his back and chest were mildly scalded. We got dressed in cotton pajamas, his were royal blue and mine were baby pink. He cuddled close to me and we watched TV during our downtime. He asked me "What's the weirdest summer job you had?" I said "Grim Reaper's apprenticeship in the summer of 2009." He asked "Why 2009?". I said "Grim Reaper told me to instill fears in the general population by dispatching the souls with much influence, in a word, celebrities. Given that I have much work as a grave digger, obituary writer, and grief counselor, being given this opportunity, I would do as directed. The only difference between a normal person and a celebrity is money, power and a stable claim to fame."

He asked me "Am I next?" I checked the list. "Not for a long while. Besides, I can bargain for you if Grim sees it would break me to lose you."

Lee and I cuddled close and he turned off the TV and he turned out the light on his night stand.

The next morning, I woke up, Lee reached over and say "Sweetie, can we talk? I was taking too long to wash up and I know you like to use the bathroom in the morning before you get dressed go for a walk in the autumn rain and take your meds and go on a leisurely stroll along Main Street." He let me use the toilet, brush my teeth and I went to my dresser and got dressed. I took my pills, grabbed my purse, put on my shoes and took a walk. My mind wander, thinking about Lee and the time I dreamt about our octuplets. Somehow, it reset when we were about to send them to online K-12 via laptops.

Lee came up to me when I got home and he somehow ambushed me by grabbing me by grabbing around my midsection and we kissed. I asked, "What's with the ambush?" He replied "Can't a husband be playful with his wife? It's Saturday, I have off from work. Besides, I haven't seen you much."

You know, this dream mentioned how everything reset after going through a sequential episodic dream. But I admit, Lee goes from upset to affectionate to playful and I admit, I like when a lover doesn't stay angry long.

Sounds like a nightmare to me. Wow I'm sorry you had a dream about me, that must have been horrifying.

Last night, my octuplets asked me about the birds and the bees. The first question after they were with my parents was "Where do babies come from?" I started with "Men and women are physically different..." And from the development of puberty, to anatomy, to the process, to the gestation, to birth, I spoke frankly and matter-of-factly about the subject. I told them "It's a lot to take in, but you should at least appreciate me." Lee came in and said "Did you teach them what they needed to know, Mrs. Unkrich?" He kissed me in a spooning type hug, kissing my cheek "Darling, not in front of the kids." He said "What's wrong with us being in love? Your parents told me the sole factor for your existence is love. Besides, our 8 little ones were born from us being in love." I said "I guess I forgotten all about that." I said "The only sound way to have a baby is if there is love between the parents. Remember this well, my 8 sweet children."

My children were about 7 and were playing Super Smash Brothers Ultimate in 8-Player Smash. I gave them the Joy Con I assigned to them and let them duke it out. They were fighting for "What to watch on TV?" Sylvia Faye, the youngest won and we watched "Too Cute!" (a documentary series chronicling the first 3 months of kittenhood or puppyhood. It's like a visual sedative.)

After such intensity, we tucked the children into bed and I said to Lee in our room "Honey, do you think I was too intense on meeting the expectations of an answer?" He said "No. You did the right thing as a mother. You didn't sugarcoat it, you were age appropriate in some parts and clinical in others. You were able to make sense of such a usually uncomfortable subject for most American parents." I went to my dresser and found a new set of pajamas with colorful dots on a white background. He said "I saw them on sale and they were your size." I put them on and he went to his dresser and he had pajamas that were white with colorful stripes. "Small world... isn't it?" I said as I buttoned up and got into my side of the bed and Lee got into his. He said "You know what I find weird? That we have 7 year old octuplets and we're at the current age for ourselves in late 2018." I said "Ever watch Sailor Moon all the way through? Time travel is a given, as it is in the dreamscape."

Aw Maxi-pad, I'd husband you up in a heartbeat

i had this super weird dream about a challenge with me singing.

i need to have a challenge that i was singing something but guess what? i got everyone disgusting
they threw all water on me, i ran off and then an old schoolmate told me i needed to pay all the moneys i got.
so i ran off again and ended up in my room crying

the challenge fainted, i didn't made it to the next level so i cried in my room

i had an horrible nightmare about a challenge and the money, but at the same time it was funny since it was just a dream
i knew like right away it didn't happen in real

If you destroyed the dreamscape, you probably would wake up.

I fell asleep in the early morning and my dream was weird.

In it, I was asleep in the master bedroom, I woke up and Lee unbuttoned his pajama shirt and I asked, "What are you doing?" He said "Touch the center of my chest" I felt the hard thumping of his heart. I said "Is that your heart?" He said "It is. I have a good idea for today...Let's spend time cuddling. We're already in pajamas." It was just this idyllic warmth while it rained very hard outside on a cold, wet autumn day. We recount our youths and he was able to go do pretty much what he wanted, I was locked inside the house because of my family's status in IT hardware, biotech and STEAM education was on quite a high level. He asked me if I had any degrees for Film Editorial. I said "No, but it never stopped me"

He asked "About your sign... would you say you're a Libra or a Scorpio?" I said "Libra...So, you're a Leo...my last boyfriend was a Leo. His hair was always in his face, he wore dark sunglasses, but when I saw a picture him when he was a young man with his hair brushed back and his face exposed, fresh and waiting for his debut with his friends, he had such beautiful dark brown eyes that evoked a sort of gentle kindness. He was a couple years older than you. I didn't care for his overgrown bratty redheaded friend, though. He was like watching a toddler with temper tantrums."

After spending the morning in bed, we had lunch. I made pasta. Yes, we reenacted the famous "Lady and The Tramp" boop-a-snoot kiss. He wiped up my face and me his.

We cuddled in bed and watched Finding Nemo with the A\V Commentary and he admitted he was very much irritated by Bob Peterson bringing potato chips into the commentary booth. I told him "I can't blame you. Interference is aggravating to try and work with." He enjoyed commenting further to me his experience.

He held me closer to his side when he saw lightning. A loud cracking boom thundered and he said "I got you. Your Darling Husband is here." During the storm, we held each other closer. "I won't let you be scared." He said as I listened to his heart beat fast against the rhythm of the rainfall.

By sunset, the storm ended and the sun was setting. We looked out the window and Lee said "It was actually nice spending time cuddling and talking." I said "I certainly enjoy such touches." He said "I have work in the morning." I said "Tomorrow, after work...We'll snuggle in front of the fireplace, cuddle close and just talk. How about you?" He said "I like it."

As much as this is a fluffy dream, I guess I want a husband who won't leave me alone to starve emotionally. My brain usually constructs these mental notes.

you could be right

i had this super weird dream again

expect i had a dream about school

i had to go to school because i was a child again. but with all of the lessons i got so bored so i walked away.
then i was going on a bike and was going somewhere. and then i met simba and kovu from the lion king

and then i also met kyan (the youngest son of simba) kovu told simba he looks just like him or something
and then my room got bigger and bigger because the lions needed some more space or something

an hour later i came back to school and nobody noticed i was even gone, and then a few hours has passed.
i came back home again and my bedroom became smaller so i asked my mom why my room got smaller

my mom told me that i needed the lions to be alone or something.

gosh i had this super weird dreams about school and the lions

Actually, my therapist said when someone gains the ability to shape the dream they are in, becoming lucid, they can actually end a dream with the control of such power.

I am able to be lucid, convince the men in my dreams to do my bidding or at least soften any elements in nightmares that have intensity to them, but I haven't gained the ability to end or exit a dream.

Maybe in your dreams, or in mine since that's the only way I'll ever have someone

You know, for everything I gained in my dreams...

...it could be taken away without much thought.

My dealer of dreams came to me when I was with Alice Cooper. He came to see me and asked if he was handsome. I said "You're not exactly Bill" and somehow, I summoned the wrong Bill. The Bill I summoned was Bill Cipher of Gravity Falls. "Well, well, well...my little girl is bored. Seems to me, kid, you want a harem of all sorts of men. Remember this, kid: you gave up the confidence to meet the men you adore in real life so you can be their master in some twisted reversed harem. Quite a Faustian bargain. I see a lot of faces in the crowd, but where is that Imahara guy? Let me guess, some people* told you to stop chasing him...what they forget is, you're bound to the Faustian bargain of giving up confidence in reality for closeness in dreams."

I said "What do you want, Cipher? If it's my voice, it's off limits." He said "Do I resemble a drag queen octopus? Perish the thought! Your voice, although not feminine, may be malleable to break the long standing record, you first need to overcome Frank Welker and your male concubine Scott McNeill" I said "Well, what do you want?" He said "I've been hearing you complain about being nearly 300 pounds. What if I was to take that fat off you and make you, I don't know, about HALF your size, but you would never need worry of gaining it back. I could put the fat on the petty beauty queens who say horrible things. It probably won't work on the Kardashians...too high profile. Besides, your awkward beauty should be celebrated, like Mayim Bialik's. She's a PhD in Neuroscience" I told him "Let's do this"

I allowed Bill to thin me out. Once thinned, I had to find new clothes now that couldn't wear my old clothes. I remember I had panties with stripes and a skirt for my bottom half and a striped shirt for my top half in a small size. I got dressed and Alice took me out to go shopping.

On the car ride over he said "Don't go too crazy. You need a few things for your bottom half." I said "I haven't felt this skinny in a long time."

Well I bought a few things and we rang it up (he was enough of a gentleman to pay for me)

*I actually had more than one person insult about my choices of such things in the past, Grant Imahara was no different. Definitely no accounting for taste.

15:00
Lee came back after a trip to the grocery store and he noticed the kitchen end up a mess like flour dusted everywhere, spills and dripping utensils and parchment paper crumpled. "Good News: I finally made the cookies for Valentine's Day...Bad News: I need to go take a shower. If you can clean it up, please do so. I got egg in my hair and how it got there is beyond me." He asked "Why are these cookies filled with green candies?" I said "Those are my special green dots. They use genetically modified strains of cacao that ramp up the production of the chemicals in the brain responsible for the feeling of lovesickness. They are to be eaten with one partner on one side and one partner on the opposite side." I went upstairs and got cleaned up. The water running down my back was great. I got dressed in a button up night shirt and I went to the kitchen and performed the ritual. It was weird to look in his dark brown eyes and him into my hazel eyes, but as the chemicals kicked in, we kissed, we danced and spent time watching cute animals.

He cuddled up with me and said "You certainly don't need any help beyond mine."

Tuesday, September 11, 2018
Last night was a series of dreams.

I finally got to meet Grant Imahara and we were pretty shy. My face was flush and he was shaking, almost vibrating like a purse dog. He asked stammering "Want to see the cargo container we use for our experiments? We had been challenged by our fans to redo a number of cargo container based experiments." I said "Okay". So one after another, we watched from behind the safety barrier and checked each myth off as either confirmed, plausible or busted. I kissed his cheek, he fell backwards. What a lightweight for someone who knows what men-loving women do to women-loving men. Considering he's the youngest of my mental harem (17 years exactly older), he'll get use to me.

Then Alice Cooper came and checked in on me. He came into my room and rubbed my back. "Sweetie, it's your favorite mentor, Papa Alice." (It's actually a reference to Haydn's nickname, Papa Haydn.) He stopped when I began to move and I said sweetly "Hello papa..." (A reference from Chowder.) He said "I was wondering if you want me to help you with your Japanese instruments test. I hear your demo for your music collection from those Eurodance acts. I also know you plan on playing a number of Japanese instruments for the next demo and you will mix it with your software. I brought some chocolate truffles to help you condition to play better." So as I played and was recorded, as I completed my parts on the instruments, I was fed a truffle and by the time I finished, it was more than enough. Alice ran out of truffles and said "You were a good little student...so good I ran out of truffles." He helped me upstairs from the basement and helped me with my night meds by providing milk, helped me up to the the second story and tucked me in. He said, "You certainly have an interesting taste in music and as one of the oldest in your harem (he's roughly 40 years older than me), I beg to wonder: Why me? Why don't you like my son?" I told him, "I date Gen-Xers and older. Your son is a Millennial. I would rather have insight from Gen-Xers and Baby Boomers, such as yourself." Alice let me run my fingers through his hair and he held me near his shoulder. "I really feel bad for you. Why, of all things, did you give up the confidence to meet me and the others in this harem?" "Mr. Cipher tricked me years ago when I was at a crossroads in my life. He said 'I'll give you back Dr. Nye in your dreams and in return, you must surrender the ability to confidently approach any past, present or future crushes. They will not be able to exit the dreamscape.' and that was my worst mistake I ever made" He dried my tears..."No need to cry. You at least have me. You need to take into account your imagination is powerful for a woman in her 30s. Summon Cipher next time you are dreaming and torment him." I then asked "He's a being of energy and has no palpable weakness. I can still harm him with my Dancemania collection. I better charge my phone." I put my phone on the charger tail and I got tucked in, kissed on my forehead, drifted off. I heard him saying "Good Luck"

Lee Unkrich came over and just wanted to make sure that I was okay. He heard about me about to have my period and he essentially was acting like "perfect martyring spoiling boyfriend" like, he'll drop his time with the guys to tend to my every whim while I am on my period. He was run ragged by the time it was over. I kissed him goodbye and said "You poor guy...go talk to the guys at work and maybe have something to drink like a Coke or Pepsi." He collapsed. "Or Monster..." (Writer's Note: I wear men out during that time of the month. You can only imagine my father tending to this little monster that I was, prior to my diagnosis of PCOS, which, although mild, is concerning because I had a cyst the size of a softball.)

Out of the three dreams, I rank the Lee Unkrich at the top because I really wish I could have a boyfriend spend time with me when my body is punishing me for not getting pregnant.

The Alice Cooper one is next because I do wish to fight "him" and at least meet a man who could make me happy with his friendship and who knows what will happen.

Grant Imahara was at the bottom because I didn't expect him to faint.

9/13/2018
I still dream about the handsome older gentlemen who seem to enjoy my hostess service while in my mindscape. Alice still drops in and we talk. He will usually conjure up an Emerald boa that goes from a red juvenile to a chartreuse adult. Simple as it sounds, it makes for a long transition to a kiss on the neck. He tells me, "This is my apology for the fact you have been busy. Either I was born too early...or you were born too late."

@PANDAQUEEN I had a dream recently where I was talking to someone about you. I don't remember what was said in the dream, or why I even had it, though I thought it was odd considering I don't usually dream about people I've met or people I know unless it's my grandparents or someone I really care about.

Don't worry too much about it.

I'm currently trying to write to one of my crushes and my interests in the trades they're in and maybe get encouragement and support. It always breaks my heart when I wake up that I can't seem to work up the courage to tell them I feel this way about them. I know they'll shatter my heart to dust like when leftover glass is added to glass making.

I had slept in until around noon due in no small part to the tranquilizers and antipsychotics. But I was in a crazy dream. I was wearing hippie type clothes barefoot in a field and I kept attracting animals as I vocalized. I spotted a soldier who was out cold and ran to him. It was Lee. He was roughed up. I said as loud as I can "Sir, wake up! Can you hear me?" I helped him up and he woke up slowly. He asked "Where am I?" I said "You are in a Demilitarized Dimension. You got sucked into my dimension after a wormhole opened while you were in battle. From the look of your uniform, you're part of the U.S. Army." He said "I heard you singing...and what is with the animals?" (IRL, animals tend to come up to me. I have that strange "Disney Princess" effect) I said to him "I need to take you back to the castle. I have to treat your wounds and since you are my guest, new clothes. Your uniform is trashed." I shown him the back way, avoiding the castle town because I was betrothed to Prince Zac of the Kingdom of Pharaohs and gossip travels fast in a high tech castle town.

I had the royal tailor make him some relaxed clothes and some how we looked like we belonged in some historical photos of how hippie culture changed society. I brought Lee to my father who was not only fat, but 250% his original height and he was hungry. I said "Father, a moment...I rescued this soldier who fell into our dimension." Lee said "Lieutenant Lee Unkrich, 95th Ground Unit"

It was strange. But I was recently listening in the past few days to "Daddy Boom" by Tiggy in which a princess falls for a soldier but she is imprisoned for rejecting princes (She's eventually rescued by the soldier and the army he was part of)

Freakin' ruuuuude Max

LOL I noticed that too.

Oh come on I didn't mean it that way! You guys are mean, ganging up on me geez!! I just meant that since I don't know her all that well and since she isn't family it was odd to have that sort of dream. Man, I swear I can't say anything anymore. So I'm horrible with words, sue me!

Tee-hee... I know what you mean. You're probably just shy and it was simple as a hand hold.

I dreamt more about Lee as a dimensionally displaced soldier. My father stop to look at Lee. He asked me "Did you change his clothes?" "I had to. His fatigues were trashed. I found himself passed out in the meadow. We are starting to become familiar and I am against marrying Prince Zac." I said with great emotion.

Lee said "Sweetie, let's go to your room. I want to see the scenery you see everyday that you find boring." I said "I don't know, because daddy would be upset with us" he said "I won't harm you." I grabbed his hand and led him to the bird cage elevator. We got off the elevator and I shown him the meadow with the tree-lined edges. He was in awe. Me? I'm bored of it. "How could you be bored of the view?" he asked. I told him, "I spend most of my time in this room getting a view of the meadow and trees in the distance, but it is bone-searing solitude that is the major trade off. I may have these machines, a connection to the Internet and access to postal and telecommunication services. I even have a lion, a tiger and a bear that grew up with me together. But I just want human attention and affection." I was on the verge of tears. I lay on my bed and he sat down and rubbed my back. He said "Something tells me you don't want marry Prince Zac. How about I stick by you as your personal assistant? Your daddy won't be able to get that you rather marry me than that dork." Lee wiped the tears running down my face. "There's no need to cry." (Man, I am crying an awful lot in front of Lee.)

My father thinks I'm seeking out Lee Unkrich as my husband if I had been dreaming about Lee Unkrich for over a month. Nice idea, but he's got a wife, 2 daughters and a son. Even I have some semblance of decency not to act out my stupid dreams.

Still, my father knows that I am still feeling out the basics of learning to love again.

Every night I wake up for about 20 minutes. I stare into the lit burning end of incense and then I take a quick glance around it. I see nothing but darkness. An overwhelming sense of blackness. A void. My vision impaired. That's my nightmare. My weird dream. But it isn't a dream it's reality... and eventually the blur between dream and reality becauses a very thin line where one cannot tell where they should walk straight toward when a policeman asks you "are you drunk?".

I had a dream last night that I had a daughter. She was at that cute chubby baby phase where they're learning to crawl. Because my livingroom doesn't have much walking space (I have a HUGE coffee table, and 2 sofas, so it kinda takes up a lot of the room) we decided to go to my older sister's house. But in the dream we didn't actually go there, we were still in my livingroom but my sister was sat at the diningtable on her phone. I was really annoyed that she wasn't watching my daughter learning to crawl. At one point I was trying to teach her to walk by holding her hands and walking with her, and she fell and badly bruised her arm and I was really upset. I was trying to work out if it was broken or not, and I looked up at my sister and she was still on her phone so I was pretty annoyed.

I woke up for a bit, and had another dream not long after. I don't really remember this one as well though. See, when I was about 5 me and my best friend had a plan to sneak out of school, which basically involved just walking out (because weirdly, you could basically just walk out the gate if you were inconspicuous enough) but loads of other kids got wind of this plan and wanted to leave too, so by the end of playtime there were about 6 of us all running towards the gate holding hands and one of the playground monitors was watching us so I said we wouldn't be able to do it. SO ANYWAY, I had a dream basically where I was 5 and snuck out of school on my own (the way I described earlier), and then my other best friend from Primary school had snuck out too. To the right of the playground was a small carpark and next to that a large field, in the dream I was walking through the carpark and my friend came running across the field saying we needed to get back into the school so our Mum's could pick us up for hometime. So we were trying to get back in but loads of kids and parents were walking by. We were trying to blend in and look like we weren't sneaking back into the school..... then I woke up.

It has been a while...

I was with Lee and our octuplets. We decided to "disconnect" for the day and spend the day at the beach. (Only Lee and I were allowed any electronics and we chose our phones.) I decided to have Lee take us to the Jersey Shore. I recently received about quite a few bottles of SPF 100 (I blend in with the white sand.) and we used half of what we had. I stayed under the umbrella with Lee. He kept asking me "Why won't you come out from under the umbrella? Are you still conscious of your weight and the bikini you bought?" I said "That's not why." (Actually, that was one of many reasons why, but I didn't want him to worry.) But our octuplets, dressed in swimsuits and rash guards in the colors of their Eeveelution counterpart (they were 5, but they're super smart, read at a 3rd grade level, know the basics of STEAM education and are excelling in the online programs we put them in) they were attempting to build a giant fortress decorated with shells and sea glass.

Lee was wearing a Speedo with a rather loud print. He whispered into my ear, "Think about the attention you'll get when our kids get 1st prize at the sand castle contest." I said "The straw hat and the coverup come off." The bikini in question was purple striped (lavender and violet, horizontal lines) and my hair had grown out to past my breasts, reaching to my gallbladder scar. I finally checked on the update to the sand castle. The arch was tall enough for me and Lee to pass through.

I applaud the octuplets for their work.

At least by the day's end I had a chance to recreate the beach kiss scene from the old film From Here to Eternity. We eventually called it a day after going home, taking showers and baths using special soap and shampoos to remove salt and sand, drying off, applying aloe to me because somehow I got a mix up and it was SPF 5 suntan lotion, getting dressed in pajamas and playing a round of 8 Player Smash to watch one episode of a show one of the octuplets watch after their school session. Esther won and we watched My Little Pony: Friendship is Magic. The episode was the one where the Mane 6 tell how got their Cutie Marks. (It was pre-alicorn Twilight Sparkle) After we got the octuplets in bed, me and Lee went to bed and we sat up for a bit. I told him "I have heard things like fish having an acute sense of smell and vegetables actually scream at a frequency that small prey animals can hear when harvested." He said "Well, if it's wrong to eat animals or any by-products or even plants, what should we eat?" "I hope it isn't dust." He kissed me and said "I like your sense of humor." I cuddled up next to himself, he turned off his bedside table lamp and I drifted off.

A few days after the sun burn went down and I looked in the mirror, to find I had a tan. The last time I tanned was in summer 2015. Umberto, who resembles Lee the most said "You look like me and daddy!" I said to Umberto "It's still mommy. I eventually will look like your brothers and sisters in a few weeks.

My father finally stopped drinking and looked me up. He was surprised I married Lee and of our octuplets being existent, so I invited my father in on a Sunday morning. He said "So, what have you been up to these past 7 years? I'm sorry for abandoning you with your aunt to figure out how to let you live there."
And so I gave him a run-down
"Well, I auditioned for a Pixar film directed by Lee Unkrich and he'd personally fly in every Saturday to record me with audio and video footage. He would grow his silky black hair out as a way of paying attention to him. I eventually fell in love with him after his wife left him and his kids were hitting him up for money and after the movies production ended, he and I found a place of our own in the Emeryville area. He eventually asked to marry me with a beautiful opal ring. We got married and honeymooned in Kyoto. I prayed for a baby at the Hachibei Shrine and Lee prayed for money to pay for the baby. What I didn't expect during the pregnancy is I was going to have 8 children without the aid of fertility treatments. My octuplets are miracle children, because doctors said I would never be able to have children, let alone one child."
Lee said "The first few years were filled with the hell that is changing a baby boy's diapers. I was glad to teach them toilet training when I was with them.
I said "The only problem I had with the early years was Sylvia was attached to Lee. She would cry until Lee held her and rocked her to sleep."
My father said "You know, Lee...You are a lucky man to have a woman like my daughter. She is kind, sweet and would love to see you more often."

You probably don't know what I look like.

Still it is nice that you are thinking of me.

9/19/2018
This dream was different from my shenanigans of chasing after older men for their company.

No, last night was a nightmare in and of itself. When I was 10 and lived in Redmond, a giant eye with two human legs would begin to haunt me. It was the normal routine for 18 years. I thought moving away from the Seattle area would be of help. He tracked me all the way to my new home.

He is known as Asmodeus the Infinite and he usually gives nightmare fuel gifts as gag gifts. His sense of humor is probably much sicker than James Gunn's past tweets and he's going to push said buttons until he crosses that line until it is a tiny dot small enough to hold 5000 cells from the human body.

Then again, I hear much more disturbing things when read the news.

Didn't you have him on skype?

My dream last night was weird. I don't know why but I was back in my childhood home, sat at my computer desk in the livingroom. For some reason this guy I have on facebook (I've met him about 3 times overall in my Bachelor degree, but we got on quite well and he posts funny pictures) was sat next to me and starting asking me to paint pictures with him. So for some reason we were painting a canvas with Ninja Turtles on, in a Bob Ross kind of style (to be fair, I have been watching a lot of Bob Ross recently) and he says "Do you have a boyfriend?" and for some reason I'm really insulted, and I turn around and my Mum's sat on the sofa and she's giving me a weird judgemental stare and I say "Yeah, I have a boyfriend. He's called Adam, why?" and then my Mum looks approvingly and the guy continues painting. So then I think "Why did he ask me that? Does he like me?" and then I woke up.

It was really weird, considering I don't really even know this guy.

i had this weird dream about something and i thought this all happened in real

i was pregnant and had twins (2 boys) but then they died when they were born
then i was pregnant again and i decided to move out on my country and decided to live in an other country (Turkey or Tunisia)
to start a new fresh or something with my daughter

but i couldn't make it to a plane so i took the boat. but then something happened to me
and then i was at home again with my parents and i took my child as a secret without my parents knowing i was pregnant

that was a weird dream what i've been dreaming about because i thought i really had an child with me

Come join us on skype, PQ. We've been in a video call for 3 hours now. It's hilarious. We're discussing the idea of a whole sims neighbourhood made up of MTS simselves.

Did not sleep well last night. With the moon in the waxing gibbous position, I was awoken in the middle of the night, about a half hour before my father came home and decided to cut a perfectly ripe pineapple (My mother likes pineapple...me, not so much. I get enzymatic burns).

But during the time I was asleep, dreaming, Lee spooned me. His arm held my midsection and I just stared out the window and stared off at the rainy night. He started mumbling in his sleep, but it was actually coherent. He also did the ever classic Tarzan yell. I decided to sleep in my separate room until he calmed down. I got in my old bed and watch one of the anime I usually watch until I pass out

The dream endeth around 12:30 AM.

i had a dream about a school last night

the school i used to go didn't fit to me anymore or something
but i didn't wanted to move into a different school so i was angry

then i made friend with a girl and she showed me the whole new school, i don't remember how it ended
other then that we became roommates

and then i woke up and realized it was all just a dream

Had a weird dream I was my simself in a version of the Sims that combined all sorts of things from all 4 iterations, including add-ons, including the Katy Perry Sweet Treats one and I looked through the screen and saw myself and she was kind enough to build me a house like the Candy Witch's from Hansel and Gretel. I then ask if She could provide me with a nice guy to live with. She dropped a simself of Lee Unkrich and they got along just fine. She eventually saw Lee kiss her in a "Heat of the Moment Kiss" and she didn't reject his affection. I paused and bought them a hot tub. They got in...it led to both of them skinny-dipping...then WooHoo...and as Lee relaxed, my simself, being childish, hid his clothes. She made Lee a little angry once he marched in wearing a towel around his waist. They didn't talk for a few hours. Lee apologized for him yelling at her. The Simself said sorry for stranding Lee without his clothes. She saved the game as they kissed.

Sometimes I do feel that this reality is nothing more than a game played by something beyond comprehension.

i had this weird dream about school again

i had to take an IQ test by playing something about your feelings

what makes you happy, what makes you sad, afraid, angry etc
but then one of my old teacher asked if i still didn't done that and so i had curfew to do, i don't know why and i don't care
everyone was done about the IQ test expect me

but i don't know what my IQ was in my dream because i woke up by then

Be glad you're not pegged as the defiant successor to Stephen Hawking. I'm not Ivy League material and for that matter, if they force me to go to one of the Big 10 or the Seven Sisters, I'm going to royally mess up Vassar. I rather teach drama and science of cooking classes.

Besides, I came up with a way to taunt a villain in my film (I write screenplays in my spare time)
Villain: So what are you supposed to be, Howdy Doody come alive? (in Howdy Doody's voice) "Cowabunga! I'm a real boy!"

(Howdy Doody was a famous American ventriloquist act with a dummy resembling a playful red head boy from the 1950s. He was the originator of the phrase "Cowabunga!" which would permeate into surfer lingo and the late 1980s with Teenage Mutant Ninja Turtles. As far as national security, he's probably locked in a preservational trunk in the Smithsonian cultural warehouse.)

Dream Last Night...
I spent time just reading from my phone the English translation of the Sailor Moon manga. To be exact, the translation was from 2011. (Currently there isn't an e-book version of the manga.) But what made it more of a treat was it was colorized. (traditionally, manga is printed in black and white on newsprint style paper due to cost on mass production scale) It was beautiful. I heard footsteps coming into the room while I was in bed. I stopped by Xing out. It was Lee. He asked how I was. I told him I'm fine, but the moon will be full and the moon drives me nuts when I need sleep. He got dressed in his pajamas (I already had mine on). He climbed into my bed (I sleep on a Queen because I roll around and thrash. His face will look like the Mayhem Man from Allstate Insurance if he thinks can help me.) I fell asleep.

The next morning, Lee was gone from my bed.

I went downstairs and made myself a mix of 3g caffeine supplement and a tablespoon of wheat dextrin (the recommended 10 grams has a caffeine content equivalent to two cups of coffee. Every time my father asked "Why don't you drink coffee?" when I mentioned the supplement, gives me more reasons to bite faces and rip limbs off. Lee came out of the water closet\half bath, covered in bruises, bandaged cuts and had a black eye on his right eye. I asked "What happened!?" He said "You...you punched and scratched my face and you kneed my crotch. I had to limp downstairs for a bag of ice and I spent the night on the couch..." I was upset about it. I set up the futon couch to be a bed, brought him some fluids, gave him the remote, replaced the bag of ice on his crotch (I just handed it to him and he affix it in place.) and asked, "Would you like me to make you something?" He asked "Do you have miso soup?" I said "I have the instant type, in tofu, green onion and wakame seaweed." He then said "Green onion." I boiled a mug of water in the microwave, using a bamboo chopstick from the Chinese restaurant a town over. I emptied the miso paste and the garnish and stirred it to make it look like it should. I set the mug on the coffee table and sat on a seat cushion as sipped his soup carefully.

I heard him sigh in relief. "Thanks." He said in a satiated tone. I said to him "I'm sorry I got you in the buttons." Lee said "Buttons? That's actually cute." I was getting upset "Urgh! Why can I be honest? I kicked you in every man's weak spot, and I have been meaning to say sorry for injuring you since you brought it up this morning. I never want to hurt people in any way. I worry I'll lose them..." Lee said "I should have stayed in the guest room. You gave me a fair warning. I should be saying sorry because I didn't listen to you."

He and I spent the day with him asking me to vocalize the different vocalizations from Disney movies. (He heard I attract animals to me like Snow White. Normally it's dogs and cats in my case.) I would vocalize the notations and he'd grade me. He told me to work on the ones from The Little Mermaid. I then play "Dystopian Girl" from julien-k's first album "Death to Analog" where it actually had Amir Derahk vocalized during the choruses.

He was feeling better after the sun began to set. He said "I don't need the ice. I can walk by myself." I asked "Would you join me for dinner? I was going to make tempura udon, I bought some frozen tempura shrimp, fresh vegetables, a full bottle of broth concentrate and 10 bundle pack of noodles." He said "I would like to help." I said "I will put you on vegetable prep and cooking the tempura shrimp. I will cook the noodles and the broth." So, as we cooked there was a certain closeness I could feel as if a red string tied to my pinky was reeling in someone destined to be in my future.

i see and i used to be so much fan of sailor moon when i was a kid
i was really into that, and i Always used to watch sailor moon, sometimes a bit too much there but i didn't care


and my dream was worse,

i had a dream about my grandparents (they are both death)
i was upset about not going to their graves or something, and then my sister told me we could go to their graves

then i bumped into a few friends of mine and we talked, but then i was talking in my head to my grandparents about how i am doing and all

but in that meanwhile all of my friends died, i don't know why but i kept talking to my grandparents in my head
and then my sister maked me uncomfortable by taking pictures while my friends were dying

i was mad at her and asked why she took a picture of me infront of my death friends

thank god this was all just a dream "phew"

You must be seriously messed up from this.

I sometimes get dreams where I am alone (no animals either with the humans) and I mark the "Welcome to" town as a population of 1... Just myself.

It disturbs me much more than my old notations on psychology when I was undergoing detox when they decided at the office to change pills when we lived in Lynnwood, WA. I would look out the window in fear of harming other. I was scared of hurting people and being labeled something along the lines of "a flawed product of a deranged mind and has no place among the citizens of Earth". These detoxes would be 1 month long, so I would only go out with my parents if I have to go shopping or to doctors.

My fears of ultimate solitude and being seen as a monster sometimes come back to haunt me in my dreams.

October is coming...the fact I have a birthday near Halloween make people assume I'm okay with people's worst nightmares, be they personal or popular. Fact is...I'm scared shitless when confronting fear...I just cope by swallowing my fears and after the confrontation, take my benzodiazepines. (Seriously, I have no idea what has been triggering the panic attacks.)

that's true sometimes there is something wrong with me especially when i have my fears or when i'm sad about something

but i'm on vacation for 14 days now (i'm going home by the start of october, at the date when it's my sisters birthday)
i'm on a warm country at the moment so it might not be strange that i've been having nightmares.

i got it so warm in my room last night, the airco wasn't working at all last night.
i heard the drops fall but i didn't think it was in my room

i looked everywhere i could think of, toilet, kitchen and i even went outside for a minute just so incase it was raining without me hearing it
i called my parents because i didn't found anything that i heard the drops could possibly fall.

my dad fixed it but the airco didn't worked that well though.
so he took it off and after that i got too warm and could hardly sleep so that might be the cause i had an horrible nightmare.

my fear is that i could see someone die (it never happens to me) but last night it came out in my dream, i watched my best friends die i knew like right away it was just a dream

i'm also afraid of horror movies or that my friends will leave me (not that long ago i had an scary dream about a horror movie)

Last night, I dreamt I was with Lee Unkrich and he was escorting me to the dentist. I saw a few of the mascots people in America recognized.

Mayhem (from Allstate Insurance) needed to get some of his teeth reinstalled after yet another mishap that could only be covered by health care with the best coverage.

The Most Interesting Man in the World (from Dos Equis) said "I don't always go to the dentist, but when I do, it's to check my third set of teeth are growing in properly. Keep brushing, mi amiga."

Flo (from Progressive Insurance) was in for a cleaning. Although that smile would be too slick, slippery and smooth, not to mention blindingly white to the point they glow under blacklight...

I waited to be called back. I told the technician "I would like to bring my husband into the exam area. I am uneasy about today's X-Ray session." Lee sat in a chair, holding my hand as numerous pieces of film strips were inserted in my mouth and photographed with the machine. Lee noticed I had numerous crowns and the evidence confirmed as it shown that the hole he kept asking about when we French kissed was, in fact what remained of a crown I ripped out with something sticky 5 years ago.

He took me to a convenience store and got me a drink. When I walked in, Flo, Mr. Interesting and Mayhem were inside. Mayhem had to wear headgear, Flo's smile could be used as a homing beacon and Mr. Interesting bought some Fijian bottled water.

I bought a bottle of flavored milk in a mint chocolate chip styled flavor. Lee asked as I was getting in "Do you know those people?" I said "It's a long story. But if people don't play with you, you fill the voids in other ways."

9/27/2018
Been thinking about Lee. He noticed the torrential downpour knocking the spider webs down and I got a text from him saying "Come home now. You will get very wet." and the sky opened up at Town Hall. I tried to get home without getting drenched. But I failed. I had to change out of my clothes at the door in the foyer, put them in a laundry basket and wear my bathrobe to warm up. Lee asked "You got my message?" I said "It rained in all sorts of direction." He took my wet clothes and tossed them into the wash with my other clothes. I got dressed in my usual of t-shirts and panties and once dressed, I gave him the bathrobe.

He and I sat down on the folded out futon, he put his arm around me and said, "I'm a lucky man to have you in my life." I asked "Why's that?" and he said "My wife woke up one morning, said 'I'm leaving you for a different man, I'm taking your son Max with me and I texted your daughters, Hannah and Alice that if they need college tuition, talk to you. As for me, Raul and I are going to his family in San Antonio.' So she packed her things and eventually sent a moving company and my walking papers and your name and address shown up in a result to work with low-income geniuses and I was told you want to make video games". I said "I did. I want to make fighting games along the line of Super Smash Brothers. I call it "Bash Bash" and it would be a good investment of my time." He said "I heard your idea, but one problem, I know nothing about video games." I said "It won't be that difficult. All the major story driven games today are nothing more than just interactive movies where, in some cases, have alternate endings and storylines and these are dependent on paths taken. In Bash Bash, there's a story mode involving an entity who wants absolute power and you fight bags of soot with dark hearts, abstract villains, your comrades to add to the army and bosses of all sorts.

9/28/2018
Last night, Lee Unkrich rubbed my back gently and he was lying on his stomach. He said, "How 'bout we cuddle?" I locked myself in his arms and he gave me a harmless love bite on my delicate shoulders. He sweetly whispered into my ears about how kind it was to let him housesit and look out for me (I'm very clumsy). He even kiss me on the lips and said "You certainly have full lips and long eyelashes. You don't do Botox, Collagen, or eyelash falsies of any sort?" "All but the majority of my teeth are all real. I have a natural body, barring my teeth. No plastic surgery at all."

He said, "You enjoy my company. But have you come up with a basic idea for the video game?"

"I have. It's a fighting game. We'll talk in the morning. I need to ruminate on how to write the story."

Lee dejectedly said "So, no Woohoo tonight?" (he actually said Woohoo. Must definitely get back to my Sims games.)

i had a super weird dream last night and i already told them by the other topic what i was dreaming about by this link ----> http://www.modthesims.info/showthre...867#post5449867
but i dreamed about a sims 2 serie called desperation

i was looking for a plug to charge up my mobile so i looked everywhere for a plug, even the waterslides in my dream
then i was looking for a pull in the studyroom. they were either way taken by someone else or there wasn't a plug anywhere

and i thought the last seat wasn't taken so i decided to sit there, but then i bumped a few sims 2 characters in desperation.
Rayne, Jace, Lila, Chris, Mikayla and Ryder, i apologized to them and i guess they were okay with it so i got away with it

Lee came back from his job and saw me lying in bed, asleep. He got dressed in his pajamas and woke me up.

He rubbed my back and neck. He asked "You tired from writing, sweetheart?". I said, "I got the first draft ready." He kissed me and said he was going to call the development team to help flesh it out (I tend to be very bare bones with my writing after years in school being taught to write the bare minimum of ideas and concepts. It's only been in the past 5-7 years I am currently becoming more abstract.)

Whenever I sleep in past my alarm on an early shift, I always start to dream about being back at school, which ends up being what wakes me up because I hated school.

I had an interesting dream where I received a gift from Lee. It was a huge box of truffles and he disguised himself as the delivery guy. Because he's a regular at my house in my dreams, we gave him the guest room with the navy blue paint job. We even stock his dresser and closet with clothes for New Jersey weather. It was Valentine's Day and came to drop off a special order of truffles which included ones made in the past by my favorite group. I told him no hazelnuts. He listened. He asked me as we were on a grocery run to the nearest market about my attire. Those close to me know I am like one of those hairless South American dogs who act as a living hot water bottle. I wear shorts year round and as soon as I left my room, Lee asked the most redundant question I face every autumn and winter.

"Aren't you cold?"

I told him "Not as cold as you're going to be." He ditched the short sleeves for longer ones and put on a coat.

I was fine in my sneakers, my favorite Lycra stockings with the rainbow stripes at the top, my pre-destroyed jorts, my Dirty Dick's Crab Shack souvenir shirt (a favorite of mine because I have three tie-dye shirts, the other two came from Tillamook, OR and Wall, SD (the town's economy thrives in part on the elaborate tourist trap. Been there 3 times on my numerous road trips. Unfortunately, I am not unlike Mr. T's B.A. Baracas character. Any time road trips were not an option, I was usually drugged before boarding.) So the Dirty Dick's says on the back "I got my crabs at Dirty Dick's Crab Shack." It's actually one of the more obnoxious shirts I have.)

When I got to Produce, I told George "I bet you're jealous because my boyfriend directs top grossing films. You lost out on me big time!" and to his girlfriend "Bet you can't say your boyfriend makes millions of dollars when his movies are released.
(I have moments when I get even in the obnoxious of ways. As mean as it sounds, heartbreak hurts everyone around me because they deal with my wrathful anger and my father knows not to mess with me when jealous.)

I went to the baking secting for ingredients to make chocolate cookies with green M&Ms. After paying and bagging my ingredients, I caught up with Lee and we picked up my medicine.

I spent the afternoon baking those cookies. I thought it would be cute to give him a double dose of chocolate along with the famous green M&Ms everybody swears has an effect. It really doesn't. I'm mostly for the shits and giggles of the marketing ploy.

That evening, Lee made gnocchi for our dinner. He fed me one and asked, "Do you want more?" I kept being fed in a cute way, the way a lover would be playful yet caring for their most desired.

As he gave me truffles, I gave him the cookies and he ate them. He and I were getting a little goofy from the chemical reactions that chocolate does to people. I said "I better get cleaned up."

I went upstairs and took a bath and I tried my best to clean up and smell nice. I spent a lot of time in the bath talking about what to do about tonight. To be fair, he's on a high of serotonin as I sit in the bath, smelling sweet. He probably wants to smell the wafting scent of tropical flowers as he hugged me and...by that point I was dried off, the tub was drained, I put on my bathrobe, grabbed something I needed and got dressed.

I went to his room and his face was flush red. He said "Kimberly... you're all clean." I said "I was wondering if you could help me with the drive to my appointments tomorrow. I have to see a number of doctors around Hunterdon County." He kissed me, I got caught up in the moment and then he said, pushing me away "Why are you this adorable? You're 31, but look like a high school student. You got this body with a certain cuddly roundness. You're like a Xolo in that on cold nights we'd cuddle, you're a hot water bottle and you are the little spoon. You're too good for me. You should be with someone else, not this older man who's greying at the temples who is a monster with some monkey's face." I told him, "I love you for more than your looks. You've been getting stronger, in many ways and it shows. You can lift me up in your arms. You learn to let go of stoicism and you were able to cry it out with me when we watched Pete Docter's Up. You built skills and were able to get some time alone with me and you said and I quote 'I never met a young lady who had such a fire burning in her heart, who fights the good fights and above all, loves people until it hurts her. But that's okay. She is one of the strongest young ladies I've met in my days on Earth and I had a 20 year headstart.' and do you know what woman he was talking about?" He said, "Was it you?" I said "Yes." I kissed him sweetly and went to my room. I got cuddled up with my blankets and he kissed me good night. "Just wanted to let you know that I still care for you..."

The truffles came in a box that was like stackable layers and the color of the wrapper was the corresponding layer, so it was colorful and had the type written on the sides of the layers.

10/03/2018
Lee came to my private islands' beach in that loudly colored and patterned Speedo he wore when he took me and our kids to the beach. He was greeted by Grant Imahara and Tori Belleci. They had very little seniority compared to the guy at my blanket and umbrella. They said "To get to the woman in charge and her first love, you need to greet those above you, including us." "Then you go directly to the beach umbrella with the galaxy print to talk to the alpha and our boss." He greeted all kinds of men I had crushes on. When he got to my spot he was surprised it was me with long blonde hair with colorful streaks and a designer bikini and that the alpha was Bill Nye. Lee said "He's the alpha and your first love?" I told Lee "I was interested in the celestial bodies of the universe when I was a teenager and he is the CEO of The Planetary Society. Back then it was just a crush." Bill invited Lee to sit on my free side. I grabbed Lee's hand and he said "You have something to say?" I told him, "Tonight's the big summer festival. It starts on the first Sunday of July and the final night is that Saturday. My harem of men will be marked with my crest of an aerial snake with a white diamond on the top of the head in the clouds framed in a hexagon. This tattoo my harem bears is between the clavicle and the breast. You guys get to eat free and receive free services when you flash that crest. Besides, I get to eat fair food by letting them see the same one on my shoulder. Lee went and got tattooed and he was resting in a chamber I built for him. I cooed and held him close. He said "I am fine...Is that computer with video editing software?"

I let him have at it.

10/05/2018
Last night was weird. In my dream, it was morning. Lee woke me up from his side of the be and said "So, about last night's tempura udon (I remember us making the udon, but that was a while back)...Do you make that when you're heartbroken?" I said "Yeah. I got really good at it, so you can only imagine how heartbreak shaped my cooking. I find it carthartic to eat after someone breaks your heart, but only if you cook it for yourself." He said, "You're such a sweetheart. Do you want to WooHoo like last night? (He actually said WooHoo) I declined at first to think about it and he was pretty skilled so we WooHooed and he said "I find it pointless to waste such love energy on numerous others. You seem to enjoy being WooHooed. Is there something you want to do this morning?" I asked "I want to know if want to go for a walk in the rain." He said, "I will go for a walk in the rain. But we first need to start our day with something to eat and then take any medicine." we had breakfast, took our medicine, got dressed and Lee opened my umbrella and he and I walked along Main Street. Lee stayed close to the curb as he didn't want me to get splashed by a cruel driver. He was such a pleasure to be with a gentleman like himself. He fed me milk through a glass and straw and whispering affirmations into my ear. He rubbed my back. He knew I was worrying about Dr. Nye, the first man I fell for back during my adolescent years who inspired me to look to the skies.

I woke up. It was weird that Lee said "WooHoo". I wouldn't peg him as a simmer.

I had a really weird dream a few days ago. I was in math class and everything was as usual. Then as it was quiet in class, because everyone wrote down, which was on the blackboard. My math teacher (female) started to make zombie like noises and everbody laughed at her except me. After that, a classmate of mine started dancing with one of her friends. It was a mixture of a party dance and ballet. Then two other female classmates of me started dancing in class. At this point, my math teacher was crying and left the room immediatly. I followed her, because I was really worried and then the dream was over.
I should mention the first classmate I've mentioned is a straight A student and she would be last one to do something like that.

It was really weird. I mean I did sort of felt always sorry for my math teacher, because she's always under pressure to teach. Our course isn't very good at maths after all, but I don't feel THAT sorry for her. I mean I know nothing about her.

I would've expected to dream something like that of my former german teacher (female), because she never was a good teacher at all. She was and is very clumsy and then she wasn't teaching for several weeks, because her mom died. I felt so sorry for her. I was the only student, who greeted her and said goodbye from time to times. She isn't much liked at all and I wish her the best.
But still, why was I dreaming about my math teacher?

Last night, Lee appeared in my dream and he had grew his hair out. I asked "How much biotin did you take? You've got a mane of beautiful shiny black hair. Let me get a hair tie." I grabbed a blue one, went to Lee and tied back those silky ebony locks. He said "How about we go for a drive? I heard you wanted to go to New York City and I got the week off from editorial supervisor at the studio. Pack a suit case and we'll take a drive. I got reservations at the nicest of the 5 star hotels and it's a penthouse." I said "I hope it isn't the top of the refrigerator." He laughed warmly "No, it's not a hotel for cats..." I went upstairs, packed my clean clothes, and then packed my toiletries and medicines and left my parents a message:

"Dear Mom and Dad,
Lee surprised me with a couples' trip. Just the two of us in New York City. I gave Gemini a full bowl of chicken kibble and fresh water before I left. Contact me via call or text."

During the trip we stopped a few times to pick up things or refuel or take a break. It took some driving but I got to see New York City and we checked in. I clung tightly to Lee as we ascended to our penthouse suite. (Any time I am in an elevator, I admit I would cling to my lover or failing that, I hold on to a rail.)

He keyed in the passcode and I walked in. I peeked into the bathroom and looked at the shower. It was one of the fancy ones I heard about when my father worked as an office manager at a plumbing service for luxury homes. It had showerheads in the ceiling and walls. I was quick to try it out. I adjusted the water temperature and as I felt the hot water roll off my back, I found myself cracking my back. It was the best hot shower I had in a long time. I told Lee, "You got to try it. It's been a while since I've had a great shower." He went to try it out, but he screamed. I shouted "Turn the temperature down!" (I take insanely hot showers when my body is knotted and aching.)

I got dressed in pajamas as he showered. After he went to get dressed in pajamas, I pick up our clothes from the bathroom floor and set them on our sides of the bed. I noticed I would wear plaid miniskirts or shorts of various styles, t shirts with stains or holes and nylons or acrylic stockings with bungee laced sneakers or sometime platform sandals and my underwear is usually utilitarian in plain white cotton panties. As I look at his clothes, he's very basic: t-shirts, briefs, jeans, tube socks and sneakers. It made me feel like I was too much for him. Am I really that image conscious? Can't be, my shirts are wrecked.

I woke up and had woke up to an alarm I didn't expect. The cat's nose in my face!

10/08/2018
Lee and I woke up and we just had seem to drift off as we looked into each other's eyes. He said "Do you want me to bring you anything from the room service?" I tried declining " No, I don't want to waste money. Besides, John might get angry with us" he then said "John would want you to be treated like the lost princess you are. You are my muse." He called the room service for French toast. I asked him "Where are we going to today?" He said "I know you love Asian culture in all manner of interesting. We'll take the train to Chinatown."

On the train, I wanted to sit, but only Lee was able to. Some guy had manspread and said "Sorry" with insincerity and Lee had to become aggressive "Listen, that is my wife, this is her first time in New York City and I want her to be able to sit while in the subway." The guy said "Make me!" And I grabbed him and tossed him to the end of the car. The women in the train car cheered but I noticed Lee was dejected because I was able to fight back without his help.

We emerged in a downpour, and Lee gives me his jacket. I bought a pink maneki-neko as an aid to bring good luck in love (hey, just because I have a harem of nerdy guys who come to me in my dreams, doesn't necessarily mean I don't need a little help to keep them devoted to me and I'm extremely kind to the men I adore), an aka-beko (Red traditional bobblehead cow thought to ward off certain diseases), a kokeshi doll (a traditional cylindrical doll made of wood.) A set of saru-bobo (meaning "monkey baby", the dolls were usually made by women to ensure familial safety if it was red, other colors meant different meanings), and a set of ema board, I bought this with my allowance. But the cashier at the souvenir shop looked at me and Lee and she said "I see the ram loves this little rabbit." and I said, "I actually made the first move" she stopped speaking with the obligatory "Have a nice day". I guess she got our Chinese Zodiac Signs right. (I used to date two other Rams in my dreams: Bill Nye and Dana Carvey (both born in 1955. Lee was born in 1967.)

But I guess after lunch we would go back to the penthouse and got into our pajamas and shared scar stories and I told him of my ovarian cyst. When I said it was the size of a softball, had veins that fed off me and crushed my internal organs, he said "You win...I don't know how women put up with this." I said "We don't, because I spent my college years getting it checked out. I had an MRI. I had regular blood draws for tumor markers. Dr. Wang said it was semi-sentient and fed off me with the veins on it. So upon graduation, it was removed. My convalescing at home required taking in protein shakes because I didn't have Steve to draw from."

He asked "You named it Steve?" I said "Ever seen How To Get Ahead in Advertising ? It was a popular film to parody. It was about a boring man who ends up with a charismatic growth. Because I was this charismatic woman with my Steve, who was named after one growth in the parodies, I could convince I was a bastard child of a famous stuntman. But it came with the trade-off in that the pain was awful, so I was sent to the same doctor for my mother's strangler cyst: Dr. Wang. They took Steve out and I realized I lived a lie for so long. Eventually we left the foothills and headed to the suburbs. But we left after we couldn't pay the rent. But Steve was one of the strangest things about living in the Pacific Northwest. Sentient growths were common in Western Washington."

He took off his shirt and pointed out numerous scars from accidents throughout childhood and adolescence and surgical scars from emergency operations...it was his war wounds. He put his shirt back on.

I unbuttoned from the bottom to the top, stopping at just under the chest and shown on my stomach the infamous Cooper gallbladder scar. He gently tickled me as he ran his finger over the scar. I buttoned up and he noticed it was snowing outside. He cuddled close and gently kissed me. He said "Happy Birthday, sweetheart". I said, "Let's go out for Japanese food for my birthday."

I had a sims related dream once.

I was in some fantasy dungeon-hallway room with my bff and we were talking about fictional characters (they does not exist as irl fictional characters, they were just in te "dream universe"), I told her that mine is a military general-priest (not irl) and how interesting is that, that that person is a warlord but also a priest, it is so badass and also is it possible irl, I asked her. Some (now former) classmates passed by while we were sitting in some bench-like thing.

In the next scene I had two viewpoints as often in my dreams... The one was in front of sims 2. The neighborhood also looked like a bit castaway stories in a part, like regular sims 2 and castaway stories sims overlapping. I saw the water tower decoration (with the Sims 2 text on it), I clicked on a dome, it had a text on it that said "Sims 3". I wanted to put that down somewhere.
The other viewpoint was was me as the military general-priest man (i am female, but in my dream i was a man) and i was also giant sized and I stood in the river of that sims 2 neighborhood, but I did not feel the water with my legs. Other giant military people were there talking about battle plans. I was holding the dome with the sims 3 text in my arms (that I clicked on earlier) and I put it on the sims 2 water tower and said: "upgrade!", then the dome crumpled a bit like it was made of some fast food paper cup. Then the destroyed dome fell of, revealing the water tower under it, but now the tower had the sims 4 text on it! So I laughed like crazy and the military men though I was crazy.

I wonder what does that mean... The sims 3 changed the sims 2 into sims 4??? That is what my dream meant...

I went to the grand opening of the Geoffrey's Toy Box in Philipsburg (Or P-Burg by the locals) where the Toys R Us was. I had saved my dental incentive money to go doll shopping. Of course, I had saved enough for the largest doll houses for 12" dolls, doll furniture and the dolls from the Pertsch-McGillis line from my line of pop culture fashion dolls with 30 points of articulation so hands grip, the feet bend and the hips move. The Made to Move Barbie and the Body-Chan\Body-Kun models from the Tamashii Nations series by Bandai were my biggest inspiration in these best selling dolls for aspiring stopmotion animators. Hand drawn may be confined to TV, but I won't let the art die with me. Stopmotion is an accessible animation process and who knows if the next Art Clokey or Nick Park will emerge from a small town or a tiny apartment in the big city?

I put my purchases in this shopping cart large enough to fit my butt in in the main basket for large items. I made the poor stock boy have to cart my dollhouses on the dolly used in the stock room. I got every doll in the Pertsch-McGillis line, from 6teen, to Stoked, to the Total Drama metaseries. Of course, because my father's van was taken after my birthday, we asked for them to deliver the dollhouses into the basement. I was building a doll town with various plastic buildings and lots for the dolls to play in.

What was weird was me and Lee Unkrich were taking time off to breathe (about a month, making a promise to be faithful to each other, but it's hard when your space nerd ex brings his astrophysicist friends round and try to ply me with caffeine, vitamins, minerals, amino acids, flavoring, spirulina and sucralose to see if I can beat my high scores in Shadow the Hedgehog) and unfortunately, a power I had of turning dolls into sentient entities when I was a child came back (it developed from my angst in wanting to make friends. My awakening took the desire too literally). I was like the anime version of Sabrina, the Saffron City gym leader, who had an avatar in the former of a possessed porcelain doll (of course, the 18 inch doll seated in my lap would have long black coffee colored hair, wearing a tee, shorts and high tops). I have been known to be vicious with people who approach me, but I hate when this happens. I opened the dolls from the 6teen and Stoked collections and brought them to life after I finished the dollhouses.

The basement became a town full of lots for residential and commercial and even mixed.

My vivification powers were reactivated after 21 years. It was awful. If Lee comes back and the dolls pull that dumb Lilliputians VS Gulliver stunt or worse!

What could be worse?

The old Attack on Titan bit with Lee as the Titan and the dolls as the defense squad in the walled off villages.

I don't know why Lee left me to deal with these cursed powers alone.

But when Lee returns, he'll be awash in passion, coming in various emotional exhaustions.

Someone told me that to be in a mutual relationship, you give your lover an invitation to harm your heart. Or at least, you run a risk of heartbreak because the person is independent from you.

WHERE TO START? I had such a weird dream last night...

So it starts where I'm narrating a little story about the first time I made tacos. I was scared to make mince so instead I used chorizo and onions mixed together as a substitute, then that became that time when I had my friend and her boyfriend (my best friend, Berry) round for taco night, and I was remembering how it was 2012 or so, and that Berry didn't like vegetables, so when I made the mince, I added in some chorizo and then he thought it was tomato at first, and then that transitioned into a memory about how Berry and our other friend Ben came to visit me about a year and a half ago in North Wales when I first moved here, and they met Adam for the first time and it was my first time letting Adam meet my friends.

Then, onto the next dream, which was just me writing wiki pages for each of my Sims in my Megahood I talk about in the "What's happening with your game?" thread on the Sims 2 section. For some reason, Samuel and Daniel Cordial (born-in-game twin sons of Kimberly Cordial and Carlos Contender) were showing up as aliens in their thumbnail and I was like "Yeah that makes sense" for some reason? Then I was trying to work out who they were married to. I think it's because yesterday I was playing Daniel Cordial's girlfriend, Lois Aspir while she was in college and trying to work out when to get them engaged. Either way, it was a long dream about working out who is in a relationship with who and where to move them to (which is something I have to do in my game today actually, because I've just finished my uni rotation so all the graduates are moving back home).

Then came the bizarre dream For some reason, I was taking a bus in this place I'd never been to before, only it wasn't really a bus... more of a rollercoaster, with 3 seats per row, me and two of my friends I went to high school with, Reece & Tom, who I haven't spoken to in YEARS, were riding this "bus", and we were following this train track kind of thing and I said "I don't actually know my way around this area, I haven't lived here for long so you're going to have to tell me when to get off the bus" and Reece said he didn't know his way either, but Tom did. The tracks start to get run down with grass and other such things, so it was becoming a bit of a bumpy ride, Then it broke apart so each of the 3 seats spun into different tracks, I was originally on the right, with Reece in the middle and Tom on the left - but then the track changed and then I was on the left of Reece. Then I notice there's a polar bear (yep) on my track and my seat (it's like a seat with 1 really big wheel that follows the track) spun out of control and crashed. I watched as the "bus" continued going. I get all freaked out because I don't know my way home and it's starting to get dark. I fall asleep in the grass and wake up the next morning, and start following where I think the tracks had gone. I come across Reece, who is also lost and asleep, but I wake him up and the tracks became more noticable. We started to follow them... then a horse appeared and I climbed on and said it would be faster than walking. Reece wasn't convinced but I pulled him on the horse and we made our way following the tracks.

Eventually the tracks lead to one of the English classrooms from high school, and we arrived and everyone was happy to see us. But by now it was hometime so we had to go home. Then as I'm walking home, I come across a car that's suspended in a tree, so I go closer and the car drops and there's a screen with the name of some kind of movie (actually as I recall, it was the 'Lamb of God' logo, but in this dream it was a movie) and I was like "ugh, I bet that was gorilla advertising" (see, all those years of Media studies pays off!), and kept walking. Then further up, there's a guy with dwarfism sitting in a tree on like a tree swing, I could see that he was actually suspended by a crane hidden by the tree, presumably so that he won't fall and whatever company is promoting this weird ad campaign wouldn't get sued. Anyway, so I walk past him on my way home (it's a street with a hill that I use to walk up to get to/from school, but in the dream there's loads of trees on each side of the road to the point where if you look up you can't even see the sky), I wave at him and go "hey dude" and continue walking, but he shouts "hey" and asks if I wanna know why he's in the tree, I shrug and say "Sure" and begin to walk closer. He opens his mouth and begins explaning... and then the dog wakes me up by barking at nothing

I guess I'll never know why that dwarf was in the tree...

In any case, you have a lot going on. Your family, your job, your downtime...take things easy by meditation if you get to this level of crazy in dreams.

P.S. I found my blue glasses. It was hidden in a paper shopping bag.

It's just crazy hormonal pregnancy dreams

Adam managed to fix my glasses by the way!

I was eating some chips and drinking a dragon fruit drink and I heard a knock on the door. I asked "Who is it?" And the hoarse, masculine, slight whine said "It's me, Alice. Let me in, it's cold and wet." I offered him a cookie I made with chocolate cookie dough and green M&Ms (M&M Mars corporate is located in a nearby town, so I have some connections), but he declined because he's not much of a sweets man. I tried charming him and he said "Okay. You're sweet for a piece of work." He then ate my cookie and we spent time together. He was more amicable after eating the cookie. It was strange, me as the picture of full, round image of youthful beauty and him a haggardly, wrinkled image of a man not unlike a mistreated motorcycle: rode hard and put away wet. The fact he stayed in Lee's room while he was trying hard to write some music. He actually heard me playing The Sims 4 and his opus "School's Out" translated was weird.

The cookies' duration of the love effect lasts 1 week. Bonding with an individual has to happen before the end of the 168th hour.

I had to keep him from ruining my relationship with my boyfriend Lee. I said I would wait for Lee.

10/12/2018
I slept in today and had a dream about Alice Cooper and I dressed up as the Mad Hatter (him) and I as Alice Liddell in typical Alice of Alice in Wonderland clothes (blue dress, white apron, blue ribbon in my blonde hair, striped stockings) and he ate another cookie I made for keeping peace. If he eats it all, he might propose marriage to me. So I ate the half remaining. I heard the door knocking. I answered it and Lee was at the door. He apologized for the whole "break" nonsense. Then he said "Cute cosplay." I said "Me and Alice Cooper were having a tea party. I had made cookies and the tea is Shizuoka Matcha green tea." I invited Lee in and Alice asked "Who is this man?" I said "Alice, this is my husband, Lee Unkrich" Alice attacked Lee and I found myself spritzing them with a water bottle as if they were dogs and cats.

Lee had to be rushed to the hospital and I told Alice as I was getting in to accompany Lee, "Get out, you jealous bastard! Pack up and leave my house!"

Y'know those egg cups you can get with faces on? Actually they do plates and mugs and stuff too... but that's not important...

Anyway last night I had a dream where I was some ambulance person, and there had been a shooting in some kind of venue hall and it turns out it was a mafia shootout or whatever, but they weren't real people... they were different colours (for different mafias) of those freakin egg cups. Also Finn from Adventure time was there and he had roast beef sandwiches, and I really wanted them (even though I've literally never had roast beef in my life). Anyway, so we were collecting all the different colours of egg cup and putting them in the ambulance to take them to hospital........... Yup.

Your pregnancy dreams are getting all the more strange.

Last night, in my dreams, I had to take Lee to the hospital after Alice clocked him in the nose and right eye. At the hospital, he got patched up and we spent the afternoon in a hospital room. During his convalescing, he apologized for him and I going on break. He didn't realize Alice Cooper could get that jealous. I said, "Alice was under the influence of the cookies I make." "What did you put in them?" He asked, so I said "Green M&Ms, there was a cocoa powder in the dough and Ghirardelli chocolate, broken into chunks." He said "You essentially turned him into a lovesick old man who wants you. The chemical components in those ingredients made him a mindless slave to any whims and desires you had."

I then told him "I still have the cookies." He said, "May I have one when we get home?"

I said "OK. But eat one. He ate a dozen."

It was short, but it was nice to see him and with us talking was a bit of a sweet peace of mind.

The real question is, are they that strange now or have they always been that strange but I don't usually remember?

I had a dream last night where I was in the doctors office and he was checking a pimple on my butt. For some reason there were carebears on the hospital bed thing? Then this guy I work with walked in and asked me when my wedding was, and I said "on the 21st!" (dunno why. Haven't planned my wedding.) and then I thought "oh god I hope he doesn't know I'm pregnant!".

There was more to the dream, but sadly I don't remember anymore. I've been at work all day.

almost 3 days ago i had this weird dream about porn

i was at the porn club with my 3 best friend, we were having fun at the club.
we did uhm you know, what a men and women usually do in bed NAKED

i had an condom with me so i was having fun with my best friend there, but my 2 other best friends did it without a condom so my best friend was pregnant and her boyfriend was the father of this baby
my parents watched them do that and told me my best friend was gonna be pregnant and i don't

thank god i was awake on time because of my crazy dream i was having

I was in my secret home in Barbados. I had stolen a Time\Space portal gun and I got a place for me and Lee to raise our octuplets, age 7. Somehow, I was pregnant again, this time with twins. Lee said, "At least twins are manageable" I wasn't showing yet, but Lee would talk to the belly and feel it.

When I began to show, he wondered what it would be fraternal or identical, and from there, boys, girls or one of each. We eventually got our answer and we were getting a boy and a girl. For names, I chose Peter Charles for the boy and Eva Lucia for the girl.

When the day came, it was a relatively easy and quick birth compared to the octuplets, which I wanted to go home immediately.

We spent the first year waking up together to help with midnight feedings. I actually breastfed my twins and he would put the twins back in their cribs after humming a lullaby. He was very kind to help with any pain from breastfeeding. He said "I'm amazed how you are going through a lot of things and you seem like you enjoy me being around." I told him, "I love you. You certainly seem to like my company and you're a great father. I know you caring for 5 boys and 5 girls seemed impossible, but here you are, doting on our children between us. The warm weather is nice, the kids are getting some fresh air and sun and they are growing up so fast. They won't stay 7 forever."

i had a weird dream about birthcontrol


i needed to take birthcontrol (like i usually do until i stop it for a week for my period)
but i got neauseous and throwed up, i guess it taste as if i ate the puke

and then i bumped into sailor moon and the other sailor scouts and i had to fight with a enemy
so i guess i helped the sailor scouts

and right before i woke up it reminds me of sailor mercury with sailor uranus trying to find sailor moon but instead of that they found nehelenia (or however there enemy's name was from season 6)
and i was in there in my dreams too trying to find sailor moon

i don't remember which episode it was anymore though when sailor mercury and sailor uranus was trying to find sailor moon in season 6

Well...
Last night, in me dreams, I was able to take a hot bath with a bath bomb in the bath.

I found myself talking to Lee via smartphone speakerphone on top of the counter and he was asking how I was today. I told him that I missed him and I would love to see him tonight. He said he just left Ohio (he was visiting family and he planned to show me after my birthday to his family. I've shown him in a recent dream to my 150 strong family.) and would be heading to stay as my guest.

I had received some new underwear and for the first time, found a bra that fit me and matching underpants, a cold shoulder shirt and a plaid pleated miniskirt, stockings and pumps.

For some reason, as the dream went on, I received items from the online boutiques I am signed up for.

He came to my room. Caught me off guard in the new underwear (I had rainbow stripes for the set, and I am that bold to wear rainbow striped underwear) he turned around and asked "Doesn't the door lock? Didn't you get my text" He said "I didn't get your text, my phone died." As I dressed in my cold shoulder shirt, my cutoffs and my knee-high stockings. I allowed him to turn around and see me dressed.

He said, "It's so wonderful to see you. I want you to meet my family after your birthday. I want you to meet my family because they're wondering about the mysterious woman you are." I asked "Will that dentist cousin you mentioned be there?" He reluctantly asked "Yes, why?" I said "My interactions with dental healthcare specialists is awful. I just got a dentist I like not too long ago. I have bit, chokeheld and otherwise attacked a number of dental healthcare specialists before I met Dr. Maggioli." Lee was scared. "What should I do about that?" I said "Keep that cousin away from me at all costs!"

He said, "I was sending you your share of the bonus for Pixar East being my duties from John. I sent it in gift card form because I haven't married you yet. And I know you and your government ties" I said "We'll cross that bridge when we get there..."

The other night I had this weird dream where I put a rather large live caterpillar in a frying pan. It started growing bigger and bigger, and making this telltale whistling sound. At that point, I shielded my face and then *POP!* Got sprayed by surprisingly lukewarm cooked caterpillar innards. Tasted pretty good too. Now I bet a buncha people here are gonna wish there was a "gross" or "barf" option.

They were unveiling the newest Doctor who.... it was Sebastian from the little mermaid... who then melted... and became a sting-ray.
Also Marceline the vampire queen and.... herself... but in a different outfit... were lesbian lovers, running away from evil spirits possessing trains. It was like a video game though so I was controlling them, and I had to keep picking to either go through tunnel A or tunnel B, or other scenarios... then I thought "trains can't run off tracks, so I'll just make them go through the woods" and then I won the game?

Was it a fuzzy one? Any time I see a black and tan fuzzy, I oddly remember the drummer from the band Anthrax because he had a similar looking goatee. I recently saw a white one with spikes.

It looked more like a giant mealworm. And you know, I wasn't all that grossed out. I still am open to eating insects - fried, cooked or raw.

today i had a weird dream about my hair


i had to go to the barber to dye my hair pink permantly (or however it's called that it won't get rid of it right after you wash your hair)
and it was thursday, october the 18th

and then everyone said i look beautiful with pink hair


and when i woke up i was all like: wtf did i just dreamed about
i still have pink hair in real expect i get my own natural color again after i wash it out a few times
and it was exact the same date i was dreaming about, it feels so weird at some point

in real it was october the 18th too and also on thursday
why me ?

Well unfortunately, Alice Cooper, still dressed like the Mad Hatter, came back and dip kissed me and he was still under some of the effects of the cookies I made after I tossed him out for punching Lee, my husband.

He said "Run away with me. I'm not long for this world. Grant this gentleman's wish in the twilight of his life?"

I told him "I'm in love with Lee and no matter how many times you call him a whiny dork, I am in love with Lee because we're two people sharing a soul. He is my soulmate. I finally found him and you're nothing but a fling. After dealing with Axl, I find no joy in dealing with vocalists. If anything, I would date Steven Adler, he's a drummer. My answer is no."

Lee came in and ask "What's going on?" I said "He started it!" Lee then punched Alice Cooper in both eyes and said "You won't be needing your makeup for awhile." Alice was sent to the hospital for the black eyes. While at the hospital, the doctors had no sympathy for Alice after he punched Lee.

Lee and I took off our clothes, stopping at underwear and we put on oversized sweat jackets and he cuddled up with me in bed. Lee asked "Just how many guys have you been with before I came along?" I said "I kissed quite a few frogs in my day, some looked like their transformation was incomplete." He said "So a beauty and the beast couple?" I said "I could have the others fight for the right to fight you, then you two fight for me. I actually find it attractive to see a man in combat fight for my sake."

i was watching this documentary last night on social workers taking babies as soon as the baby was born/when they were a few days old because they didn't think the parents would be able to take care of them. It made me have a dream where I had given birth (I had a girl, by the way) and she was soooo cute and I was telling everyone all about her birth and some people came to visit me. But then the social worker turned up and kept telling me everything I was doing was wrong (in all fairness, in the dream I didn't support the baby's neck when I picked her up so it makes sense) and I was like "I'm one of 6 children! I already know how to look after babies and you're making me feel nervous and stupid by watching me".

That was the whole dream. I woke up thinking my baby had been born though and I was just about to pick up my phone and text a colleague (who I was going to text in my dream) but then I was like "wait. No. I'm still pregnant"

Are you nervous? I can assure you that I have seen your posts and your parenting wouldn't be of any concerns. You Got This!

Not nervous about parenting. More nervous that I can easily be mistaken for someone a lot younger, and nervous that people don't think I know what I'm talking about or how much I know about pregnancy (presumably because I look so young, but who knows). Today at the pharmacy I was asking about a different brand of pregnancy vitamins because the ones I take don't contain calcium, and because I'm lactose intolerant I'm worried I'm not getting enough. She literally explained why calcium is important for Mums-to-be. I know. That's why I'm asking about it. Now help me pick a better pre-natal pill

You're in your 20s and worry about looking young? I'm almost 31, a Millennial, and I'm mistaken for a 16 year old, a member of the iGen, which Hollywood studios could take advantage of my deprivation from sun and smoke damage for casting as a teenager in some comedies, where I have a cactus sharp tongue and otherwise act like I own the place.

Dreaming last, Lee was making me French toast that morning. He sat next to me as we ate and asked me "Who was your first love? It can be a crush or someone you know...I want to know who it was." I said "It was Bill Nye." Lee said "Why him?" I said "He was the type of person who could make the Martian terraforming project interesting. He wants to send a special probe to Europa via crowdfunding to see the possibility of life in the ice encapsulated ocean. He finished his late tutor's work and sent out a number of space probes. That and he had a dress code that hasn't changed in decades." He asked "Why are you not together or is that something that bothered you since then?" I said "Long story short, the empire I built at my high school was sabotaged by an attention whore rival. She turned everyone who was for me against me. How she Livestreamed his wedding is beyond me. All I could say about that was you could see me do 1 minutes miles." Either way, Lee and I held each other and he said "I never want to hurt you or let you get hurt." Suddenly, the front door opened and Bill Nye came into the kitchen with 13 pure white roses. "Is this a bad time? I can come back if you want me to." I said "Bill, I can't believe you decided to come here after my boyfriend Lee and I said no."

Lee said "She is with me." I said "You're no fun anymore." He gave me the white roses and said "I could name rosetta orbit planets after love gods and goddesses and their relatives for you. You ruined me this morning. I want to know: Do you care about beliefs or hard truths?" I said "Lee has more imagination, passion and enjoys cold mornings where we trade stories. When's the last time you were imaginative, had any passion in your heart and soul and how can you name planets after folklore characters when you rejected any semblance of religion? Lee and I have more fun talking about how to construct stories. Get out of my house and never darken my doorway again!" Bill left. Lee got me in his lap and held me. He said "Now I understand your heart. How could someone with no imagination and passion do that to you?" I told him "He wasn't such a tool when I fell for him."

10/20/2018
I was heading to Pixar East, which is located in New York City and my husband Lee set up an interview for the job. John Lasseter still has some control of the office. They had me pass a litmus test conducted by John Cleese. I started talking about my Millennial Spinster gag of buying an entire CD for one song (especially if every track besides the wanted one was crap) and how a best of CD album was your only hope for the good stuff, the video game options before hybrids like the Switch came out and the Nokia Ericsson's durability, except for when it's thrown in the wash. Then I made my human lie detector buzz and somehow Lasseter and Cleese agreed I have the ability to inject life into this project.

yesterday i had a bad dream about my work

i know in real there's a co-worker who keeps say the same things about us (humans) and the animals. (animals won't judge you and however she kept saying)
and sometimes i say something because she could be angry about nothing.

i keep saying that she needs to shut up and stop complaining about the same thing. i guess it's just how she always is

but in my dream it got a bit further than that, she kept saying the same things in my dreams, and i always said with an anger voice that she needs to shut the hell up about what she complains about
expect in my dream i attacked her and got even more angrier then usual, i punched her to the ground and she got hurt
everyone was so scared of me, nobody saw me that angry
nobody called the police because i was agressive in my dream i don't know how it ended in my dreams though


and today i dreamed about something very weird

i dreamed that i had se* with a girl i just met and didn't knew what her name was but i kept it as a secret
i masturbate myself while eating dinner and everyone (including my parents) saw that

after diner we had se* outside at the corner, we did it in different ways and everyone was like: what the f*ck are they doing outside NAKED
i guess we got caught, my parents congratulated us by coming out of the closet

and when i woke up i thought it happened in real

but in real i'm not a lesbian nor bi sexual, i'm straight

I dreamt Lee sent me gift cards in my email and in a separate email, he said "Have fun!" I received enough to spend my free time in the bathroom. I received hair bleach, bath bombs, colored deep conditioner, body scrubs and bubble bombs (bath bombs that turn bathwater into bubble baths. I decided to take a spa day.

After bleaching, bathing, rinsing, conditioning, blow drying, deep conditioning, processing and rinsing, I put on my underwear and sweat jacket and fell asleep, awaiting Lee to come home.

Lee came in and kissed me. He said "Nice. You smell sweet and you did your hair. It's very colorful."
I held him close and said "My darling Prince Charming... it's boring just dreaming of you in this tower. Please spend tonight with me. I know you sent me all these gifts." He said "I got the week off and I was thinking of spending time cuddled in bed watching Netflix."

I said, "I got a better idea...Let's escape into town and go shopping. I'm running out of food, I would like to buy new underwear, more books for my art instructions."

He said "Okay."

He paid for my purchases and he helped put them in the correct places. He got his wish to cuddle with me. I cuddled under his arm and nodded off. He just stared out the window and just mused. "This young woman sees me as her Prince Charming. Why me? I got a wife and my 3 kids are grown. What does she see in me? Am I some new kind of Alpha Male?" He nodded off.

The next day, we were tangled up in each other's arms. Lee kisses me sweetly and says, "Good morning, sweetheart." I said "Morning, dear." He got dressed and so did I and he then made breakfast. This time, it was waffles. And he asked "What exactly attracted you to me?" I said "I first heard quite a bit of you in 2011 and I heard bits and pieces of you in 2003. You are funny to be around. I heard when you had hair reaching past your shoulders, I would give anything to see you when you were a stud. You were wonderful at delegating the no-shave bet. Of course you won bragging rights." He said "This is the biggest question I am going to ask: Do you genuinely love me?" I said "I do. You first attracted me with your accolades, but as we got along, your heart and soul shown me your human quality. I could never be without you now." Tears ran down my face and Lee wiped my tears.

I told him "I want you in my life". He said "You want to cuddle up and watch TV?" He said "I can send my resignation from her and I will be yours."

He left and I got into my bed. When he came back, he cuddled up with me and said, "It's all right, you have me to yourself now." It was this warm embrace that left me wondering if he does love me. Turned out (at least in the dreamscape) he won't leave me alone in sadness.

10/24/2018
Last night was wonderful. Lee and I were cuddling up. He held me close and we gave each other love bites. He said, "Sweetheart, I want to know I long to have you. Will you be mine?" I said "I will..." He was wearing pajamas and I was wearing underwear. He gave me his pajama top and said "It's cold tonight. Take my top." He turned on the stereo and "Magic" by Jacob Wheeler was on. (For those wondering, it was only one of a few iconic songs from the Gundam metaseries that was in English. It was from Gundam 0083: Stardust Memory and it was the ending song) After it finished it transitioned to "Until" by Matyanne Murray (again, in English, from Turn A Gundam, it sounds crackly because Turn A Gundam has a steampunk aesthetic)

We eventually fell asleep and woke up in light of dawn.

i had an weird dream about my mom's birthday


i was gonna throw a party or something without my mom knowing so i invited a few old schoolmate of mine's
my old friend came, my 2 other schoolmates did showed up too but the rest of the old schoolmate forget about it or they couldn't make it or something
then my mom came home and everyone had to hide under the table and i told my mom i didn't mean to thow a party or something like that

i guess my mom was okay with it but i was stressed out in my dreams, then everyone who could make it showed up and surprises my mom and we were singing happy birthday


i've been thinking about my mom's birthday lately, i mean her birthday is by next week on sunday (november the 4th)
she don't wanna throw a party but i want to surprise her by giving my gift to her i've buyed at the mall
i already packed everything in now

i guess it continues in my dreams what i've been thinking about my mom's birthday lately

I had a dream where I had to drive my car into an empty, in ground swimming pool as part of my commute to work; and I had been doing it every day for years. Getting it in the pool was easy, cuz gravity. But I didn't have enough room to get up to speed on the little ramp to "jump" my car out of the pool along the short width of the pool.
I was out of the car walking around the pool and trying to remember how to finish my commute.
Now that I'm awake, it's obvious... don't use the ramp and go to the deep end.
I know everyone has that dream...

i didn't had a sweet dreams this time

i dreamed that my dad has a accident and died instantly.

my whole family cried, i asked my mom if he wants to go to hell or to heaven. my mom answered: to heaven.

but then my dad came back to life somehow

both my mom and i looked so surprised to my dad

i dreamed about death before but i never got a dream like this before
pffff what a horrible nightmare i had last night

I had a dream where I was going to comic-con, but I had to go through this kinda check-out area, where you put everything in your bag on a self-checkout thing. But for some reason I had to move everything to another one. I don't know why my bag was filled with so many anime figures, seeing as I was going INTO comic con, not coming OUT OF. But I was holding a huge plastic link and I woke up saying "I don't know where to put Link" to Adam. (Side note, but Adam's reply was "I'll hold him" - not sure if he knew I was dreaming about LoZ or our baby, being that if he's a boy he's being called Lincoln).

I fell back asleep, and I was in Comic-con, but me and my friend Kasim who I use to go to comic-cons with were looking for some famous artist and found out they were in this sports hall with loads of badminton pitches... it was weird.

I was watching PIXAR's interpretation of the number of Chinese Zodiac folk tales on the origin of the Chinese Zodiac (personally, I would love to see something like that) While watching it on disc, I switch it to the commentary with Lee Unkrich and Ash Brannon as co-directors to the director of the Bao short, which, although confused my numerous white peers, I felt like I was at an understanding because it reminded me of the strange relationship I had with my mother where she can't seem to let go. (Not like my mother has plans to eat me alive)

So, here is what I heard:
LU: So doing dragons in such a story was surprisingly convenient, because as I read in one of my wife's books, Chinese dragons can be as big as the sky or small like a corn snake.
AB: Your wife...tell me more about this educated woman who you call your wife.
LU: She goes by the nickname of Kymchee, K-Y-M-C-H-E-E and she's an authority on world theology, mythos and folklore, which she minored in, but she also majored in various forms of science, technology, engineering, the arts and math. She and I are getting together after this commentary for dinner at a 5-star Japanese restaurant and maybe kiss because she enjoys the camera.
AB: What happened with your last wife?
LU: She divorced me because she found me boring. That is ridiculous to just leave me for that. I'm with my new wife and I started working out, eating better, I no longer have a "dad bod", I'm lean, she's playful and she recently worked out alongside me. We even competed in the US Wife Carrying competition and I actually came in first. She berated me across the finish line, defeating Mr. & Mrs. Häyhö for the first time in 15 years at the international level. Of course we declined the pints in her pounds because we're not drinkers, that and she was starting on her dietary restrictions.
AB: Seems like she enjoys you and your company.
LU: Yes, she doesn't mind the affection
AB: But...
LU: She had the crocodile tears reflex when she yawns so sometimes I can't tell if I upset her or if she just yawned.

Well, being the co-director, he was honest for being peer pressured into revealing my identity. It was weird. But he didn't reveal I was nigh on 300 lbs. (P.S. My stress eating is out of control because I still can't help my grieving father. I can tell a part of him died inside. My dream was weird that I need to reconsider my life.)

When I woke up, I heard my alarm to the "morning brush my teeth routine" go off.

10:50PM, 10/28/2018
I woke up from a weird dream. Lee and I, we're still at our respective ages of 51 (Lee) and 31 (me), but our children were grown by about 10 years old for our octuplets and 3 years old for our twins Peter and Eva (If you read when I debuted them, I gave them names in honor of the fan favorites, Pikachu and Eevee. That and I had a great uncle Peter through my mother's mother (at least he bears no grudges against my existence) and his middle name, Charles, was from my great uncle Charles through my father's father, who sent me an inheritance of $500 which I spent on music. Eva was actually from Eva Lucia, who was supposed to be pair with a brother Evan Luther (Luther, being part of my family's spiritual heritage) and I actually had the name Evan Luther for quite a while. But I guess I will have to retire it.

If they release any more Eeveelutions, it's the ectogenesis chambers for that plus retconning.

Our children were just great. The octuplets were playing Super Smash Brothers Ultimate. I linked 8 Joy-Con controller, each outfitted with a case in their signature color. Peter was pretty chill for a toddler, but Eva was crying for Lee. For some reason, I produced a couple of daddy's girls. Sylvia and Eva were the two. Sylvia outgrew her daddy's girl phase and I look at myself in the mirror and see myself still relying on my own father, even if he's a broken man. Peter grabs my shirt, tugs at it and I look down on him and we spent time, listening to Queen's "Somebody to Love".

My mother came over and she just got mobbed by the octuplets. Lee lightly jostled Eva to calm her down and he played with her. But no matter how much Lee tried, Eva kept crying. It drove Lee to tears, which by the time he was crying, Eva eventually petered out and fell asleep.

I had little sleep last night, but it helped me that it was Halloween themed. I dressed as Cleopatra (contrary to what you were told, Cleopatra was actually was a Greek slave who rose to power and had 2 partners in trade and bed, Marc Anthony and Julius Caesar.) Lee dressed as Julius Caesar (as a general) and we were at the Emeryville Pixar costume contest. The prize was $10,000. We got up on stage and there were two of the younger guys dressed as Superman and Son Goku from the Dragon Ball metaseries. One group had enough people to dress up as every Doctor Who iteration of The Doctor including the latest one. I worried we we're going to be overshadowed by the Supermen of East and West doing a rap battle and the 13 Doctors stuffing themselves into the TARDIS.

...but I kissed Lee and he went along with my bold public display of affection in front of the crew. The crowd just lost their minds like when the animation team lost it when Dylan Brown, an extremely tall animator, chucked a Pinocchio doll into the insulation in the ceiling long ago.

I think we got more applause than AJ Riebli dressed as the baby from the Tin Toy short, but his reception was cheerfully disgusted. Take into account he was a 6'4", 300 pound former rugby player who asked his girlfriend to shave all the hair off his body and he was dressed in a bulky foam diaper and baby booties and that was the reason I said cheerfully disgusted. That is more than some were willing to take in. His prize was tickets to anywhere in American Airlines' range. Well, he married his girlfriend and they spent a weekend in Vegas

We bought new computers, towers for my computer setups at home with the prize money. I got one for animation in hand drawn and high speed gaming (one was for art and another was for games). Lee got a laptop, a simple fast model that utilizes the best dedicated script writing programs.

Yesterday I had a dream where I gave birth to triplets (all girls) but I was also pregnant with twins (at least 1 boy).

Last night I had a dream where there was an extra room at work that was like a train carriage but filled with all kinds of sweets.