Let's recapitulate how wonderful my day was today.

-Rain caught me while I was out with my friends.
-I didn't catch the bus on time, so I was late at my sister's.
-When I did catch it, it was full of old frustrated people and I had to stand.
-I was nearly run over by a car in front of my sister's.
-I lost like 10 euro in the bus.

Such a WONDERFUL Monday!

Why can't I have a normal day without headaches, backaches or internet slowness?

Ugh, I just want to install some Sim 3 hair. Is that so much to ask *kicks stupid computer*
It's been a relatively good, if a bit bland, day otherwise though.

My brother's attitude is so blasé, about everything. He's going to be applying to universities in September and he hasn't even started preparing. Yesterday my parents asked him if he had any ideas of where he wanted to go and what he wanted to do, so he just gave the names of completely random universities to them. In the end I made him a list of the universities' and their open days, then ordered him the prospectuses, because I know he isn't going to do it himself. I'm such an idiot for always picking up the slack for him, but I've been doing it for as long as I can remember. Last year he had an important history assignment due and he'd left it until the last minute when he realized he knew nothing about the New Deal, so like a fool I wrote him a draft with important points to include and gave it to him to write up, but in the end I practically wrote the whole thing because he kept asking me questions and how to phrase things. I also essentially did two entire art projects for him last year after he got a C on his first one because he left it too late, even though I hadn't done art for six years and ended up having to research the whole thing as well, while studying for my finals. It really bugs me how despite his indifferent attitude to everything he still seems to breeze through life. I keep trying to tell him that if this is his attitude to applying to universities then there's no point in actually going to university.

By the way, I realize it's entirely my fault for doing everything for him in the first place and that he'll never learn his lesson until I stop doing it, but he is my little brother and I don't want to see him fail.

^ I DO want to see my little brother fail. I hate him. I'm weird, but the only person I truly care about is my sister. :P

One of my online orders got screwed up so instead of the clothes I had purchased I get a refund ): Last night my boyfriend dislocated his finger pretty bad, we will probably have to go to the hospital. I woke up with a huge zit & I miss my friends & my family & I just want to sleep for a whole day.

Honestly? Aw, your wittle brother is dating my friend back home, but in turn to go with him she broke your BFF's heart? Suck it up, princess, you don't control their lives. Talk about showing your true colours, bitch! I always knew you were edgy around her but trying to control who SHE goes out with? No, nuh-uh, not gonna happen senorita. I want to fly over there to give you a slap upside the head.

It is hoooot. I've been sitting here doing absolutely nothing for two hours and I'm sweaty. I hate summer.

Well if I'm completely honest, while I don't want him to fail, I also don't want him to do better than me academically. Ever. I can't help it, it's just the way I feel.

I've eaten so many cookies today, and now I feel sick. I should have stopped three cookies ago.

Phoebe, I feel much the same way with my siblings (not the wanting them to fail thing but the picking up the slack thing). Are you the eldest? Because I am and I think that as a result I'm just more independent than they are and less likely to rely on other people for help with things I could do myself. My sister has been applying for universities to start this autumn and I sat down with her and looked at all the universities she's interested in to see what courses they do, what they campus and area is like, I went with her to open days, I helped her do her UCAS application, I helped her apply for student finance and accommodation, I answer any questions she has. I also helped my brother with his UCAS application (though he's not going to be starting until next year).

I don't mind doing it because I'm the only person in the family who has any idea about university stuff being the only one of us to have gone yet, but at the same time I sort of feel like perhaps I shouldn't because it's not helping them be independent. With my brother it's a little different because his ADHD means he has real trouble organising himself and needs that kick up the arse, which I'm pretty good at doing, but sometimes I think my sister automatically comes to me when if she just stopped and thought for five minutes she'd be able to sort it out herself.

I've managed to stay up late enough to exhaust myself to sleep, let's hope that I actually do that.

On another note, the mouthwash my dentist prescribed me tastes and burn like hell.

My friends are keeping something from me...
All day yesterday and today, they've been asking Kenny, "Did you ask yet?" and I asked who was asking who what, and they WOULDN'T TELL ME! I'm the only one who doesn't know, so I have a feeling I'm involved in it. There's a dance in 1 week, so maaaaaaaybe that has something to do with it...?
I just hate it when people KEEP things from me! It's happened countless amount of times. Don't like being subject of conversation!

One moment I feel on top of the world, the next I just want to curl up and die . . .

That moment when you're trying to find your brother's lighter in his cupboard but find his stash of condoms instead. Urk.

Feeling like a pretty lousy girlfriend atm. Talked Josh out of going to the emergency room last night when he thought he dislocated his knuckle - Turns out it was broken

My computer has been acting up for two days now, restarting itself without any warning and restarting while restarting, glitching the screen and lagging.
I scanned it, cleaned it up, threw away every thing that could damage it, I even threw out all my CC just in case, what the bloody hell is wrong with it?!

And this effin' headache won't go the hell away! Would someone be kind enough to stab my heart with a dagger?

I hate that my friend is so upset at not getting onto the course she really wanted to do and I can't do a thing to make her feel any better.

Now that I've graduated, everyone keeps asking me what I plan to do in college and what I plan to do with my life. When I answer that I plan to double major in literature and creative writing, participate in a media fellowship program, live in NYC, and become a book editor and novelist, there seems to be a 50% chance that the questioner will get a judgmental expression and say, "Oh. Interesting." I'm so sick of the perception that humanities majors will amount to nothing and end up at desk jobs. I'm also sick of hearing that I'll make only an average salary. So what if I do? I've never understood why people condemn themselves to lives of toiling away at the same boring, passionless day job if it pays well. I think doing what I love is more important than making oodles of money.

Blah, people.

I am the eldest, so that probably is partly why I do it, although I also do it with friends too. When I was talking with a friend about leaving university a few weeks ago she said that she doesn't know how she's going to be in the right place at the right time without me to tell her!

Today I made a disturbing trip into the children's section of the library that I have been visiting for as long as I can remember. Apparently today's children read books on gun crime, drugs and kidnapping, which is not how I remember the children's section, or my childhood in general. But while I was standing outside the library just after this a ten year old approaches me and asks, "Do you have a light?" I said "Excuse me?" because I really thought I'd misheard, but he repeated it and I told him I didn't. I was thinking what could a ten year old possible need a lighter for? A cigarette? A joint? A bit of casual arson?! I saw this boy ten minutes later with a lit cigarette hanging out of his mouth.

Every time I move it feels like I've been stabbed in the gut.

I don't think I can take 3-4 months more of this. It's only the second day of summer-ish weather and I'm so fucking hot. The damn air conditioner won't even come on unless it's two degrees higher than the set temperature....

I hate hate hate my nails. They're so god damn thin! 5 of them are already broken, so now I have to cut them all if I don't want to look like an idiot with one nail longer than the other! Oh, come on! They grow up so hardlyyy! Now I have to wait another 3 months for them to be the same again, AKA the whole summer break!

EDIT: I also hate the "face slap" emoticon. I always forget that it's "faceslap", not "facepalm", even though I'm more than sure that I've seen this thingy being "facepalm" right on here a while ago... Or I'm just paranoid about everything else because of my BELOVED nails

I was gifted a ton of SimPoints by my friend who was quitting TS3 and wanted to get rid of his (I'm not joking, close to 60,000) simpoints that he had collected and bought over the 2 years he's been playing, so I go and buy what felt like half the freaking store and I still have around 10,000 left to play with if something good comes along. But then, when I go to play the game, it lags so badly I can sit here, reading a book, and not be disturbed for 40 minutes at a time because it's loading something. I CAN'T WIN WITH THIS GAME.

Just when I thought things couldn't get any better, they take an overwhelming turn for the worst. Please keep my father in your prayers, my family and I got some news this afternoon that no one wants to hear.

Oi, icons! Stop invading my desktop everytime I install or upgrade software. I like a nice, clear desktop tyvm and don't appreciate you forcing your way in there!