Finding a day when all of my friends are free on which I actually have time to see them is practically impossible at the moment. I feel so bad everytime they ask me if I'm free and I have to say I can't see them because I have to study or have an exam etc. I'm getting worried that they'll start to think I just don't want to see them. I don't want to be the really difficult one who says she can only do this one day out of a two month period either.

Game crashed. Didn't get to save.

My house is disgusting. Especially my bathroom. I have serious mold in my shower. My window is so rusted and mold covered that it's impossible to closed. Both of the mirrors are so cracked and cakes with grime that I use a handheld mirror. I have no door. I have no toilet seat cover or cushion, half the floor is gone and half the lights don't work. I don't even keep anything in there because it's so gross, half the time I beg my mom to let me use her bathroom to use. We have no flooring in half our house, the kitchen stove doesn't work, our fridge is broken, and we have rats and bugs.

We have all these problems, but I'm not allowed to clean. My mom isn't allowed to hire anybody to come and fix any of the issues. My dad screams that he'll do it, but yet he works so much that he doesn't have time and refuses to acknowledge any of the issues. He also claims that he has to do it because we don't have the money.

But by fucking god we have the money and time for him to buy a $3,000 old piece of shit truck that doesn't run and spend every waking moment fixing it up so that he could sell it for "money". He's also suck 5 grand in it already and it doesn't work. He also keeps buying more and more stuff at estate, yard and storage auctions for the "end of the world". I hate this house so much, it's so gross and slobby that I want to cry. My mom told me that if he doesn't start doing something or letting us do something, we're moving out and getting an apartment because the house is literally beginning to make us sick and she's really tired of how he's not really being smart with their money. I really hope she does.

I got hit by a car on Friday.
My sister told me to quit complaining about my bruised and omgmylegsarehurtingsobadeverytimeimovethemthepain and that she knew i was lieing and that she could tell they didnt hurt bad.
THEN she proceeds to complain about how hard her swim practice and that her arms felt like rubber
WTF??
you were there after the accident you saw what happened to my bike you saw my sturdy glasses were smashed and you saw the mark of where i landed (a good ten feet from where i was hit) You've seen my bruises dark purple and black bruises means my skin is not hurt at all aparently

then you come up to me give me your crap about how i cant possibly be hurting still because every normal human recovers
from getting HIT BY A CAR in less than three days.
I don't think so.
and yes im sure your swim practice was harder then a metal car + a hard landing on the ground , im sure swimming has more capacity to hurt somebody then the earlier mention of what happened to me.
I even took one pain killer I never take those. I took one when i had 6 teeth pulled AT ONCE i didnt even take one when i fell 20 ft out of a tree of a tree and landed hard on my stomach.
You dont have one leg to stand on on this matter so shut up and go away
ARGHABLRADGRAVEGA!!!

I really don't like salespeople who go insane with compliments trying to get you to buy something. I was in Melbourne this morning and I walked into one shop:
Sales guy: Hey there! Need help looking for anything?
Me: Just browsing, thanks.
Sales guy: You look really nice today!
Me: Thanks.
Sales guy: Your hair is so perfect! Has it been cut recently?
Me: ...no.
Sales guy: Aw, your bangs are like the perfect length!
Me: ...*awkward smile*

I'm here to shop, not have some creepy guy with a bizarre half-British accent follow me around.

I have exams and I am not getting any time to rest. And when I do, my sister starts screaming, or both my sisters start playing outside my bedroom door. Girls, for crying out loud I have exams! I need sleep and mom knows that yet she still leaves them! I am a very light sleeper during exam times and these days aren't exceptions and I am already stressed out and I am repeating myself again.

I want these two weeks to be over, I don't care about the grades this semester, just effin end already! I will do my best in the second semester, not for mom, not for dad but for myself. I need the motivation to do it.

Today has been shit.

Aaand it just got even shittier.

EDIT: Gimme a second here.

I need a new computer because mine is old and slow, I can't find the fucking discs needed to install my printer on a new computer, I can't find my Wii Fit disc anywhere, I'm worried my computer's going to bork one day and I'm going to lose everything I have on it, I've had a terrible day, I feel gross, music isn't helping I've backed myself into a hole in both my stories my room is a mess I want new furniture we're broke and I'M TIRED OF MY AUTISM PROBLEMS.

GAH.

I'm sick of when I purchase something for someone and they tell me that they'll pay me back when the get some money, and it ends up being 2-3 weeks before I see any money, and I know that they have money in their account

ahhhhg need sleep just finished 12 page paper ive been working on sinse 230 nonstop its 1101 right now Sleep SLEEP Sleep

give me sleep or give me death both options are fine by me
seriously.
(Sleep)

pretty trivial vent. . . but i really cannot decide what to do with my hair and its annoying me!! It's time for a change but i cannot decide between blonde or staying brown, fringe or no fringe, long or short. ergh.

Almost everybody is irritating me no end over the most minor things at the moment.

I tried to make it to the station to get to my exam. What a mistake. I had to stop the car at the top of the hill down to town because I knew I'd never make it back up. I walked down what looked like a sheer sheet of ice on the hill and decided it was best to go back. Slipped on the way back up the hill, then skidded off the road into a bush with the car. Lucky that bush was there, it really cushioned the blow and the car just sort of swerved back onto the road.

And they sent the email saying they would post the exam online and you can do it at home just after I left home, great timing!

I have bad flu and I have a exam on Wednesday I should be revising for but I can't concentrate on revising whilst sneezy, coughing and feeling generally sick. I hate being non-productive.

I can't study and my brain isn't functioning as it should. And my test is tomorrow, I am panicking, I am not revising...I am going to fail.

Fuck. Fuck.Fuck.

Just got TS3 supernatural!

this is vent not what made your day
*has horible thought
is something wrong with supernatural

@deadlyspoon, Are you feeling better?? I saw that you said that you were hit by a car

Just shut the fuck up everybody.

...Is what I feel like saying sometimes. (Not to you girls, don't worry.)

I screwed up the Biology test today, I was so close to doing it all right and ace it but no, my brain goes dead on me in the middle of the test. I am scared about tomorrow's chemistry test, too. :/

crashed my game 2 times now it works perfectly

Couples who only just started going out and are suddenly telling each other that they love one another all over the place...need I say more? Only you can't call them out on it or mention it to anybody else because then you get accused of being jealous. And then they break up a month later and never mention each other again and you're just like, "I knew it."

@Sweet cat thanks for wondering as of right now i am getting better the bruises have almost gone away the bruise swelling is gone, it only hurts if i touch it so im pretty much healed
i heal pretty fast, and never use bandaids
thanks for thinking of me

as for my vent, my phone has been missing for two weeks tommorow so i dont know what to do.

glad you are better.

thanks it was never a big injury hospital wise just bad bruises and my sister kept annoying me.

there are to many vent threads i cant keep up with them

Annoying friends that post things on Facebook and Twitter every five minutes

Getting home at 11 at night to find my sister ( who is staying with my flatmates and I for a second week while she looks for a flat) has gone out AGAIN, taking MY house keys, so that I can't get in. This is after I told her to leave them in our designated safe place so I wouldn't wake her up (seeing as she has to leave at 7am each morning). She did this on Wednesday night last week as well, not bothering to tell me she was actually going out when she picked my keys up at my work in the afternoon so I couldn't get in then, either. Oh, and on Thursday evening she got drunk after work and came stumbling to my work at 9pm wanting my keys, which I refused to give her, and then she was ungrateful after I made her wait in the staff room for an hour until I finished work so she would get home safely. Little sisters! Grr!

I contacted the dorm that I'm moving into about 5 months ago asking when students were going to start moving in so my family could book accomodation on the corresponding dates, and was told February 16th, no doubt about it. Today, after receiving confirmation that I do actually have a place there, I was told that we are now moving in on the 23rd of February, which is so great considering my family booked a house from 13/2/13 until 20/2/13 so they could move me in. Now we need to find a place to stay for the rest of the time and there's no way we can push back our booking because the house is booked straight after we leave. Peachy.

Continuing on from my previous 'vent', my fucking sister is an immature, selfish pain in the ass. I apologise for the use of cuss words, but right now they are the only words that feel apt to use.

She is staying in MY flat with MY two flatmates and I, getting rent for a cheap $45 (which my Dad is actually paying, not her), and she has no fucking consideration for anyone in this house or anything I do for her.

Tonight she was meant to go and check out a house in a suburb near to here, but closer to the city, where she's got her job, at 6:30. She missed at least 3 buses. She texted the people at that house to say she had missed the bus, not called them, and asked if she could visit later, and they agreed, saying 9 pm. Now that's all well and good, except my highly mature sister decided that 'Ooo! It's Wednesday! $3 beers at the bar again!' and went and got herself drunk, A-fucking-GAIN. Needless to say, she missed the fucking bus that would have got her to the flat before 9pm.

At this stage I knew none of this, only being worried that she hadn't come to my work at 5 pm to pick up my house keys and that I hadn't heard from her. I figured that she must have gone back to my place and neglected to let me know again. So when I got home just before 11 tonight, and found that no, she was in fact not there, and that my flat mates hadn't seen her, I get more worried. I ring her and she doesn't pick up her phone. Only on the third time (and after I've topped up so I could get a hold of her) does she answer and say "Oh, I've been at the bar, but I'm getting on the bus now". Except she wasn't on the bus because then she would have been at the bus station near my house by 11:30 at the latest.

It isn't until about half an hour ago (at 12:30 AM) that she texted me saying she fell asleep on the bus, missed her stop and was now stranded at another bus station further up the motorway. So I had to beg a MASSIVE favour off of my flat mate, who was luckily still awake in her room, to drive me up there so we could bring her home.

I get to this other bus station, find my sister, who then tells me that she's lost the 7-day bus pass she only bought yesterday as well as her ID card which enabled her to get cheaper fares, and get her in to the car and she doesn't even say thank you to my flatmate. All the while I was sitting there saying how much I appreciated the favour and that I owed her one.

We got home a little while ago (it is now 1 AM) and when I tried asking what happened, I had her start yelling at me AGAIN (remember last night's episode?) about how I'm "such a fucking parent" and that I should "stop lecturing" her and when I responded by saying that she wasn't being serious about this situation at all, about finding a place to LIVE then she started swearing and shouting and told me to fuck off to bed already. Well, she thinks I'm annoying now. I don't appreciate being told to fuck off in my own home, by my own sister. You think I'm being unfair? Good luck finding a fucking house whose flatmates will take you in when you act like a little self-absorbed shit head.

I feel like I'm not normal. Normal people have friends around their house, don't they? Well I'm getting the courage to ask for permission from my parents to have someone round tomorrow. I'm almost 18 years old... I'm a coward.

I disagree. I never had anyone in my whole life up with me at my house until I was 22. Don't beat yourself up about it, it's more common than you think.

^I hardly ever had friends over while I was at school either. I hosted one sleepover during my entire school career with my two (then) best friends, I begged and begged my parents to let me have it and it sucked. So bad. (Mostly because of the two girls I'd invited, I'm a great hostess ). I had this one particular group of friends from for two years and they all used to host parties at their houses, everyone held at least one, and I never had one, nor did they ever come over just to hang out. My father makes visitors feel so unwelcome that in the end I never even wanted to have people over unless he was out or away. I always say to myself that if I have children I want them to just be able to bring their friends home from school without even having to ask me/call me up for permission.

I just hurt my leg! It hurts to just move it!

My older sister's douche boyfriend is here. I haven't seen him in a month. Life was so pleasant until today. D:

HE said, then SHe said, THEN HE said then she said. THEN She said...then HE said then HE said that She said, that I said that She said that HE said that She said THAT I said, "Fluxster you, lame ass Sissy face punk Mammiefucker." Then I said, UH UH, what a minute You mean to tell me...." AND to think, they did it all in that little Speaker thingy!! -The End LOL, Oopise!

So I was scrolling down my Hulu homepage, when, under their "popular movie trailers" section, I see "Hansel and Gretel Get Baked."

...Wut?

Then I see "from the makers of Twilight"

Ohhh, now it makes sense!

Good lord.

You're welcome And I'm glad you're better.

As for me, I have to: write an essay, finish a test, and study for two different tests. All on Monday -__- I should be doing that now to get it all done by tomorrow, but instead I'm on here listening to music

Had a weird yet terrifying dream last night. My neighbors were being robbed of all their furniture while they were out, but my dad, sister and I were home and watching. Before we could call the police, the robbers came into our house and... then shit just got weird. Ridiculously weird. But at first it was terrifying because we were going to be taken with the robbers and probably killed.

Just as we were about to be taken from the house, I realized it was a dream and woke myself up.

It was weird shit, man.

It's a public holiday today in the region I live in, but I'm stuck at work, 3 hours in to a ten hour shift and there is absolutely no-one else in the building or at any of our 3 other car parks. Totally boring, and there's nothing I can do if anything goes wrong. The only redeeming thing about today (after having to get out of a warm bed at 5AM) is that I'm getting paid at a rate of 1 and a half times my normal hourly rate + I get a day in lieu to use at my leisure.

It's a public holiday where I live too, and I don't have a job yet
You said that there is absolutely no-one else in the building, that means you can do whatever you want

Yeah that was alright for the first wee while. But luck would have it that things went really, really wrong at two of the three other car parks. So seeing as I (still! -sigh-) don't have my restricted licence yet (4 years sitting on my learners, doi) I couldn't legally drive the work truck, even though my bosses were fine with that, so I had to run over to these car parks three separate times, spending a total of about 3 and a half hours sorting out problems. Thankfully one of the guys came in to work briefly to help me fix a pay machine, but otherwise I was on my own. Still, I survived so I'm glad the day is over.

On a related note; one of the two pay machines at one of the car parks went out of service, so there was a queue of about 30 people at the remaining pay station, one of them was a scary looking fella, with pukana eyes (to understand how scary pukana eyes are, look up the Haka on YouTube) started getting angry and was having a go at me, and TWICE came in to the ticket booth I had unlocked and gone in to while on the phone trying to get the other machine fixed remotely. Both times he came far, far too close to me and was yelling all the time. That nearly made me freak out. Shook me up pretty bad after I had left that car park. I don't get why people take that kind of anger out on me, I was there to try and get every one out of the car park in decent time, trying to help them.

My favorite clothes store has shut down. I had been hoping the owner was just refurbishing or something but yesterday I walked by and there were two men inside who looked like developers. I wanted to tell them they're scum and ask them where I'm supposed to buy dresses from now. There wasn't even any warning that it was shutting.

Those days that are just blah for no particular reason but at the time it is like the end of the world.

Okay, Microsoft, SERIOUSLY? $140 for ONE install of the BASIC new Office?

Fuckers.

Because of everything going around and all the troublemakers and fights, me and my friends are stuck at home and our mid-year vacation is basically gone. We only have one week left and we can't enjoy it. Screw this.

Oh and it's freezing and now I am extra cold because of the monthlies. Can't get any better can it?

I Don't know you EITHER, ASS-WIPE!!!!!

My phone is broken, k? I can't unlock it. It doesn't bother me that much because we're getting new ones soon, but then my mom texted and called me. I had seen the banner across the screen that says Mom: pick me up at hospital. It flipped me out and I'm sure I broke several laws rushing to the hospital. I was half-crying, half panicking and completely scared that she had crashed her car or something. Turns out, she's fine. Her car did break down and she had walked to the hospital to wait while she called/texted me. I'm so relieved but yet I'm so pissed at my phone being broken!

It's really hard when you try to be nice to other people, but they are jerks to you. I only treat people how they treat me. I'm only mean if you're mean to me. If you're nice to me, I'll be nice to you too. It's really sad just how immature and rude people are. You can tell that they will never grow up. I'm so tired of people arguing and fighting everyday. Talking bad and gossiping about other people, but they don't want it done to them. They think that they are better than everyone else, just because they have money and a different boyfriend every week. I hear fighting everyday like this, and they somehow always try to get me involved. And I'm sick of it. You're not better than anyone. Most people hate you because of your attitude, and you may think you do, but you have no true friends. I may not be like them, but I have true friends.

I hope that you feel the same way and agree with me.

I've been emailing the University I wish to visit for a open day and in the last email it ended with 'Please let me know either yourself or your son have any other questions'. I have no idea how
1) I sounded like a parent rather than the student
2) They think I'm a guy

At first it was funny but now I'm just confused. 0_o

I feel numb on the inside. Both physically and emotionally. I haven't eaten properly in three days because I keep getting cramps and vomit whenever I eat, the only meal that stays in my stomach is lunch and the cups of coffee I have. Why can't I be happy?

Also, related to the fainting issue I vented about so many times before...it stopped. I am supposed to be happy but now I am starting to doubt if I really was acting like everybody said. But why would I act if I had nothing to act for and no one to 'impress' like the losers from my class said. I am going to the doctor tomorrow to figure this out and hopefully, as weird as it may sound, something will be wrong with me.

My parents always complain about the clothes that I wear. They bought me the clothes for my birthday, but they still complain about me wearing them.

OH MY GOSH, You are NOT my MOMMA!!! I laugh uncontrollable ...because I so cannot believe that U, YOU, y-o-u thought that you were my mother, my momma!!!! Sad case of The Mental(s)!!! "Click-click, I can controls everything I wants TA!!!"


*"I ain't YO MOMMA EITHER!!!"

I have exams on Wednesday and Thursday next week and nothing I'm reading is going in. This is supposed to be my best subject but I'm really anxious about it at the moment.

Ugh... So much work!!!

one dose not drive to his house and take it lol i am jking i hope u get your phone back

I keep getting randomly upset, I'm just overwhelmed with love and fear.

I'm so scared everything is going to change and I will be in the worst place of my life once again, except it would be a hundred times worse...

Family dinner with my dysfunctional family.
How annoying.

Surprise physics test last lesson. Yay.

The mother of the children I babysit for just text me saying, "Just checking you're okay for tomorrow's babysit?" Uh, no, because you never told me I was supposed to be babysitting tomorrow! Normally I'd probably just text back and agree, and pretend as if she did tell me like she clearly thinks she did, but I have an exam tomorrow so I won't be back until 6pm and she wants me to go around at 4pm. Now I feel really guilty telling her 'last minute' that I can't possibly babysit at 4pm tomorrow when actually it's not really my fault. If she'd told me sooner then I'd have been able to tell her sooner that I couldn't do it. Less than 24 hours is a bit late notice regardless. They're really lovely people but they're so scattered and disorganized sometimes because they always have about twenty things going on at once and it really stresses me out. I like to know in my head what I'm doing and when.

And now I have to think of something to text back that doesn't make it look as if it's my fault but doesn't imply that she should have told me sooner either.

Edit: So I ended up apologizing even though I know for certain that we never had anything arranged for tomorrow. Typical.

Chris Brown needs to go.

The company that I had a job interview for hasn't got back to me yet. There was only 4 people interviewed, and one of them didn't even show up, I had a good chance of getting the job.

Plus, my sister made me watch the same movie that we watched yesterday. If I hear that she is going to watch Dogs in Space again, I'm going to physically break the disc in half (we only have one dvd player. I broke the last one), and my Star Trek VHS tape got stuck in the VCR player, it took me an hour and a knife to get it out.

I'm sure my period picks the most inconvenient day to start. I had such bad cramps earlier that I swear it felt like a parasite was slowly clawing its way out of me, even after the really strong painkillers. I have an exam tomorrow morning so I really hope I don't get them again then.

Valentine's Day, my boyfriend's birthday, and our anniversary is within a week. V-Day = 14th, his birthday = 16th, our anniversary = 18th. I told him I'd handle it since he always does something for our anniversary (he celebrates every month, but when it hits one year we're going to start only celebrating yearly) and did something nice for my birthday. We're going to do one big celebration on the 17th, and I feel pressure to do something big since it's all three events. I planned cooking him all three meals (his favorites too) with a birthday cake, taking him to see a movie he wants to see, a video game marathon of his choice, and I was going to play him a song on my violin for him and give him a homemade present (a Fallout Pipboy from his favorite game, Fallout 3). It's kinda stressful mainly because of the food. I planned on cooking his birthday cake in advance to save myself some cooking stress but what I plan to make for dinner takes a while to prepare, and I've never made it by myself without my mom.

^ Just breathe, maybe write up a wee plan of what takes the longest to prepare and cook, so could something be put on the stove to boil or fry why you cut up the onions/veges etc,. Timing is the hardest thing about cooking, but if you think about it awhile before actually getting started then it'll all work out fine :-)

New day, new rant

My best friend makes me want to rip my hair out sometimes. She is constantly falling in and out of love and getting her heart DESTROYED because of it. She "fell in love" with my other best friend and all that. Blah blah blah. He told her up front: He's not interested in a romantic relationship with anybody, he wants to focus on school especially since college is coming up. He also isn't interested in her because he wants a Christian wife, since he wants to be a youth pastor (she's an atheist). He told her that again when she publicly announced to everybody that they were engaged and she broke down, screamed, hit and got pissed with him, broke all contact and doesn't want to speak to him again. She's almost five years older than us, but she acts so fucking immature that it makes me want to choke her.

It's Valentines Day and Aunt Flo is visiting me before my boyfriend does.
::flips chair::

I think I'm getting sick.

-Words I never thought I'd say-

So sick of having abuse hurled at me by customers who are grumpy. Who gave you the right to throw your fucking problems at me? Stop treating me like I am personally responsible for a pay machine not working properly (read: for you not knowing how to use the fucking thing!). If you would be calm and explain what's not working right, I would be more than happy to help you out. Fuck. Is it that difficult to be nice to someone who is just trying to do their job?

One Two (^Three^) Four Five Fingers!!!!!!! Three being the one of most importance...Cry elsewhere Pig, jelly doughnut eating Punk. I am so tired of being blamed for lazy people who do not even care to try to do things on their own (just give me give me, "I SO SCARE I guess I will just sit here for a while until")! F-Off! C-ku

The pay machine at the airport in Melbourne wouldn't take my money. I was waiting for 20 minutes until someone opened the gate for us and we then left.
I hate Melbourne, apart from a Sci-Fi shop I'm going to in a few weeks. I'm going to buy all the Star Trek merch they have.

My laptop is playing up.
I can't play any videos because media player is being stupid.
I think my computer has been infected with spyware because I keep getting loads of pop ups when I'm not even on internet yet my norton internet security won't register it or remove it.

EDIT: Fixed media player but pop ups still being annoying.

Have to go out with the family tomorrow. I don't really want to, but they told me that I stay inside too much and that I need to get outside more.
I get outside enough, I walk to McDonalds and go shopping almost every day, so I don't know what their complaining about.

I am soooo tired after the last week of work. This pay-fortnight I've clocked up 100 hours. Yesterday I found out that I am required, again, to work Saturday, making this the second week running that I'm doing 6 days on and only one off. I can't do it, it's too exhausting.

There is some kind of street barbeque tomorrow night, that I was invited to via facebook. My parents asked me if I wanted to go to it. They aren't going to it, because the BBQ is organized by my aunt, which my mother doesn't talk to.
I then said that I would go to it, so I can see my cousins, when my mother yelled at me for saying I was going to it.
Then I was like "You asked me if I wanted to go to it" and then my mother ranted on about how much of a bitch my aunt is.
Man my family is dysfunctional.

Okay, so I try talking to a new group of people and they completely ignore me. This is precisely why I don't like branching out from my normal group of friends.

I am very conflicted when it comes to college. I'm going to a community college nearby next year (no questions) to raise my math skill and to get generals out of the way. Then I'm transferring to a four-year.

This is the problem: I hate California. I cannot stand it, I despise it and I've been heavily searching for colleges in the East Coast near one of my best friends, some snow, closer to some family, and it has some better schools for what I want to major in. I want to go to a school there, but I'm afraid to leave my parents to travel so far. I have some health issues, somewhat big ones, and I've never been separated from my parents for more than two days. Moving to the other side of the country is somewhat terrifying. There's also the issue of my boyfriend; he can't afford to go outside the US and we've been talking about maybe getting married. I know, I shouldn't base my decision on a boy, but it's still a factor in why I'd wanna stay. He said we could move after we graduate, but I'm just really eager to spread my wings and be independent for once.

Hey there, girls! I haven't been there for a while, but I would really-really like to ask you something... It may take long, but please read it! You could make a life happier.

There is a ten-year old girl in our town, called Debi, who is fighting against a really cruel and a serious illness: bone cancer. Her family and friends do everything for this young lady to recover, but their financial funds are constantly decreasing and sometimes they can't even really afford it. The chemoteraphies and the different treatments are horribly expensive, so our town tries to donate her every incomes from concerts, tickets etc. I don't know whether there are enough people. Things for them are getting harder and harder. The problem is that it was found out late what causes her pains. The tumour started to grow in her ankle but now it is approaching her muscles and joints. Her parents are indescribably desperate and shocked, and they also have an exchange student, attending our school, who would need a new home because of the case. Her mother tells that she wouldn't even recognize her daughter if they would show a photo of her. She used to be a brown-haired, lively girl, who turned to a bald, pale, weak young lady. Though she still has the hope in ther gorgeous grey eyes and a certain smile. She is 100% aware of her condition and she is fighting against it, and she is still optimistic among the unbearable circumstances. There was a time when he could not even talk, just pray. She told about her interests in a video, she loves snow and her friends really much. The town does everything to help her and lend the family money, and the family also tries everything to get her better. As I got to know from acquaintances, she was such in a severe condition nowadays that she was taken to hospital. The doctors also tell that her leg has to be amputated. And she is just ten years old...

I'd ask you to pray for her and her family and friends. It is such a how to put it... You know, what I mean, how could it feel like... Horribly. If it is her fate to stay among us, please help and not let anyone to obstacle this!

And one more. As I can't collect money, and my school (where her bro attends) already does, I'd like to collect her wishes. If someone would feel that would encourage her, comment this journal, and I'll show these wishes her parents and her. It is such an enchanting and fulfilling moment - especially when you are ill that someone, somewhere is thinking of you. If you wanna call her, her name is Debi, as I mentioned. Let as all unite for her!

Thank you. Love ya all, ladies. :*

UGH, okay (3-2)= None!!!! I HaS nO more candy!!!I NEEDS A QUICK FIX!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I has writer's block. <_>

My feet hurt and I'm tired from someone waking me up at 2 in the morning. I couldn't get back to sleep until 4, and I had to get up at 7.

Managed to break my right wrist 3 days out from starting university. I'm right-handed. Fuck.

^ That is awful luck. At least when I did it I was lucky enough to break the left one. Also, showering is the worst when you have a cast on and there's nobody there to help you.

^ When I broke my arm, smashed my elbow and broke my wrist (separate occasions), I had a large plastic bag wrapped over the cast. I just wound up having a shower to get my hair wet and use body wash and then filling the bath tub up a little to actually wash my hair, one-handed. It made for interesting times, that's for sure.

Eradicating Major Simmie Files, what a FREAKING-FLAPING job it can so be sometimes, UGH!!!!

I am so upset and I have no idea what's the main cause. And no, I am not a grumpy person, thank you very much.

Ok, maybe just a little bit...

I couldn't talk at all the whole day. Do you know how hard that is for me to not speak at all?! Especially when people are trying to talk to you and you can't respond or tell them what's wrong. I'm in so much pain right now >.< I need the headband that Cat wore on Victorious when she couldn't talk, just so I can communicate with people. I wonder if they actually make those........... there should be an app for that.

I also used a shower/bath combo. I tried wrapping cling-film around the cast during my first shower in case water splashed onto it, only to spill a cup of boiling coffee all over the cast a few days later anyway.

I'm ill yet again and it really didn't help having to spend an hour sitting on the train this morning, stuck at one station because of some fault further up the track.

I have tons of homework, lots of stress, exams and I keep fainting and I can't sleep.

I just need a damn break.

I don't like any of my new classes at the moment.

Just. Fuck everything.

WOW you are not subtle at all

well gee maybe if I was stupid and 1/2 brain dead i would probably never guess that your friend _____ told you that he likes me. Hmmmm?
*sighs I am never gonna live this down.... not finished must save vent for another day murverdesvrr people watching over my shoulder

I got asked to babysit last Wednesday and now I've just been asked if I can babysit this Wednesday but I now have one of my classes Wednesday evening so I can't and I am so angry about it. Months ago when the classes were first being timetabled I said, categorically, that I couldn't take a class if it was in the evening and I basically got bullied into agreeing to it by the head of the department. He kept on and on asking me if I would still take the class if it ran in the evening and I kept on saying that I wouldn't because it would mean me not getting home until after 10pm at a fairly deserted station, plus I do a lot of babysitting and I kind of need the money. In the end he told me that everybody else had said they didn't mind doing an evening class and I was the only one "holding it back", so I very reluctantly said I would do it in the evening seeing as nobody else was bothered and I didn't want to be difficult. Then last week I found out that actually a lot of other people in the class do mind and in fact nine out of the thirteen people in the class are full-time students (the ones who are only supposed to be taking day classes). So basically we all had to do something incredibly inconvenient for only four people because the rest of the evening students ending up transferring classes anyway.

I'm actually so mad right now. I could really do with the money.

Wound up in hospital yesterday, needing a brain scan. Thankfully they found no bleeding, so I'm only lumped with post-concussive syndrome. It sucks because now I'm losing money by not being able to work.. *sigh* Back to bed for me.

The guy I like is moving to Australia and I don't have the guts to tell him I like him so I'll just never see him again without telling him.

I cut my hand getting money out of a money tin in my room. I guess I shouldn't have tried to open it.

Threw up three times last night, after feeling sick for a few hours. I just rang my doctor to get a note for work and to ask how long I should put up with the symptoms before going back to see her, and she said because I've now thrown up, whereas before I was only feeling nauseated, I should go back to the hospital and check myself in. I don't want to go back. This time they'll keep me there, I know it. If I start throwing up today ( I haven't yet, touch wood) then I will bite the bullet and do it, but for now I'm too scared of that place to want to go back.

I just had an important video exam for my Ib art class today, I was doing good when the cameraman's phone rang interrupting my presentation. Now, when the IB "council or whatever" sees the video...they will be bothered by the ringing phone.


Also, my mom told this guy who i like's father that i liked his son, he seem to enjoy the idea....Somehow the guy I like i discovered he has a gf. </3

I'm getting really sick of there being rumours of a "leadership spill" in some form every few days in Australian politics. It's getting hard to work out whether they're actually doing anything as a government because all the media cares about it who might be challenging for the leadership of whichever party.

^ Same here. Then I usually get annoyed of listening to Julia Gillard whinging and I change the channel.

Some of my exam results are supposed to have gone online today at 2pm but they aren't up yet. The waiting is already so frustrating, they could at least have put them online at the time they said they would.