Ugh, one more day of staying home and taking pills over pills. I'm going crazy, I haven't seen the sun outside the freakin' window in one week and it's driving me INSANE. I am bored as fuck. I HATE YOU, FLU, I HATE YOU! ಠ_ಠ

I'm the proud owner of a concussion. Yaaaay.

I went to a university today with a friend who goes to art school there and it made me wish I'd gone straight to university rather than taking a year off. It just had such an amazing environment and I'm so annoyed at myself for choosing not to go straight into it.

Some people are just an annoying waste of space. I seem to go to school with the majority of said people. I've had dreams of violently murdering those people multiple times. And by violent, I mean slasher movie violent.

I don't think I'm sane. I really, really, really don't think I am.

EDIT: Apparently, those people also give me major headaches. Gee, thanks, assholes.

WHY the FREAK, YEAP, why did THE FreAK did the CAGE BIRD HAVE TO SING!!!!!!

Hannah, I share your passion. There are so many people on my To Be Dead list that I just don't know where to begin!

As to my vent, I have several some are trivial some may not be so trivial, let's get typing, shall we?

1- Last Wednesday, at school, during P.E my best friend came to me(we shall call her 'N') white-faced with shock, she told me that D (a boy who is in the lowest 10 boys in our class) told her that he loves her while she was playing volley, of course she didn't say anything and continued playing, he then proceeded to ask her if she dates, which she replied to with a big now thus leaving him to go back to the benches red-faced with shame and anger. She decided to go explain to him the sitch' and I went with her for protection and moral support, he told her that he had loved her since the first semester and that he really wanted to tell her ages ago, she told him that she didn't date and I emphasized that point by telling him that we (her and I) were focused on our studies and we don't give a damn about dating or boys in general, he then asked her again if she was sure she wouldn't date she said no and then he asked me. I was like"huh? No, I don't date and I won't date and I don't love anyone nor will I love anyone, ever". End of convo, he left, that night his buddy 'M' told me that he heard rumors that I am going to date 'D' which is definitely not true, I told him the exact same thing I told D that day and yesterday I told the girls of our class, they were furious because apparently D asked half of the class out! We decided that we're gonna diss him out on Sunday.

2- My best friend is really upset and I can't do anything to make her feel better.

3- My room needs to be burned down, I hate it so damn much.

4- My heart needs to learn to stop the irregular beats whenever I think of 'him' I need to get over him.

Long post is long xD

I argued with somebody from approximately 8pm last night until 1.45am. It wasn't one of those furious, shouting, rage-filled arguments, because of course we couldn't have argued for six hours like that, it was one of those 'pretending we're calm and having an adult conversation' arguments, even though we were just going around in circles and making each other angrier and more upset, and I just felt hurt and frustrated. I think everyone else thought we were having a 'play argument'. I still feel no wiser, and to be honest, I understand even less now, but I suppose I do feel a little better, although only because I said my piece and said things to hurt the other person because I was so hurt myself and wanted them to feel as bad as I did, which was completely selfish of me.

I feel like such a fool. I think I might have lost a really good friend and I just feel horrible.

A week ago I had the biggest scare of my life when my little sister tried to kill herself. She's been diagnosed with Borderline Personality Disorder and Schizoaffective disorder, and leaving her in a psychiatric hospital was the hardest thing my family had to do. When I talked to her she just poured out everything that's been going on in her life, I'm not mad at her, I'm upset with myself, I thought she could tell me or any of us anything. I'm honestly thinking of taking the rest of the school year off and just staying in Oregon with her and my dad and his family for awhile.

Examing my fingers and CHECKING to make sure I have ALL the appropiate one(s) in place, JUST IN CASE!!! UGH!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hannah, I can agree with you. Nowadays the whole class turned so two-faced and idiot and rude and so on... Because of a certain case... They do so horrible things to each other... :/ I'm glad I don't belong to this group. Unfortunately I belong to the class but I know what is the reality and I don't follow the majority...

It's my own experience, but never belong to the majority! Mostly the majority is just following something bad, or something they don't even know about... Just the dead and ill fish are the ones who are swimming with the flow.

Oh, the moment you realize that you've been doing something in a ridiculously convoluted way for years, and instantly think of how much time you wasted in doing it that way. :/

Also, unrelated vent: the imperial system of measurement is idiotic. Spending 10 minutes trying to convert miles into inches when I could reduce the entire affair to scientific notation and be done with it in 3 minutes in metric!

Staring at a picture...I know its gonna blink! IT HAS TO BLINK!

I just got home from a short, 3 and a half hour, lunch shift at work that really knocked me for six. Carrying a tray of empty glasses was almost too much for me, normally that's easy-peasy. All I know right now is my headache is horrible and I am sooooo tired.

UGH, ugh, UGGHHHHH!!!! 108 profile views today, I mean come on guys what's the real deal with the profile visits. I know I SAID I would not mention it again, BUT GEEZ CHEEZE WHIZ this is REALLY AND MAJORLY STUPID. I think maybe just maybe it is time that I close my MTS2 ACCOUNT! I mean if I'm not allowed to have fun with a simple SIMS 2 game then what’s the FREAKING USE of trying to have fun on a Simmie BOARD. So in short, if that was, or shall I say is, your reasoning for continual visting my page then (UGH)...you are really coming across as someone who cannot help but stalk me, hoping to bring me into some type of FREAKISH submission, AND all I can say is “how sad”, YEAH REALLY SAD. Therefore, if all of this continues, I will close it (It meaning my MTS2 page), and to those that will rejoice in the matter, all I can say is, YOU FINALLY GOT WHAT YOU WANTED! Not funny at all, NOT FUNNY AT ALL!

Also to the Moderators and Administrators, why aren’t there any trackers for our own profile page, I mean a simple who is who would help, especially for those of us that are being continuously harassed by people we never harmed or caused damage to, I mean GEEZ!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Pardon me, but how exactly is someone, or in this case 108 someone's, viewing your public profile classed as harassment? According to my own MTS profile, I have had 197 people 'harass' me today alone (!) and over 10,000 now in total.

Harassment is defined as behaviour of an offensive nature. This is generally repetitive and aimed at hurting or humiliating another person. I fail to see how people viewing your MTS profile can be deemed as offensive behaviour and both humiliating & hurtful to your person or mind.

Also, using capslock unnecessarily is deemed as shouting in the internet world and thus is not likely to be appreciated by people reading what you are trying to say. I mean, if you were upset with something or someone in real life you wouldn't stand in front of them and shouted what your problem was and expect them to react well, would you?

I'm sure all the ladies in this forum would be more than willing to try and rectify any problem you feel you have, if you brought it up in a calm, rational manner. Oui?




My vent today is not really a vent but it's suitable to post it here . . . A lady I've worked with for the last 6 weeks died yesterday. She had a heart attack while driving and crashed her car in to a lamp post right near my house. I heard the accident, and then the fire sirens sounding as they called fire fighters to help her. It's so sad, she was only in her 40's and such a wonderful, happy person. I am going to miss working with her so much. R.I.P Ginny

You two both just used words my brain ca't understand..so in stupider terms what?

Why, oh why, do I have to get sick before my bloody monthly exams? I am so exhausted. D:

The only thing bothering me is that I probably won't be able to go to school tomorrow, thus, not giving my best friend her birthday gift on time(she thinks I haven't bought her anything so far).

It's the internet. Everyone just calm down and watch cat videos on YouTube or something.

This is bugging the hell out of me.. My best friend just texted me saying "he's gone :'(" I asked who and she tells me "Leo" who's this kid she met online (who I think is a complete douchebag and a liar). apparently she went to the movies with him last night and now he's "dissappeared" and then apparently he committed suicide. I have never believed anything that came outta this kids mouth so I feel that he's being a complete bastard and playing a cruel, nasty trick on my friend. The facebook page of his 'cousin' that he always used to talk to her has suddenly dissappeared and his profile picture on IMVU has somehow been changed to a r.i.p one, funny, when the only person who knew your password was my friend and she doesn't have access to the internet at the moment. I HATE people who mess with people I love. How could you be so cruel?

Reinstalling Sims and a little glitchy. The lots kind of "blink", it's annoying. Maybe it'll fix after I finish updating it. Haven't played for some months...

I have a biology test tomorrow and I left my biology books in my locker. D: Why!

Tomorrow is my last day of classes. Ugh, mixed feelings.

The speech part of my brain is not functioning properly today.

Can Friday just come faster? I feel like this week is dragging. And I feel tired. All the time. Not fun, man. Not fun at all.

People are so annoying and they should just stop.

This is going to make me sound way cooler than I am and make my life sound way more exciting than it actually is, but hey. So I have this friend, let's call him Bob, and last night we went for a drink in this pub in the city. We ended up going on to a bar and then about three other pubs, which was all fine. Instead of having to get an early train home he said I could crash at his place. I'll admit, I was a little reluctant because we're not great friends, but other friends have stayed over at his before and it was way more convenient than going home, especially as it was getting pretty late, plus he's ten years older than me and knows that I'm not available. About 3am we got back to his and as he has four housemates we went to his room and he put his TV on to some crappy gameshow. I was so engrossed in the gameshow that I didn't notice him getting undressed down to a t-shirt and boxers. (I feel seriously weirded out just thinking about the whole thing right now.) He then spent the next hour trying to convince me to get into bed with him, and I just kept on saying that I was fine in the chair. I did not sleep last night, and by 6am when it was starting to get light I was desperate to leave, only I had no idea where the station was so I had to wait for him to wake up. When he did wake up he basically started on the same subject again and was trying to persuade me to stay, but I was adamant that I was leaving. I'd spent the whole previous evening continuously bringing up the boy that he knows I pretty much adore, let's call him Tom, whenever he tried to get me into bed and eventually this morning he said bitterly, "Blah blah blah, Tom Tom Tom, that's all you talk about." Well yeah, because I wanted to remind him that there was no way that he and I would ever, ever happen and bringing up Tom was the only way to make him shut up.

Just...ew ew ew. I feel so icky about the whole thing.

Whiny classmates make me want to throw bricks at people's heads.

Too much homework and so little time. I should be studying Arabic but I am studying history instead because of all the bloody homework I have.

Sometimes(read: always) I hate being a student, so much.

Dumb vent, but I've been invited to four parties in one weekend. Ack.

I kind of missed a chance with a boy tonight because I was feeling too antisocial to carry out a conversation with four acquaintances alone.

I just caught myself doing absolutely nothing but listening to music.

Must. Not. Waste. Break. *facepalm*

Waiting for my first upload to be accepted...

Minor, but, some out-loud rants of mine, directed at my Sims:

"You want another kid? You just had four!"

"Oh god, I'm going to have four toddlers walking around..."

My best-friend is an idiot. Only, I can't tell her that because she'll just get more snotty at me. Perhaps I should anyway, no skin off my nose!

'Bob' sent me an email and I really wish he hadn't. It starts with "I hope I’m not in the bad books with your Dad for taking his lovely daughter out." As if I told my father what happened...if I had then he wouldn't be in his bad books, he'd be dead. After asking me if I'm free on Wednesday, it ends with "So when is our next night out going to be then?" However the worst part is that he's gone to the trouble of looking up articles for me for the assignment I just finished. I know I should think it's sweet and be grateful, but I just feel bad.

Ok, I officially hate you for taking over my mind the past few months, and I am sorry you don't think I am good friend material, because I thought you were excellent in that category.

Guess I was wrong.

I had a mental breakdown in gym today. I tried to call my mom to come and get me, but she was really busy. So, I had to stay in school for the next few hours unable to fully concentrate and nearly falling asleep in World History. And while taking an English test which I know I failed.

Funny thing is, last night I was telling my mom that something in my brain would just snap really soon. Who knew that it would be today, huh?

I feel like things get more and more complicated everyday. I wish I could fix everything, but if I fix one thing another thing gets screwed up instead. I don't even know anymore. People expect too much, including me.

Tendonosis sucks. It has ruined my past six months, and I know perfectly well I'll never fully regain the function I used to have in my hand. The doctor said that I had plenty of "muscle mass" still. I don't. My left hand is weak like never before. Oh yeah, and all of this is because my ligaments and tendons are too loose, which also explains my flat feet, "crunchy" other wrist, and the three years of my life I spent trying to rehab my ruined knees. You can't make these tissues less loose, there's literally nothing I can do to really address the root cause.

I am not even particularly confident in my physio's treatment plan, but it's better than going it alone right now. I just want all my fucking joints to work right, but it seems my lot in life is for constant struggles with these sorts of problems.

I have given up trying to do anything taxing with my knees. I lost gymnastics, the only sport I ever loved, I do NOT want to lose my music too.

My mother is putting a new kitchen over my university education. Loving life, etc.

Stupid spots knock my confidence. :/

I feel so let down by just about everyone in my life right now. Even the few people who I don't feel let down by, I feel as if I've let them down right now. I just feel so lost...nobody is who I thought they were and I just feel like this has happened one time too many right now. I assume I just have to give everything time, but I don't want to. Giving things time means wasting parts of your life being hurt.

Minor and Sims-related.

I FORGOT THE STUPID NECTAR BOOKS.

I want a twitter...I need a twitter...TWITTER...

I feel like there's a huge hole inside of me. I can't even think straight.

Life really knows how to kick you when you're down, doesn't it? The past month has just been...unbelievable.

I've been fighting with my mother non-stop lately. I really hate fighting with her, and I try not to, but when she starts yelling and whatnot, I have to yell back... It's just a thing.

I'm so overemotional about everything today. I had to fight of tears in the middle of a shop because I made a typo in the text I was sending to my friend and just then I got overwhelmingly upset because my lunch didn't taste as good as I thought it would.

This day is awful and I'm feeling so lonely.

My uncle has leukemia and bone cancer. Two months ago, he was perfectly healthy. It doesn't make any sense and it's driving me insane. :I

Minor, but why must good anime concepts be ruined by boobs?

I have kind of a deep and husky voice. Think Miley Cyrus or Aj Michalka. Went to Wholes Food with my roomie and these group of girls were mocking me. My roomie wouldn't let me confront them, but I passed them on the way to my car and yelled, "TALK SHIT GET HIT." They turned around, but didn't do anything.

Deep voiced girls get made fun of a lot, but let the records show, I'm not a force to be reckoned with. *flips hair*

I just got hired and my boss told me I'll start on April 23rd. My mum then proceeded to tell me that she's moved our holiday to Melbourne to start on April 30th. I'm going into work to fill out some forms today and I have to break the news to them that I'll only be able to work for a week before I go away but I'm so nervous about losing this job asdlkfj

^ You might have to rethink the holiday if you want to make a really good impression with your new employers. The first few weeks are crucial for making the impression that will last throughout your employment with them. There's always plenty of time to go away for a break but only the one chance to show your boss just what ya have to offer. I hope the new job goes well, btw

^That's the thing, there isn't plenty of time to go away. Our accomodation is booked and very competitive to get into, and this is a trip for me to look at places to live when I move next year. This two week period is literally the only time my mother can get off work because her job is so demanding. It's just an absolute nightmare. I'm going into talk to my boss about it in an hour or so, fingers crossed!

ETA: My boss is the sweetest person in the world and she is totally okay with me going away which is a huge weight off my shoulders :3

I'm really torn between cutting somebody out of my life completely or holding onto them. If I cut them out then I'm likely never going to see them again after May and I sort of hate that thought, but on the other hand I'm not going to be the person making all the effort only for them to effectively throw it back in my face. At least by giving up I won't have to be worrying and thinking about them all the time, and I'm really not sure they deserve my friendship after everything anyway. Ugh, I just want to say, "Screw you" to them and walk away.

I've been sitting here waiting for my phone to crap out for hours, because I set a coke down for five seconds next to it and accidentally hit it because I got flustered over something. Ugh.
You'd think a touchscreen floating among a puddle of coke would annihilate it.
...Then again, a friend with the same phone model claims hers was run over by a car and still worked perfectly. Dunno if I really believe that, but those are some big friggin' cracks in her screen either way.

I'm nearly crying because I've got a job interview tomorrow and my social anxiety is kicking in.

That thing when your ex gets a new girlfriend... despite the fact that I'm 100% over my ex and I'm now dating someone with whom I'm far happier, it still makes me equal parts happy that he's happy and a little upset that he moved on. Does that make me a terrible person?

People getting their panties in a knot because game characters are being called omnipotent.

Oi. Flame me if you will, but just... oi. It's a game. Who cares?

Doesn't make Adele a terrible person and she wrote a song about it.

As of today my monthly is two weeks lake, which isn't worrying me a great deal, but I've had cramps and PMS and shit for two and a half weeks now. Ugh.

asaegfasgwa, why is the people you want to like you never do and the people you really don't want to show interest in you as anything more than a friend do? That guy, 'Bob', from a few weeks ago already asked me last week if I want to go to this club with him on Friday, and I declined, telling him I had early plans on Saturday (not a lie), and now he's just asked again, reminding me that he's friends with the owner and can get us on the guestlist. It's 1:53am here. I know I just sent him an email, but it wasn't just to him, it was to six other people and it was only to share some notes anyway. Part of me thinks I only have myself to blame, but then I recall the fact that he knows full well that I like someone else and further to that, he is actually friends with the person I like. Why does he have to makes things so awkward? Everything is such a mess at the moment.

Wouldn't the world be a great place if we all liked the people who liked us and vice versa? Everything would be so lovely and nobody would be hurt.

Why am I a gullible person?

Fark.

Two hours of sleep and a lot of alcohol and I'm still hungover at 6:30PM. Fuck.

Some chick who's just a few months older than me has her profile picture set as her in nothing but a bra. Nothing on the bottom. And literally every single status has sexual references in them.

And people question why I hate my generation...

Trivial vent, but wow, my father's capitalisation is all over the place. No matter how many times I try and teach him that, no, jewellery/butterfly/eggplant/clip/unicorn/etc do not need capitals in the middle of a sentence, he will not learn. It irritates me to no end.

What does PMS feel like to you girls? It's that time of the month again, and I'm having the worst episode ever. My boobs are tender, I feel bloated, heavier and sluggish. I've been tired all day and sometimes I have a mild acne break out (well this is one of those times) and my skin is blotchy. I feel yucky, my body feels fat and I'm exhausted, not to mention taciturn and quick tempered. I'm asking because my ass of a boyfriend doesn't understand that when you're PMSing you don't want to be bothered. I explained all of this to him, yet he insisted on dragging me out of bed and out with his childish and annoying friends. Which led to us getting in a ridiculously uncalled for argument a few hours ago. I told him he only wants to do things when it's convenient to him, he told me to call him when I was done acting like a psychotic bitch.

Needless to say, he won't be getting a call from me this week, next week or the week after that.

^ I never get affected with moods, never have either. So if I'm angry at you then you've bloody done something to piss me off! Otherwise, I just get sore boobs. When Aunt Irma (/Flo / The Painters) actually arrives then I get horrible cramps for the first day or two and get really exhausted. Like today - gaaaaaahhh so painful!

First two days are the worst, when I get cramps I could have sex with Midol if I could. It's never come like this for me though (PMS), which I was thinking was odd. It's like 1,000 pounds of PMS just crashed on top of my head. Luckily my "monthly" is due around these next couple of days. And why the hell am I up at 1 in the morning?

Facebook should really stop making it so hard to untag yourself in photos and such things. I really don't want to have ugly ass pictures of me as a tween all over my profile.

You're lucky you can take Midol, lol, I'm allergic Periods can go suck an egg!


I'm crying for the loss of my best friend. She's decided that she doesn't want anything to do with me now so what am I to do.

So thankful for my fiancé right now, he just sang "You're my best friend" by Queen to me and told me not to worry about anyone but myself and focus on being happy again. I love him

I am unusually tired these days, I just had over 12 hours of sleep yet I am completely exhausted! And I haven't opened a book since Wednesday, which is not good at all, but I can't bring myself to study. Especially during the day. :/


Edit: I am addicted to Angry Birds. What have I become?

For the past two days I've woken up feeling so incredibly nauseas and no matter how much sleep I get, I never feel properly awake. Blergh, and I have such a busy week ahead of me, too!

Spring Break is over. I do not want to go back to school tomorrow.

I'm not often homesick-- I miss my family when I'm away at college, but I wouldn't describe it as homesick. One of our favorite family traditions is to sit on the screen porch and enjoy coffee in the evenings, and tonight, I Skyped my family while they experienced the first night of the season nice enough to sit on the porch. It wasn't just my parents, either-- it was my parents, my brother, my sister, my brother-in-law, and my sister and brother-in-law's dog. Like I said, I don't get homesick often, but tonight, I really wished I was there in person.

I procrastinate WAY too much lately. I should stop and start doing something productive. Eh, maybe later.

Had to hitch a ride to campus today, my car has decided to call in sick and won't start. I have to wait for my step-dad to come and check it out. I've been stuck at my apartment since I left school... I'm bored out of my mind. I can never sit still for a long time.

Also, I'm suppose to be going apartment hunting with my bestfriend and my mom in Santa Barbara this summer, I'm so not ready to hear my sisters complaints. Get a real job, go back to school and stop being so bitter.

Well I be A Freak-a-zoid!!! I don't gives a goodie, GOODIE goodie GOODIE GOT DANG_NABITT...PRICK....MOTHER Freak-A-Licorice STICK!

Dear people on Facebook,

This Is Not How You Type Out Every Word In A Sentence. Do You People Pay Attention In School Or Not? Learn Proper Capitalization, You Idiots.

Sometimes I look back on mid-July of 2011 and just shudder.

Worst 4 days of my life.

I bought some new jogging pants today to celebrate getting the cast off (I really know how to party) and I was really looking forward to a run this evening, minus the deadweight on my left arm, but it is pouring with rain and has been on and off all day so I guess I won't be able to go today after all.

One of my mom's close friends from her childhood has always been a part of my life-- for as long as I can remember, she and her husband have come to our house a few times a year for dinner, and she always sends me a birthday card. She's somewhat like an aunt to me. She's never had a history of heart problems, but my mom told me that she had a heart attack last night and died. I don't know why, but I sat down and cried when my mom texted me. It's not that I had a particularly close relationship with this woman-- I think it's that she's been around all my life and now she suddenly isn't. Not to mention that the idea of what her husband went through is horrifying to me-- he took her to the hospital with minimal chest pains, only for her to be whisked away into the operating room and him never to see her again. It's been a rough year for my family-- first our grandmother passed away, then our dog, and this isn't the first of our family friends to pass away. I just feel like everybody is dying, and I'm tired of it.

Had an awful day and I just want to cry but I can't.

Sick, tired, didn't study anything, didn't study anything properly since the start of the year, my exams are in less than two weeks and I still can't stop procrastinating.

Screw you internet!(you too Aunt Flowe).

I have a dozen things I could be doing and no motivation to do any of them.

Bleh.

My mom got very, very sick when I was nine. At this time, my parents were separated, my dad living in California while my brother, mom and I were in Indiana. My dad refused to come home, but he paid the bills. My older brother was too busy drinking and doing drugs. I was suddenly loaded with the responsibilities of taking care of my mom, so weak and sick she couldn't even go to the bathroom or feed herself, and taking care of our four bedroom, four bathroom house that has two dining rooms, a library and 11 acres of grass and woods. I was waking up at 5am to care for my mom before I got ready for school. Went to school, walked 3 miles to my house at lunch to feed my mom then walk back. My brother drove me to and from school, when I got home I did housework and homework, then made dinner. I helped my mom use the bathroom, bathe, dress, give her shots and medicine. Then the rest of the housework. Around 10:30pm, my brother would be home, drunk or high. I had to make sure he got to bed unharmed, then I would go to bed. Start all over again. My brother refused to help, and soon he got his girlfriend pregnant.

Then I had everything I had before, AND a newborn to care for. His girlfriend didn't want the kid, my brother didn't know what to do, so I was pretty much raising my niece too. I was thirteen when she was born, and I ended up skipping school a LOT in order to care for her because I couldn't find anybody to care for her while I went to school. People were cruel to me because they thought I was her mother, calling me a little whore and slut for being an unwed teenage mom, when in reality I was the girl's virgin aunt. I nearly flunked that year because I was so busy taking care of my mom, my niece and the house on top of making sure my brother wasn't drinking or overdosing on drugs. I finally snapped and said, during his senior year, that he was going to get clean and if he didn't, I was giving his baby away to social services. He finally got clean in time for his graduation.

Finally, my brother graduated. That summer, my mom slowly began to get better.

To this day, my mom constantly tells family, friends and everybody about how my BROTHER took great care of the house and held the family together while she was sick. She claims I'm a liar when I told her otherwise and my brother was just saying I did it all so that I wouldn't look like a useless sack of shit.

People can be such asswipes.

I went to the library today to study and as I was walking to the station to go home I ran into a friend unexpectedly. Perhaps I'm being paranoid, but she seemed really off with me. I got the impression she couldn't get away quickly enough. It was just completely out of character for her. I probably am just being paranoid.

So my DS Lite (yeah yeah, it's a dinosaur) is one step closer to being dead. The right hinge has a gap in it, making it halt and creak when I open and close it. My dad tried to fix it but couldn't really tell what was wrong. I'm not surprised it broke. I dropped it six feet to tile a couple years ago, breaking the spring in the on/off switch, and now it's done this. It's almost 5 years old, too. I got it just past release date as a replacement for a broken release date one.

Well, time for a 3DS! Almost.

I filmed an interview today and all of the sound came out static-y, so it's essentially useless. Motherfucker.

I got an email from Bob on Monday, which I admit I ignored, just as I ignored the one he sent before that. Today he sent me another one, first querying where my facebook profile has gone (I deleted it a month or so ago) and then going on to ask whether I was coming to a group revision session some people had planned on Tuesday or "if for any reason you are planning on avoiding" it, and whether I wanted to go for drinks on Monday evening. I hate everything about that stupid email. No, I do not want to go for drinks, just like I didn't want to go the last two times he asked, and I hate what he's implying with the comment about "if for any reason" I'm planning on missing the revision session. Why doesn't he just come out and say what he obviously means there? I know exactly what "reason" he's thinking of and it's none of his business. Not to mention everything he's said recently in relation to that has been insulting.

I hate people sometimes. Being alone is so much better most of the time.

I can't go out and have fun because my weekend is occupied with private lessons. I feel choked up.

Have I ever said how much I hate people? Well, that hate has been intensified tenfold.

So not in the mood for today. I just want to go home and be left alone.

I've probably made this vent 5+ times on here but I'm so sick of people's inability to be punctual.

I feel so tired and confused. And I don't remember leaving my hair looking like a bird's nest...

I hate when people are irritated and in a bad mood with somebody else, but they take it out on you because you're there and the other person isn't.

I'm kinda tired to be the only one who arrives at the exact time when we decided to meet. I hate how I have to wait 15 minutes for them to come and I'll make them wait half an hour for me next time, 'cause I've been the good (and stupid) friend for too long now.

IT'S TOO DAMN HOT.

...You know the worst part? ...It's not even summer yet.