...I don't understand how people can make self-sims.
Especially if they give them the same exact name as themselves. I can handle the self sims themselves, but it feels way too weird having a sim with your name in the simiverse.
And people who make self-sims and then go around saying "LOLOMG I TOTALLY <DID THIS>" or "AHMAHGAH U GUISE I'M GETTING MARRIED." peeve the shizz out of me.
It is a sim who is made to look like you doing that. Not you.
I mean, it's funny if they do it once as a joke, but when you sit there constantly saying stuff like that I want to punch you in the spleen.

I had a ridiculous argument with a friend yesterday and it ended with them walking away and me being so angry at the walking away that all I could so was shout, "Screw you" after them. So pathetic and childish, is that the best I could come up with?

I feel like I've lost a ton of friendships and I don't know why.

Mum had a breakdown and is now hurling insults at me like anything. Last time this happened just before she drove me to school, she tried to crash the car into a channel. She only stopped when Matthew screamed, because the only person she gives a shit about when she's like this is her perfect little son Matt. Aaaaand he isn't going to school at the moment. Fucking. Yay.
I swear, the mental health system in Australia is pathetic. A student skips school for 6 weeks, tries to kill his family, refuses to go to a counsellor, and they still won't report him to the truancy office. Ugh.

I thought my extra stress would go away as soon as we heard about the house, but if anything it's gotten worse.

Fark. Park. Dark. Lark. Bark.

I don't know.

8 Days to go and my colds finally hit me so now I can't even taste my food. Yay.

A guy I went to school with died today, he was only 21. I've never really spoken to him but I'm really close to his cousins, and I can't believe this happened, I have actually no idea what to do with this information.

I have this friend that wants to do nothing but fucking complain. Complain about how she doesn't feel good, how she feels like she's possessed by spirits and feels ill, but when I offer to take her to a doctor, she refuses. I am 100% positive she's BULLSHITTING because she wants attention. She never asks how I am, if I'm doing okay and basically bitches at me for not spending a bunch of time with her even though I spend almost every fucking day with her. She wants me to tell her what to do, then blow off my advice. I feel like her mother because she's expecting and basically demanding that I do act like her mother.

I raised my oldest niece and nephew for the first two years. I had to care for my mother as if she were a child because she was too sick to care for herself. My dad expected me to cook, do housework and yardwork as if I was my mother when she was sick. I'm DONE playing mother. A good chunk of my childhood and the first three years of my teenhood were taken because I was too busy playing mother. I want to be a regular teen, I want to be able to go out and have fun when I want. I'm TIRED of playing mother, I don't have kids. I am a childless, seventeen going on eighteen year old girl. My senior year is coming up. I want to actually enjoy it without having to play mother to anybody.

There are 3 things happening within a week of each other at the end of June that I want to go to. Vidcon, Anime Expo, and the Ordinary Tour (if you know what the last one is, you get a cookie). The only problem? We can't afford it, since we're moving and all. As far as I know, the Ordinary Tour is a one-time thing so that'll be a huge missed chance, but at least the other two will be happening next year...

/whiny rant

I had a really good time with my friends last night, but I did kind of feel like the third wheel. There were three of them, their three boyfriends and...me.

I woke up and there was a spider on my ceiling. I'm seriously afraid of spiders...

The wait to the 31st is agonizing. I just want this house to be ours!

My friend that always complains is threatening suicide. I feel horrible because I can't bring myself to really care. She bothers me so much all the time, she never appreciates what I do, and she's never followed through with her actions, but I'm afraid this will be the one time she does. I offered to help her, and I called/told her parents and siblings. I've done all I can really do.

Estimated Shift Time: 4:00PM - 7:00PM
Actual Shift Time: 4:00PM - 10:00PM, no break

Tomorrow's Estimated Shift Time: 7:00AM - 9:00AM
Tomorrow's Actual Shift Time: 7:00AM - ??:??

I despise stocktake so much.

God dang it, it's way too cold for this month here. Currently, it's 19 °C and it'll stay like this for who knows how long. First, it was hot as hell and now this? Make up your mind, nature!

School is over for me, and my best friend is going to a boarding school.

Super happy I'm out of school (except exams), but not so much that I'll never go to school with her again.

Speaking of exams I'm probably gonna fail because I'm not studying.

The only downside of having long hair is washing it. It's such a long and tiresome process, my back hurts so badly after doing it. And then the drying, oh, sweet lord, the drying! I just want a robot who'd do it for me.

My father is the most disgusting man on the face of the planet. Is it bad that I despise him entirely? He just... stares at me and I feel really uncomfortable. Like, really uncomfortable and I want to throw up. I don't want to be in the same room as him ever. He's also extremely racist which makes me want to hurl him into a wall.

I just don't even feel comfortable in my own goddamn house anymore.

New day, new vent.

My cat bit my hand. He's a hormonal mess; one minute, he's purring. Next minute, he's got my hand in his mouth. He didn't draw blood, but it's oddly colored where he bit me and it hurts like hell. This is the reason why I like dogs more than cats.

OK seriously, the 'justice' system in New Zealand is nothing more than a JOKE.
The wankers have delayed the trial that I am a witness in YET AGAIN.
I gave my video evidence TWO YEARS AGO. The trial was first set for the 23rd of October last year, then the 23rd of January, then the 18th of next month and now lord knows when it will happen, IF it will happen. I have so little faith in the system after going through all of this. This is beyond ridiculous! You are ruining my life!

If he broke the skin or it's still hurting then you should go to hospital. Cats' mouths have a lot of bacteria and apparently their bites have a 50% chance of getting infected, a much higher chance than dog bites. It can be really serious but people don't realize because cats don't bite as often as dogs so there's not as much publicity over it. (Interestingly apparently human mouths have even more bacteria than a cat's...I was kind of grossed out when I first read about that...never wanted to kiss anyone again.)

I am having difficulty stopping myself from having a very stern word to (read: screaming my head off at) my brother. I don't care if it's not my job to parent, I'm the only one in this family who seems to be able to see what a selfish c-nt he is being. Everyone keeps thinking he'll suddenly change, even after he's proven a hundred times that he won't.
Oh, and now he's started coming into my room and screaming about how ugly/stupid/useless I am at random intervals to try and piss me off. He just had to start this the week before exams, didn't he?!

Vent #1: I can't find the stupid text I have to read for my class tonight, so not in the mood for the verbal abuse I'll be getting for it.

Vent#2: I haven't slept properly in three or four days, tonight I have to stay up late to write an essay, tomorrow night I'm taking the train home where I've got a really busy weekend ahead. I really need a vacation, but I have to be back on Monday. When am I going to sleep?

I was walking in our garden earlier, along this bit of grass down the side of the greenhouse where nobody really walks that often, when I fell into a hole that had been covered up and hidden with some cut grass. Obviously it wasn't a huge hole, that would take skill and effort beyond most people's hole-digging, trap setting abilities, but it was foot sized. As I struggled to wrench my foot free, I though 'What total idiot would do something like this?' Then it occurred to me that the only person with the motivation and utter lack of common sense to do something that stupid and pointless is my brother. He has an exam tomorrow and this is the best thing he can find to do with his time?

I have so many assignments for college, I feel like I'm losing weight while doing them. Also, finals are coming. FML.

My AP classes are already stressing me out. And the school year hasn't even started yet. I have a three inch high stack of homework papers that I have to do for just ONE of the five AP classes I'm taking. I seriously want to drop them (I had only wanted to take one or two) but my mom won't let me. This is going to be my senior year of high school, I fear I'm going to be too deep in seniorits to do well...I also want to be able to kick back and relax a lot too.

Both my dad and I completely forgot about my doctor's appointment until an hour after.

Crap.

I've got so many issues which made me stress out. Now my period is a few days late. Maybe I should quit my job..

I have to go to the doctor tomorrow to talk about what treatment I'm going to take for my cancer. So nervous, my chances of surviving are high, but cancer is still a scary word.

A TV show I wanted to watch was about to start and I'd gotten up especially to watch it ( it wasn't super early or anything, but I woke up and decided that rather than getting another hour's sleep I'd get up instead), when my father comes into the room and puts the radio on full blast. I missed the entire show. He is always doing things like that. Usually he walks into the room, just picks up the remote and changes the channel and I have to say, "Uh, excuse me, I was watching that," but today he actually moved from another room where he had been listening to the radio into the one where I was to put on that radio instead. WHY? I know it's pretty trivial, but WHY would somebody do that?

It's so humid, I am melting D:

Also, couldn't sleep all night from the heat, so tired and no one's online for me to talk to, oh sure, when I am up, you sleep, and you call yourselves my friends!

My Indonesian teacher has decided the perfect time for a test which isn't even part of the usual curriculum is during exam week. Also, she's only given us 6 days notice. Gaaaaah. I could really do with a bullet to the brain right now.

There are some total maniacs on the roads. Where I live there are lots of narrow, winding country lanes, some of which are single track despite being two-way. It's not a good idea to hit 60 on some of these roads, even though technically that is the limit on some of them, because you have no idea if there's another vehicle right around the hedgerow that's blocking your view, or some sort of large animal like a deer which will do some serious damage to your car.

Today I was driving down a narrow road and there actually was a speed limit of 20, which I was doing. There was this total asshole behind me who kept hitting his horn and flashing his lights, including his hazard lights, and I was thinking 'F- you, I'm not going any faster just because you're an idiot,' and ignored him. It's just such an intimidating thing to do though, and so unbelieveably rude when a) I was going at the speed limit on a road that could potentially be dangerous and b) it was a pretty short road and we were coming up to a town, literally maybe about 100 feet down the road, so it was completely unnecessary for him to be getting to his destination any faster. I was actually tempted to slam on my brakes to teach him a lesson because he would have smashed into the back of me for following too close, but you know, I value my own safety. But then the stupid git tried to overtake me despite there being a bend coming right up which he could not have been able to see around unless he had x-ray vision and just as he started to overtake a 4x4 came around the corner towards him and he had to drop his speed right down and swerve back onto the right side of the road to prevent himself from crashing. Not that he learnt his lesson because a minute later he overtook me at an even stupider place to overtake, only this time he got lucky and there was nothing coming around the 90 degree corner. How a prat like that hasn't already had a serious accident, I don't know, but it's not him having an accident I care about (frankly the human race could do with a bit of thinning out in regards to people like that), it's the other people he's going to get into an accident with.

Webm, does anyone know how to get it to work as it is recking some of my yourude sessions by cuting off the sound compelete although it is in the video and shows when I move on to a different video. IT IS THERE BUT THE SOUND AND THE OPTIONS FOR IT ARE MISSING ON SOME VIDEOS. Does anyone else have this problem or heard of this? please let me know!

I want to live somewhere else, somewhere where it's not constantly hot and humid and the people actually use deodorant and shower and are clean and there are cute guys who aren't assholes and people who are friendly and nice and kind without being fakers and wankers and uuuuuuuugh!

Yea, the weather is having it's toll on me.

Also, I am bored, everyone's bored, there's nothing to do, the country is about to burst into flames and everything is just jolly!

I know the feeling (during summer, that is).

I feel abused, misused and just plain naive. He screwed me up, he did...he took over my life, my mind and my heart and doesn't give a shit about me. I could swear he's two faced, one day he's nice to me the other 364 days he's a total ass.

I can't take it anymore, this is just too much and I can't forget him, I cried myself to sleep yesterday...Get.Out.Of.My.Head!

I don't give a shit about swearing or whatever usually, and I've given up caring what he calls me, but it still feels wrong to always hear Thomas call mum a "stupid f-cking f-ggot b-tch c-nt".

I'm in a bad mood and I'm missing people that it's impossible to talk to.

OK, I don't get you, weather. You probably already know that, but I really don't get you. Now it's hot as hell, Wednesday it switches back to 20-21 grades Celsius. You are one weird fella.

ETA: Also, I hate it when I have my earphones in and people on the street, or anywhere really, start asking questions or generally talk to me. Hello, can't you see I can't hear you? Damn!

I miss my ex. I'm fine untill i come back to my hometown and its just full of memories and reminders of what we had and i can't stand it, when im away at uni im fine! I think a part of me will always love him and it kills me, i just want to move on now and be okay again.

So my humanities teacher said on Friday that if we emailed our practice exam stuff to her over the weekend, she'd reply before the exam. I emailed her Friday night - three days ago - no reply, and the exam is tomorrow. She hasn't even opened the email. -.-

I fucking hate PMS, I feel like I want to cuss at the top of my lungs for no proper reason. Oh, and I hate that douchebag of a guy I call my crush, sent him a message two days ago, he sees and he doesn't even think of replying or saying anything, well fuck you very much. I hate people who think they are the best of the best while they deserve nothing but a stick up their arse.

Screw love and all that crap, oh and periods, screw periods too.

Ugh, lately, I procrastinate so much, I even think I might fail the exams. Then, when I actually want to do something useful, the stupid voice in my head goes "Oh, Laura, don't worry, it's not that much, you can do it later, or tomorrow, or even better, NEVER!".

I pull the weirdest of muscles. Once it was one in my back, now it's one in my chest. It's nothing serious, but it's bugging me.

All I did was lift a bag onto my bed.. how the heck do you even lift with your chest in the first place?

I know this is going to make me sound whiny, but I really don't care.

Why are more people comforting a girl who got dumped when I am sitting here, scared shitless and terrified and openly cried (which I never do) because I have cancer. She got dumped. She's seriously getting more sympathy? So many people are crowding around her to assure her that she was too good for him to come over to me and at least give a hug to assure me that I'm going to live through this?

^ That's because most of Earth's population turned into idiots who don't see things that really matter. I am praying for you to get through it because my family has seen lots of cancer cases, but I assure you, cure is possible, keep your hopes up and don't care about those idiots, keep your head up.

As for me, my muscles are all aching from that power workout I did a couple of days ago, I can't move without screaming out in pain. Oh, and I discovered that 80% of the people I know are complete assholes, yay me!

That guy who made that horrible drunken attempt to get me into bed with him a while back has invited me to stay at his parents' house, telling me I can come anytime I like. Everything about the email inviting me makes my skin crawl. I feel really awful saying that but it's true. Why on earth would he want me to come to stay at his parents' house? I can't think of a more awkward weekend. We're not even particularly good friends. We barely know each other really, certainly not well enough to be stuck in each other's company for more than a few hours. I think the think that really made me not want to go was the bit at the end about google maps saying "I'm sure you can figure out where it is on the map by looking for the swimming pool – looks like a pond." He's tried showing me photographs of the house on his phone before - nothing is more off-putting and tedious than having somebody attempt to show off to you about something as stupid as a house (which isn't even his house to begin with). The only part of his showing off that I was remotely interested in was when he mentioned their library but as he then went on to say that he hasn't personally read the books in it and it's completely his father's thing, that interest rapidly waned. He said some of our other friends might be visiting at the end of June but I don't want to say I'll come then too in case he then tells me they aren't coming after all. That would be even worse because I couldn't back out then.

Also, this sounds like the premise for a really terrible horror movie...a large, isolated house at the end of a really long drive in the middle of nowhere with some guy I don't actually know anything of any importance about.

I hate Indonesian with a burning passion and it is a lot harder than it should be to drop out. Everyone else can leave it fine, but me? Yeah, my year level coordinator's response was "you're low on the priority for being able to leave because you can handle the VCE subject". Really? And you know that HOW? I -can't- friggin handle it, that's why I'm trying to get the eff OUT. Also why I'm so stressed I'm shaking and can't breathe properly (I swear, is that a normal symptom of anxiety? My doctor says it is, but still) because I am going to massively fail this test tomorrow. I don't want to waste a few hundred bucks on the books for the normal level class if I'm only going to be doing it for one semester anyway, so I need to get into International Issues, which uses the Humanities book I already own. There was no problem with numbers the last time people dropped out of Indo, and I know for a fact the classes aren't full, so why the hell is there suddenly issues now?
And then, she asked if my parents wanted me to stick with it, and I told her that no, Dad had specifically told me it was best for me to drop out completely. She didn't seem to believe me, of course. Gaaaah.

The Sims 3 posts the most idiotic things on Facebook. It should seriously stop.

My headphones are so big I look like a pilot and they make my ears so hot I can't even hear right anymore.

My brother is such a little brat sometimes. He's supposed to be applying for his university accommodation today but he's done absolutely nothing about it so my mother is getting stressed out about it and trying to sort it out while he just plays video games. I already spent about three hours with my mother the other day going through all the possible halls on campus that he could live in, listing the various costs, catered/self-catered, how many weeks the contract lasts etc. I actually think I put more time into that than I did when I picked out my own university accommodation and I know nobody did any of it for me. He barely has to do anything, he just has to look at the list I made and decide then apply online, but he won't even do that. As far as I'm concerned it's his problem if he hasn't got anywhere to live come September but apparently my mother doesn't see it that way. If he can't even be bothered to sort out accommodation for university then how is he going to attend classes and do assignments? And that's not taking into account the fact that he cannot cook, do his own laundry, clean a bathroom, vacuum... Jeez, just grow up, you're 18.

My ex-boyfriend, a friend and my best friend have basically started a huge contest/brawl over who gets me because I had to lie and say I don't know who I want between the three. Truth is, I know who I want to be with out of the three (there was no contest at all, didn't even need more than a few seconds to think), but I'm terrified to death of ruining their friendships with each other by telling them. They've all been great friends for years, and my dumping my ex put a huge strain on the relationships as it is. A girl is no reason to ruin a good friendship. I don't know if just picking none of them will ruin my OWN friendships with them.

I hate the fact that where I live is somewhat far from every single place I want to go to. I mean, I really want to sign up in a gym or club, I wanna go to my friends' place but I can't because getting a cab here takes forever and the people around here are...creepy to say the least.

I get so easily bored lately and I almost instantly run out of sites to visit (I keep refreshing MTS, Youtube, Facebook and 9GAG), games to play, things to read or write and I usually feel so bad that I do my assignments for college.

My child celebrity just got falsely accused of peeing herself in public.

Really, game? Really?

Don't get me started on the times Lenny Shutter has taken pictures of my Sim children...

My friend got into a fight with her dad yesterday so now we won't go to the movies together. Every single time I plan something with my friends it has to be canceled.

I envy the boys from our school so much, they go out on a near daily basis and us girls are just sat at home with nothing to do. Phoey.

Why is the weather so bad when it's June? Now I really don't want to leave the house because after 60mph winds and rain something tells me I'm not going to be looking great. What is even the point in planning anything here?

Edit: Last night I had a dream that a tree in my front garden fell down and now it just has in the wind. It's one of the trees I can see from my bedroom window too.

Okay, I thought I had the perfect living arrangement for next year since this one didn't really work out, but nothing can be that simple, right? I was going to live with two close friends, as we've been planning for quite a while now, but turns out that two other people that I don't know (friends of friend #2) want to live with us, too, and it's up to me to discuss it with friend #2. I'm just scared that if I say no (which I will), I'll piss everyone off. I just want this to work.

I wish I was more talkative. That I can open up topics easily and keep the conversation going without boring anyone with my blabbering, I want to be the center of someone's attention, I want someone to love me, just me, not who I am trying to be. I don't want to have to change who I am for someone, which I have been forced to do numerous times. It hurts, it really does.

And suddenly, I'm too scared to talk to my best friend. I. Friggin. Hate. Anxiety. *facedesk*

My best friend won't answer her phone. We had a pretty heated conversation on FB, I don't know if she wouldn't answer me because of it or not, but I haven't heard from her since.

Boys and how they fucking ruin everything.

If there's anything I hate about summer, it's mosquitos. I have 4 bites already and they itch like hell.

My friend complains so much all the time over the smallest things. I'm pretty sure people who've been shot complain less than she does. And I am literally the ONLY person she complains to.

I just found out than one of the major coffee shop chains in Australia, Gloria Jeans, which my family and I support because they do things well and Dad's friends with the local franchisees, donate thousands of dollars to the Australian Christian Lobby. the ACL are all kinds of extreme with their political activism and gay-bashing. It's disappointing that a good franchise supports them.

I've got mixed feelings about this whole end of the year thing, especially the moving part. While it'll be nice not seeing the landlady's horrible family ever again, I'm really going to miss the girls I live with. We'll all be moving out during the next three weeks and we've started saying our goodbyes and it's really kind of sad.

Bittersweet day. It's the last full day of school; although I'm not going to miss three teachers (Math, World History and English), I will be missing one. My Bio teacher aka the best teacher in the whole universe. I was seriously tearing up when the bell rang to leave. I stayed behind a few minutes and I told him that he better be my lunch monitor for next year and my Environmental Studies teacher in senior year. He said that he would really like to have me again and he said he'd miss me most of all. Out of everyone he had this year. This is the most emotional I've gotten since last year saying goodbye to my kick-ass History teacher and French teacher.

Dammit, I'm emotional. Damn you, period.

I think I'm starting to like Dubstep...

2 more days of school until Summer break. Hallelujah.

I was supposed to be getting this novella I wrote published next month in a literary magazine and it was to be in a set of four, with three other pieces written by my peers last year. I sent mine off months ago, as did two of the other girls, but the other girl is just so goddamn lazy. She won't even email her piece off and without it, we can't get them all published as they're all linked and the set would be incomplete without hers. I'm just so furious that she's going to waste this opportunity for the rest of us because she can't get off her lazy arse.

Games you might like:

Pot Farm

Gee, thanks, Facebook. Thanks.

EDIT: Oh, now it's recommending the page "Drinking" to me. What the heck, Facebook?

^ It was doing that to me too, a while ago. Facey's so rude.

My vent: I really need friends.

Oh, and my brothers are now up to 9 and 4 weeks of skipping school, and Dad and a paediatrician refuse to take any real action, they're just taking them to counsellors and shit. They don't need counselling, they need a wake up call. If that is available in the form of being run over by a monster truck, I'll be happy. Or a swift kick to the groin. Either way.

EDIT: I'm really starting to see why adults have no faith in our generation. I recently followed my cousin on Instagram. Every. Single. Day. She has posted pictures of all the alcohol she is supposedly drinking. Whether or not she's actually drinking it is debatable, one of her parents does know how to be a proper parent and I don't think she'd allow that, but even if she isn't, it's the fact that getting shitfaced every night is apparently cool or someshit? The popular girls in my school are the same, and even one of the girls I hang out with. Just... why is this freaking necessary? And why are they BRAGGING about it? I thought these were the people that joked about how '90s all the "YOU DON'T LOOK COOL DRINKING!" stuff in year 7 & 8 health was behind the teacher's back? They -are- those people, but apparently they're going and doing it now.
If I was braver I'd go and comment "omgggg, bragging about drinking to look cool is sooooo 90s" on all the photos, but I'm too intimidated by them to do it.

Today quickly spiraled from being a pretty damn good day to being a terrible day.

I can't seem to focus on History. Every time I do focus, I burst into tears because I barely know any of this crap. I have to know 62 pages of information. I'm doomed.

My head is splitting.

Gah. Damn heat.

I feel like such a bitch. I'm going out with that guy tomorrow and he's put so much effort into planning this date. He's found a vegetarian restaurant especially and this Welsh pub nearby, because I spend a lot of time in Wales with some of my family. It's all so sweet and ugh, I hate myself.

I am always such a good friend! I value my friends above everything else and i would drop anything for them, the amount of times ive listened to them moan about boys, or got calls in the middle of the night and taken them, or even gone to see them cos somethings happened and i still get treated like shit or forgotton about once theres a new boy involved! Pisses me off so much. And on the rare occasion i have troubles or wanna just talk endless shit about some boy or a situation, no one seems intrested or will listen!! I am tired of being pushed aside, all i want is someone to value me as much as i value them.

I want to just exist. Nothing more, nothing less.

I have deen told by teacher for getting annoyed with the sixth form for locking the computer I go on and what makes it worse that the only way to do it is rebooting them which takes all of breack for them to do!!! They are supposed to log off at break but they do'nt and the teachers do'nt care as the sicth formers are the messiah now at my school with them only being allowed to us the libary at lessons making no one have any lessons in the libary.

I have been stuck with babysitting my niece and nephew since Saturday because my brother and his wife had their triplets and are struggling to adjust. My mom is over there helping them, my dad's working, and I'm taking care of their other two kids while they settle in.

I don't mind it, but my nephew started TEETHING the day after I got him. NOTHING CALMED HIM DOWN! He wouldn't respond to the teething rings, cold rags, ice, a hard food (like a carrot), my finger or anything! He sobbed nonstop for nearly three days straight before he finally wore himself out and slept for a few hours. I love my niece and nephew, but I (sorry to say this, but it's true) hate my nephew because he's just such a fussy baby. His sister was much calmer and happier, while he is just a fussy little brat. (I'm almost more attached to said niece because I did raise her up until about the time he was born, then my brother finally started taking care of his own kids)

Edit: I finally solved his problem. He loves chewing on my dad's leather work boots. To hell with sanitary or whatever, I'm just glad he finally shut up. I was getting to the point where I fantasized about throwing him out the window.

Now that this year of college is over, I will have nothing to do in a couple of days. Gah, I hate college, but I hate not going to college too. I can't be pleased. -.-"

ETA: Also, I can't stop eating. Whenever I see something tasty, I eat it all. I'm getting plump. This is bad.

I feel horrible and bloated. I want to be skinny, damn it!

I want a scale.

Yes, I actually said that.

I just read the stupidest One Direction fan-written shit ever. No. Just... no. That's creepy. That's why restraining orders exist.
And that is why I can't stand obsessed fans of anything.

EDIT: Apparently my brother's counsellor told him that he doesn't have to do what Mum & Dad tell him or listen to anything they say. What. The. FUCK?!

The guy I've liked for two years got himself a girlfriend and she's the most ridiculous person ever, at least now I've got someone to be mad at, ahaha. Lovely day.

ETA: Thought about it and now it's clear that we were not meant to be - he doesn't like cats!

I know that being single is awesome and you don't get drama and all that, but I really want a boyfriend. I want midnight texts, notes in class and walks and...ugh.

I know that feeling. *pat pat*

Yesterday was so horribly awkward. There were so many backhanded compliments, like after him going way overboard with the complimenting and me graciously accepting:

Him: You're way out of my league...so what's the catch? What's wrong with you? Are you a maniac? Have you got committment issues?
Me: ..........................
Him: .........................
Me: ................homicidal tendencies.

And the countless times he called me 'Hun' or 'Cute'...everytime he said either of those words it was geuinely like somebody was stabbing my eardrums. The worst part of everything is that he thinks it was fantastic and now he wants to see me on Sunday.

I want to punch people in the face who count down every single effing day to their birthday, or a concert, or something else trivial like that. You're just making it feel longer, ffs.



...And that didn't make them want to find a new counselor? That's bullshit.
You are not a strong independant black woman. LISTEN TO YO MOMMA. |:<

^ The counsellors all believe Mum & Dad are trying to force the brothers to do ridiculous things or be a certain way or do sports or something like that. They're all "we want what's best for the child!!11!!". So no one listens to the parents, including the guy that organises the counselling and whatever, and we get barely any say in what they're being told or who they're seeing.

Related vent. We were going to go on a family holiday to either Cairns, Falls Creek or Uluru/Alice Springs, none of which we've been to before, in the upcoming school holidays, but we're not going. Because the brothers refuse to leave the house, or their rooms, and we have no one to make them stay with or anything. I'm never going to be able to go on a holiday again, at this rate, except for short trips to Melbourne with Mum. Which are only half a holiday, because I have to be the adult when I'm travelling with her when it comes to communication, and everyone looks at me like I'm being rude when I say anything for her.

This blog is making it hard for me not to think about the whole boyfriend thing I mentioned a couple of posts ago.

Brb, while I go sulk in a corner and cry.

I wish I hadn't clicked on that link now...I'm trying to decide what to do about things.

He is so perfect on paper. He has a good job and he's about to start an even better job, he has his own apartment (well shared with this other guy, but apparently he's never really there because he's at his girlfriend's). He told me he always carries a book with him (although I think we must have completely different tastes in literature because when he went to the bathroom I totally checked out his bookshelf). He is such a nice person, he was so complimentary and insisted on paying for dinner and drinks. Although he's not my type physically, he's not unattractive exactly. He's training to do a half-marathon. He spoke about how much he loves his baby niece.

There is nothing wrong with him whatsoever, apart from a few backhanded compliments and pet names that I can't stand, but I just don't like him in that way. I don't know why not, but I just don't. Something just is not there. Something is missing. I just know that I will never be in love with him, so what's the point in stringing him along? I can't help liking somebody else. I feel really ungrateful though.

We're moving in two days and I haven't finished packing my room.

Nor has the rest of the family finished packing anything.

And every time I try to help or pack my own things, I get completely overwhelmed and start freaking out. Hard.

AND the damn cash for keys person isn't responding to our calls. We can't move until we hear from them and all our stuff is being shut off in 5 days!

I've had two episodes today and it's only 1:15. I just.. just can't freaking gklsdjgklsgsg dhh hghh hogfj fdshfdf dsf sdfddf hddsjfls.

Damn it. Damn it damn it DAMN. IT. I NEED TO TALK TO SOMEONE.

I miss the ability to delete CC in-game.

My country's about to be taken over by loons hdfgdhkfga

I'm a regular blood donor and donate as soon as I possibly can following a previous donation. I last donated in January and was told I'd need to wait four months before I donated again, which meant I could donate again after the first week in May. In the past 6 weeks since becoming eligible to donate again I have had two text messages and seven letters from them. I haven't donated in the past six weeks because I haven't been near the donor center I normally go to and I cannot believe the amount of times they've sent me 'reminders' that I can donate, especially as they've never done this before. The amount of money they must have spent on sending all the letters and messages is such a waste. There are so many reasons why I might not have donated - I might be ill, I might be pregnant, I might be on some kind of medication, I might be out of the country. I understand that they always need blood but there's no need for the harassment!

^Zey vant your blood! But seriously though, vampire pun aside, that's pretty creepy.

I can't feel my legs and my skin is burning like a thousand suns and I want to jump into the fridge from all of this damn heat!

Just got my invitation for the third years' graduation ceremony. I can't believe that they are leaving already, they are some of the most interesting people I've ever met and I'm going to miss them so much.

I have mosquito bites all over my legs. And by all over, I mean ALL OVER! And I think I have one on my head. Best part is we don't have any sort of cream to stop the itch. >.<

I had a great day, up until 3:20pm. People are shit. Why can't anything go right?

Bleh.

Just... bleh.