^ Thanks. My mom seems okay, but I know it's been hard for her.

On another note, why, why, WHY are my textbooks always more than 7 years old?! Let's see, my physical science book is 8, my economics book is 7, and my US government is ELEVEN years old. Last year's US history book didn't even have 9/11 in it, for Pete's sake. Heck, I've never had a history book that did include that particular event, and it happened when I was in first grade. Considering I'm now in 12th grade, THAT'S A LONG TIME.

I think my school (the independent study school of my town) gets the regular high school's old books. Not fair.

EDIT: Another thing that bugs me about my textbooks. You would think a 12th grader would know what the word "complicated" means, but nooo, not according to my government book.

^ Don't even get me started on textbooks! If I read cereal boxes I would gain more information than I would ever get from one of my textbooks. Blegh. And I have to go get them next week along with the new bloody uniform that looks like a janitor's outfit and then kiss my summer vacation goodbye. Phoey McPhoester.

I'm so tired of everything and everyone in this city.

ETA: Also, people are stupid.

I've got less than two weeks to find an apartment but I don't have time to actually go and look for one, plus I absolutely dread having to do it alone.

It's so cold, my feet are stained from shoe dye and it won't come out and i'm home alone for a few nights in a new scary house

Sometimes I just feel so stupid and inadequate.

Working in retail the day before Father's Day is sure to be a good time, and my boss strategically put me on for only 4 hours she doesn't have to give me a break. Joy.

I have been awfully depressed lately. Cramps make it even worse.

Short Version:
My boss isn't giving me enough hours. I need another job.

Long Version:
I love my job. I really, really do, despite all my grumbling and complaining on here about it. As soon as I walk into the shop I'm all sunshine and happiness and I work with such lovely people, but lately I've noticed I'm really being overlooked when it comes to hours. The other casual (the only person I dislike at my work because he's a smarmy bastard) gets all the shifts I used to get, leaving me with a maximum of two 6 hour shifts a week, and then he is also offered shifts from our other store, so he ends up working 30 hours a week whilst I'm lucky to get 12. I don't really want to work at our other store because the staff there aren't particularly friendly, and I've mentioned this lack of hours to my boss but I haven't noticed a change. It's getting to the point where I'm applying for other jobs because I really, really need the money and no matter how great my current job is, if I'm barely getting the chance to work, it's not great enough.

My father bought a new computer today, after patronizing me no end in the store, and my brother helped him to set it up when we got home, but then he had to go out. So I go into my dad's study and he's switching off the new computer, and I'm like "What are you doing?" and he says, "Oh, your brother's gone out so I'll have to leave setting this up for now and go back to the old one. I want to go on the internet." For god's sake, all he had to do was switch over the router cable from his old PC about a foot to the left to his new PC, so I said, "I can set the internet up if you want, Dad, it's not complicated." I could just see the doubt there - "Oh, if you're sure you know what you're doing..." - because, you know, I'm a girl, so I wouldn't even be able to tell the screen from the speaker, right? It's not like I'd announced I was going to attempt to cure cancer. When I told him he could use the wireless internet on his new computer without even switching the cable over he told me (in a kindly, 'I know it's hard to understand' tone) that the wireless was disabled (it's not, I'm using it right now to post this message and there's a bright blue light next to the wireless button on the router to indicate it's on). I just left that one, what was even the point in trying to explain to him?

Where the hell has the summer gone? My classes start in less than 12 hours and I've never felt so thoroughly disheartened at the thought of the start of an academic year.

I slept the whole day! I don't know what I hate more, sleeping too much or not sleeping enough. Either way, it sucks.

It's Monday, ugh.

I seriously was yelled at by my friend for being 'antisocial' because I'd prefer to sleep in my own bed not be squished between people in a double, watch political shows rather than old sitcoms and because I'm upset about family shit instead of pretending they don't exist and being a happy little bitch. Sorry, but I'm still a person, just a more mature one who doesn't have a perfect family like you lucky kids. I wish I could've stayed on my own for this camp.

8.5 hours spent standing dealing with snarky customers whilst trying not to cry because of killer cramps, nausea, and the intense feeling that I was close to passing out. That's what I call a hell of a fun day.

Eh. I'm on a 3 week fat free diet (for the last 6 weeks I've cut back on snacks and fast food and been exercising daily and lost nothing so I've taken it to the extremes now) and its been one week and I've lost nothing. :/ I've been trying to do at least 30 minutes of walking or exercise a day as well. My mum has been on this diet as well and has lost 4 pounds. *sigh*

And, and Hi gals. I know I haven't been active for ages. :/

I had such a bad day. It felt like everything that could have gone wrong did go wrong - they were all little things but together it really added up. I really hope tomorrow is better...I'd say I don't see how it could go worse, but that would be tempting fate.

i got told today that my ex has been tweeting stuff about our break up. . . which happened nearly 10 months ago and i haven't spoken to him for 9 months :/ So why is he doing this now when we have had no contact at all!? I was so angry when i found out, now im just sad.

Two of my boyfriend's friends (who are also my friends) won't stop flirting with me. They're both sweet, but I prefer my boyfriend.

Yeah, tempted fate there. The worst part is I now have a cold, which is just great. I loathe colds. I think today was marginally better than yesterday was though.

Two guys I adore have been fired from the local TV channel and one of my colleagues will be let go in two weeks. I'm kinda glad I'm leaving in October because the atmosphere in the local press is getting tense as fuck.

I'm still cranky about what someone said to me the other day about choosing to study creative writing at university. I've wanted to pursue this field since I was five years old. I feel like I have so many words bottled up inside of me and I need to put a pen to paper to let them all out so I can breathe properly. It isn't just a want to write. It's a need. Who is anyone else to tell me what I should study? I'm well aware that majoring in creative writing isn't going to open up a hell of a lot of career opportunities for me, but I don't care. I don't care if I get paid to write or not, but I want to learn to write to the best of my abilities and it's honestly the most important thing in the world to me. I was basically told that being able to write was a "useless skill" and that I need not waste three years of my life at university learning something so unnecessary and their ignorance made me feel sick but at least I now want to prove them wrong so badly that I'm writing like a mad lady and I suppose this isn't really a vent but a bit more of a ramble.

My sister is currently doing a creative writing degree at open university and is doing very well in it. I'd say to forgot about everyone else and just focus at achieving what you want to in life.
I suck at advice though. :/


Eh. I went into school today with blue hair and got some weird comments from people I don't even know. I mean, I'm year 13. I shouldn't get slack from younger students. But I got some stares from some of the people in my year as well. But I don't particularly care what anyone thinks about me as long as I respect myself.
And I like my blue hair.
*sigh* I'm just fed up with people in general. Can't wait until Film school next year. At least the people I met on the Uni open days seems a little eccentric too.

lethifold- go for it! Do whats gunna make you happy, and if your passion is for writing (which it clearly is ) pursue it! It's your life no one elses. And going to uni makes puts you in higher regards for jobs anyway, no matter what your degrees in your instantly more employable. I wish you luck and hope you become succsessful in your field


My vent- my insomnias back

This cold/my period is making me really cranky and I don't understand a word of this assignment. I just want to sleep for a really long time right now.

The first few days/weeks of school are always rough for me. I just want to go to sleep. I can't, because my body is just being an ass and like "No, Hannah. You're only going to sleep at night. No napping for you."

My period isn't helping matters out much.

...I stayed home for the sake of having a lazy day (Shush you, I know I'm stupid.), and ended up having to spend five/six hours fixing my computer because the power flickered while I was asleep.
Therefore I now have a whole twenty minutes before I have to go to bed.
:c

I get really red cheeks. I try to make my skin nice and moisturized so I don't have bad skin but when I'm at school I tend to get red cheeks which makes me look ridiculous.

Why are trains so exspensive!!? So annoying, the goverment encourage usuage of public transport as it's better for the enviroment rather than all them people being in cars letting out fuel, but a 30 min train journey is going to cost me £15!! grrrr.

¯\_ _/¯ Um..........mmmmm!!!! HAHA!!! 凸(¬_¬)凸

Had to take the day off work because I am sick This is the third time in four months and I am ooooover it.

I can't log in to the library service, the online learning service, or basically anything using my student ID and password because it keeps telling me my password has expired. The password's supposed to expire the first time you log in so you can change it but to change your password you have to be able to log into the password change page, which I can't do due to the 'expired password'. To contact computer support to get them to help you with your password you have to be able to log into their page...with your password...am I the only one seeing a problem here?

Edit: I called up computer support and she changed my password for me, only it still says password expired when I try to log in.. Yet she says she can log in to my account on her computer just fine. I do not need this right now.

Edit 2: She said she'd phone me back, but that was 40 minutes ago and I'm leaving the house in 20 mins to attend the class I needed to have been able to log into the intranet for. Great.

I just tried logging in again and now it actually works...when I have to leave in 15 minutes. Super.

I Sooooooooooooooo Happy!!!!

Yesterday I was shopping (window shopping. Who has that much money for clothes?!) down the "rich end" of Chapel St with the friends I've been staying with. An old lady came up to one of my friends and said something along the lines of "Why spend so much on an umbrella when you look like that, you dirty scum". I just... what the fuck? The friend she was referring to her was indeed carrying an umbrella (because it was raining when we left), which belonged to her mother, who buys everything from Coles. There was nothing wrong with the way she looked, she wasn't dressed in any way that would offend an old conservative woman usually. Ugh, we had such a good run with strangers being helpful and then hours before we leave that happens. The friend she said it to was really offended and upset by it, and she isn't easy to upset.

Two of my friends are going to Florida tonight. One of one week, the other for two. Best part is they're out of high school and can do this shit without having the repercussions of having to make up work.

Let me just cry and watched sappy movies as I cope with the sadness.

I'm just going to tell everyone I'm studying economics at university to stop the skeptical looks when I tell the truth.

Ah. I really feel there is nothing to be ashamed of though. :/ But if you want to do that, I would say 'English Language' as a good cover because it is almost telling the truth about the matter.

I hate being so easily discouraged.

I'm about to call up computer support for round 2, seeing as the password now doesn't work again. How hard is it for them to change a password and actually keep it as that password so I can log in and change it?

It's just that I'm getting over explaining why I want to study it and why I'm moving so far away from home to study and feeling like I have to justify my decision. Today I bumped into some old family friends and when I told them what I was planning to study next year, they looked very skeptical for about five seconds and then said, "Why on earth are you studying that?" which was kind of discouraging. I suppose I should just suck it up and hope I get famous enough for everyone to regret being snarky about my decision.

I think people ask, "But what are you going to do with that degree?" or "What's the point?" for any subject you study that doesn't have an obvious and secure career path for you to follow afterwards. I got so sick of people asking me that. That's not the point. The point is that you're studying something you enjoy. What would be the point in spending three or four years having to attend classes and write papers on something you hate? You'd be miserable and probably wouldn't do as well as you could have done, if you even manage to stick it out to the end. It's not always about the subject, it's the skills you learn. My brother's about to start an engineering degree and not a single person has looked at him skeptically or asked him what he plans to do with his (potential) degree. It really annoys me that engineering is apparently an acceptable degree but anything like English Literature, History, Creative Writing etc. supposedly isn't.

I am so done with school.

So.
Done.

My boyfriend told me that he loves me. It'd be nice, but I don't feel like I can honestly say I love him back. I care a lot about him, I enjoy being around him but I just don't feel like I can openly say that I love him back just yet (We've only dated about two months). I told him this, and he said he understood but he looked so hurt. I feel awful about it.

I mentioned in passing to one of the boys I knew from last year that I got moved into the group in which everybody from last year, including him, is in, and he responded with, "We'll be together again soon!" That sounds light-hearted, but if you knew him then you'd be able to hear him saying it and just no.This is the same guy who took all his clothes off back in March... now I'm worrying that he thinks I asked to switch groups just to be near him or something. He's the kind of person who thinks if a girl is single and looks at him she must like him when actually nobody likes him (that sounds a bit harsh, but hey). He's always making slightly inappropriate remarks to me and yesterday evening after he'd had a few drinks he kept touching me on my lower back and putting his arm around me, which was making me pretty uncomfortable, particularly as he was doing it in front of one of our lecturers and I really didn't want her to think we were together when we really aren't and never will be. I don't know how he could possibly misinterpret things, because sometimes I can barely disguise my disgust, as horrible as that sounds, and yet I know how blind he is. He probably thinks my cold attitude and continued avoidance of eye-contact with him is me being nervous and not knowing what to say. He's known me for a year now and during that year he's watched me date three different guys, two of them friends with him. He really should have realized that if I were interested then 1) something would very likely have happened by now, especially considering his behavior, 2) I would never have dated two of his friends, and 3) I'd actually be making eye-contact and engaging in conversation with him rather than going out of my way to not be too near him.

I think something is seriously wrong with me.

I can't seem to do anything for more than five minutes without getting bored. Like reading. Several months ago I was able to sit down and read for three, four, five hours in one sitting no problem. Now I sit down to read and get in maybe ten minutes before I get bored and put the book down. Don't get me wrong, I adore reading and I do enjoy it, but I still get bored for some reason.

I had this problem with my Rosetta Stone because I wasn't doing it enough, so I was doing the same activities as I was three months prior. Now, however, I'm able to do it easily because I've started a new unit and therefore am learning new things, as well as doing it every day.

It's pissing me off because I can't be as productive as I want to. I want to be doing something productive, or even partially productive, all day, but for the life of me I can't. All I end up doing is sitting at my computer checking the same websites I just checked five minutes ago. And I don't freaking know why.

I've vented about this before, but it seems like it's gotten worse, or at least hasn't gotten any better. Is it really too much to ask, brain, that I be productive?

Having been completely removed from my family shit for two weeks has made it even worse to come back to. I can't be properly happy while I'm here, no matter what else happens in my life, but I'm stuck until 2016. As much as I want boarding school to be an option, it's highly unlikely I would get into one or that we'd be able to afford it without Dad taking on more work than he can cope with again.

I know how you feel-- I'm a Creative Writing major with a French and Media Studies double minor. I don't think that you should lie about what you're studying-- own what you're passionate about! As frustrating as the skeptics can be, I think that, if you do what you love and you do it well, the rest will come. Haters gonna hate -- don't let them get to you.

My vent: I don't often miss my family terribly when I'm away at college. I miss them all the time, but not really in an active way; it's sort of a dull feeling outweighed by the fact that, although I love to see them and be with them, I love my life at college. However, tonight, I'm really homesick for some reason. I thought about Skyping them, but whenever I Skype my parents and my siblings, it just makes me sad that they're all together and I'm not there. Maybe my period is just making me mopey. Whatever it is, I hope it passes soon.

Thank you so much for all the help, girls. I really appreciate it and it's given me a lot to think about. And you're completely right, Rabid, haters gonna hate but I know I'll adore my degree once I get started.

UuuuuGggggHhhhh (UGH)!!!!!!!!!!!!

I can seriously relate to this.
I am sorry but what helps me is to throw on some weekend clothes (joggers and jumper), sit on your bed and sing (scream in my case) along to 'Somebody I used to know' by Gotye, with a tub of ice cream and a cat.

Cats always help situations

Too true.

My best friend sent me a long text about how she feels really stupid and inadequate because a new girl just started in her office who is apparently pretty, stylish, confident etc. I wish she could see herself as I see her...the way she described this new girl was pretty much how I view her. It's so easy to forget how other people see you sometimes. Time to start trying to convince her of this!

[Clears Throat]...Urrr...Ummm "VIVA Gorditas!!!" Come and Get IT!!!

..Most of the time, it's really hard to tell if guys are trying to manipulate you, or are genuinely sincere in what they say. To me, anyways.
It seems like most of them have some stupid ~manly~ obsession with appearing uncaring and dead or someshit.



I've been playing Skyrim with a kitty on my lap. Works for me. c:

OH my FUCKING GOSH, my SIMMIES are sOOOO GOTDAMIT amazing!! I loves it really baby I loves all that SIMMIEs. VENTING...STOP slavating over my Major creations!!!

I really feel like crying today. It just hit when I got home. I think it's because today I got my timetable for up until February and it is seriously full on. But then I always knew it was going to be... I don't know, today I just feel like I can't do this I suppose, even though if I've come this far I probably can do it. I'm feeling like law school was a mistake. I want it to all be worth it in the end but right now I can't really see that end.

I think maybe I feel like nobody in my life is appreciating how I feel right now either. I already know my friends are going to be furious with me when I tell them that I probably can't make their birthday celebrations until February seeing as I have exams the week after all three of them, but I have exams the week after my own birthday and I decided today that I haven't even got the time to celebrate my own birthday, never mind theirs. And my parents are expecting me to do all this stuff over the next few months that I can't do. They keep saying things like "I'm sure you can spare two hours!" But my class hours are the equivalent of a full time job and then I have a crazy amount of reading and tutorial preparation to do.

I don't get it when I'm in a car with my parents and they start talking about stuff I'm not supposed to know about. I'm like, hello, I'm. Right. Behind. You. I can hear you.

It bugs me and I don't know why.

My mum's car got stolen. kdjjfghkdha.

I am scared that things will still be fucked up with my former crush. I really wanna get back to being friends with him. Since falling for him was because of my best friend who kept feeding ideas into my head that I should think of the one boy I thought I was gonna be friends with as a fucking crush.

Fuck.

World History essay.

Ew.

Hey, heat.

Yeah. It's the middle of September.

GO. AWAY. NOW.

...Please?

The girl I was best friends with from 11-14 facebook messaged me wanting to "catch-up" so we're planning on meeting next Thursday. We haven't seen each other in over four years and I'm worried that it's going to be a little awkward. We weren't even on great terms when we last saw each other and there's a reason we didn't stay friends. I don't want it to turn into a "Remember when..." thing and her talking about how great it used to be when we were younger and friends, as I know she's idealized that time in her head. Because it wasn't great for me and the way in which the friendship ended tainted all of the good memories I did have. But I really don't see what else we're going to talk about. Personally I don't trust her at all in regards to telling her anything remotely private or personal, so I won't have much to say about my current life. She even still calls me by my old nickname from back then, which I haven't really heard since I was 14 and it makes me feel really strange, kind of like the person I was back then which isn't a pleasant feeling.

I'm a feminist, or at least I have feminist tendencies, and so I take a lot of causes to heart. In my Sociology class last Tuesday, this one guy in particular had the nerve to say that we live in a more woman dominated society. We ended up having a huge debate, because if anyone believes that we live in a woman dominated society they are a fool. This is still very much a patriarchal and patrilineal world. Finally to make a point, I did a little demonstration with the permission to interrupt class with my professor.

I left the classroom, walked back in and went "Oh hey guys, how's it going", I then asked everyone to raise their hands if they thought that I was referring to them... needless to say, everyone raised their hands... everyone. I then left the class once more, came back in and went "Oh hey girls, how's it going." I had everyone who thought I was referring to them raise their hands once more, however only the women raised their hands.

That was a case in point, it may not seem like a big deal, but the fact that women are still sub categorized under men is example enough. Yes, I know that men aren't women, but women are not men either. There's still many hurdles women have to overcome.

School's tomorrow and the school management decided to make the most stupid system in the history of the school. So now I am in 11th grade, and we have to choose from two majors : science or literature and then in 12th grade you get a more specific major, anyway. The science major students were supposed to be in a class of their own, and so were the literature majored ones. Now they split have of the two majors, and put them together, so now the class is half and half, which is fine for the literature major students but not for the science major students who have to go down to the lab every single class that separates us from the literature major which include: biology, chemistry and physics. This all fine and all but how are 30-40 students supposed to march up and down when the one class is only 45 minutes? If we did that, we'll only have 35 minutes to have the class, which will be very full considering the lab is very small. Why torture us like this? Seriously?

My best friend's boyfriend is such an asshole. Last night she went out with him and his friends for his brithday. I knew she wasn't really looking forward to it because she thinks his friends don't like her that much and they don't have that much in common, but she still made the effort. She text me about 10pm, clearly quite drunk, to tell me that her boyfriend and his friends had ignored her virtually all evening and that she was walking home alone in the dark, crying and that he hadn't even noticed she had left. I was furious that she was walking home alone in the dark, but she was also asking me why she was so crap and why she didn't matter to anyone. I've never particularly liked her boyfriend; this is by no means the first time he's done something like this but it never fails to make me angry when he does this. I honestly can't see why she's still with him but I usually bite my tongue on the matter because I wouldn't want her to feel like she had to choose between the two of us or that I was judging her.

My dad flew into a boiling furious murderous rampage because he hurt himself, and it transformed from screams of pain to blaming my mom and I for everything and giving death threats. I swear, I truly fear for my life sometimes.

Today I talked to the guy I constantly complained about here in this thread, after an incident back in summer that lead into an argument, we haven't talked since. But yesterday he was being obnoxious and turned his head whenever I came his way or passed him by and occasionally crossed his arms with a bad look. Anyway, I went to talk to him in recess, he says that he was upset by how I talked to him in the summer, saying that I treated him badly and coldly, which is slightly true, but he was being obnoxious with me for God knows how long. We talked and in the end I asked him if things are going to be peaceful or just say bye for the last time, he said he didn't like it when somebody talks to him like that. Oh? So you haven't been talking to me in that cold way? You haven't been rude to me? Ever? He should thank his lucky stars that I haven't had a fight with him for real, that was rude, he's rude and I am sickened that I ever thought I could be friends with someone who's so full of air and for nothing of worth.

I am happy about it, I truly am, but this is the part that pissed me off, the other small part is going in the other thread. Also, I got a horrible heat stroke two days in a row. Not good for my brain.

I have no patience with anybody at the moment. For instance today I was sitting next to this guy in class and he kept asking me the most ridicuously stupid questions. I really wanted to snap at him that if he'd done the reading and the work then he might actually know what was going on. He did this yesterday too. I wish he'd stop sitting next to me. It didn't help that I was feeling really bad today again, like nothing ever goes my way. I just want one thing to go right for once. I'm so sick of seeing other people have all these great things happen to them, but then I feel so selfish and mean for not being completely happy for them. But I can't help thinking, 'Why can't that happen to me for once?'

Ugh, I'm so self-pitying these days it's disgusting.

I've completely lost my voice which is really great and all, considering I work in retail and customer service is my biggest duty and I can't really be doing that if I can't speak, so I had to give up my shift to someone else.

ETA: I just found out a boy I went to school with in Japan was shot and killed in a home invasion in Florida last week.

Ah. That is terrible. :/ I hope he rests in peace.

Now my vent will sound very trivial...
My vent is simply about the idiots people who believe that we have it easy because our exams are 'so easy these days'. Have they even looked at some of the papers? And because they 'raised the grade boundaries because the exams are easy' the fact I ACTUALLY got a B in my biology exam is now been degraded to a C.

I was doing a mock interview today and throughout it the boy I was doing it with kept staring at my chest. I was wearing a buttoned up shirt, I had basically no cleavage on display (not that it would have been acceptable if I had)...what was he even getting out of it? I couldn't even say anything because the lecturer was standing right there watching us.

My school laptop had a meltdown and cleared its own C drive. I've lost a whole year's worth of work, a lot of which I needed to revise for exams in 7 weeks. Looks like my holidays are gone!
...The thing is, I can't even access the DVDs and videos we've watched to get notes back since they're hosted on the school servers. *facedesk*

EDIT: My aunt's boyfriend, for want of a better term, was diagnosed with cancer a while ago. His initial treatment went really well and 10 months ago the specialist told him he'd have at least a few years still, but within the last 2 months, he's just got worse and worse. A couple of weeks ago they gave him maybe a month or two, however this morning he was admitted to hospital and they aren't expecting him to last 3 days. I've never been very close to him or even known him that much, but it's still a horrible thing and I feel so, so sorry for my aunt.

EDIT #2: He's passed away.

I feel nauseated and our neighbors cooked something that had an awful smell and it's spread all over our apartment and it stinks. Now I don't want to eat, I am pissed off and I have so many things to do for school and life just seems to suck real bad. How come Fridays are bad days for me?

This is the third day in a row I've gone without a voice. I'm so tired of being sick!

My brother left for college two hours ago. It feels so strange to think he's going to be gone for months at a time now and I actually kind of miss him.

Still sick but I can't give my shift up because I need the money. Customer service without a voice is going to be fun.

I had a nervous breakdown today at school. Worst scare of my life so far.

My brother is having a tantrum about how "other families don't make their kids do things" because we're trying to get him to go to his aunt's boyfriend's funeral today. And he wonders why all the aunts hate him...

UGH, I mean OH my Gosh...The Day seems so long...AND I feel so bored (no help needed though). IN ADDITION, I am so in the mood for reading MANY BOOKs (what adventures they hold). I mean, OH MY GOSHIES if only l were able to write like the writers of the BOOKS I love…(THEN) I would/could be a great writer, BUT INSTEAD I Keep fumbling OVER over again OVER again the SAME MISTAKE Elementary Mistakes(splint-infinitives, colloquiums, Passive Sentences…ETC, etc…Etcetera), UGH!! On to...more writing...IN DUE (permitted) TIME!


*Oopsies, WHERE the [F]reak is my AVATAR (why IS it MIsSING), bv

There's this guy who has a crush on me and I like him and we just spent three days in very close quarters with each other but going off the terrible advice of one of his friends, he believed ignoring me would be the best method of seduction. It's left me feeling really rejected and down, especially after I thought something would have to happen between us on this camp. I would slap his friend upside the head but he happens to be one of my old teachers and also a close friend of mine, too.

Sometimes I think I'm crazy working 10 days straight in return for a four day weekend every two weeks, I am knackered!

People should know that when I have headphones in and when I talk through gritted teeth that I do not want to talk at all.

I fainted three times today. I am kind of sure that I have anemia, or at least that's what everyone told me today. Fucking scary.

I hate it when I specifically tell my parents "I'm going to play my Xbox for the next three to four hours. I can't pause because I will be playing with friends through Live. Do you need me to do anything before I go play?"

Parents: "No, no Nicky. Go play with your friends, baby."

Five minutes later.

"OMFG NICKY YOU LAZY BITCH WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING COME DOWN AND CLEAN THIS KITCHEN AND DO LAUNDRY AND DRIVE TO TACO BELL FOR ME CAUSE I WANT A BURRITO AND WALK THE DOG AND HAVE YOU DONE YOUR CHEMISTRY HOMEWORK YET?"

I tried to eliminate this problem by doing every possible chore I could think of, and walking my dog before repeating this statement and playing. That's when they want me to go get them burritos from Taco Bell or have talks. Ugh, I just want to play for a little bit without constantly having to go and apologize to my friends because I'm wasting THEIR time because I have to go away and back. We make little progress.

Well, this isn't good.

Couldn't go to college today because I wasn't well enough, but my boyfriend did so he could kindly pick up my maths homework, but he's gone out with his friend after class... so I'm left home alone and feeling very lonely. I've got nothing but cats to talk to.

I am so sick of people telling me I look older than I am. It's starting to sound rude whenever people say it.

I Cannot HELP it that I Look so much younger AND sound younger THAN I really AM, BeGeezer-Smeezer, Peezwers! UGH!

Being sick during holidays is fun. Not.

That awful feeling that you're not going to accomplish anything in life.

Someone teach me how to talk to boys.

Work under paid me, again. -.-

My two puppies got neutered today, picking them up in about two hours. Little Jetty also had some of his baby teeth taken out. So worried about them, hopefully they're not in any pain.

Unrelated to the above... but I hate feeling so scruffy! No matter what I do to myself, I always end up feeling messy. Yet I see other girls in the same situations as me and still look immaculate by the end of the day.

Exhausted, pissed off, stressed and my friends told me that I've been acting strange around certain people. I can't effin' focus on anything! From studying to sleeping to dealing with people..

I wish I can be alone for a whole day, just to clear my head up a bit.

Thinking about all the things I wished I had of done or said to someone, BUT not caring anymore. Why cannot SOME people understand the word PRIVACY. Why cannot some understand that NOT all people are likeable...UGH!!! S.M.F.I.H.N!!!!

This is the third work-related vent in a row from me. Ugh. I got a 'pay rise' last week (I found out after reading my payslip last night, thank you for telling me, boss!) but it was only 50 cents an hour more not the $1.50 I was promised. This makes me feel soooo valued for all the damn work I do for the place.

I'm finding myself getting very agitated pretty much every shift, and I am really not enjoying it. I don't see how I am going to be able to put up with it for another 8 months (which is when I plan to fly out again). If only there were other jobs going at the moment. I'd take one in a heartbeat.

I swear half my vents are about this guy that I work with who always comes up with the lamest excuses not to come to work or help out someone else when they need their shift taken, but he's done it again. He can't cover my shift on Saturday because he's got a headache tonight and he'll probably be sick by Saturday. Sorry, what?

I feel like my teachers knew I wanted to have a good day, and they were like "HAHAHAHA NO. HERE'S A TON OF HOMEWORK."

Let's hope I can get this done as quick as possible.

I desperately want to go on this school trip to the amusement park, but my dad and mom don't like that the teacher they dislike most is the one who's supervising the trip. Excuse me? YOU hate him not me. Besides, I trust him with my life and it's not like we're going to the freaking north pole. I fucking need this trip so bad!

ALL I can say is, "Stupid is as STUPID Does." 1Guest=NOPE!!!!