Of course I had to have a fight with my best friend, sooner or later. Why in Earth am I not a good friend JUST because she had quite a big fight with another girl in our group and I still talk normally to that girl? She thinks that I should be on her side, but I don't want to argue with anyone, that's why I still talk to that other girl! I HATE it when I am caught in the middle, in every conflict my best friend has. I'm sick and tired of this. Reminds me of this quote, from Sara Bareilles's "King Of Anything": All my life, I've tried to make everybody happy, while I just hurt and hide, waiting for someone to tell me it's my turn to decide.

The horrible thing happened....I'm so sad and furious! My crush has a girlfriend who is actually my friend! I'm not blaming her, she didn't knew I like him but still, I have a need to cry, and a lot :'(

Talking in French for 5 hours, and then trying to do a vlog in straight-up English? Not gonna happen.

Evanescence wants their music in Breaking Dawn?!

NOOOO!

I'm sick of everyone regarding Zaidee Turner as if she was a perfect little girl and a hero, nothing more. No disrespect intended, but she wasn't. I'm not sure how many people will have heard of her (to be honest, I'm not even sure if her fame has spread outside of this region or Victoria, but some of the Aussies here may have heard of her?) but she was a young girl who died in 2004. She became famous because she was the only young person in 2004 to donate her organs after death, and is regarded as a huge hero still nowadays. Her parents set up "Zaidee's Rainbow Foundation" to raise money for organ donation and all that stuff.

I knew Zaidee personally, she was in my ballet class. During the ballet classes, she continually picked on myself, my then best friend and another girl for various things. She never listened to any instructions, she constantly fought with the teachers and at one point made one of them cry. She was always disrupting the class and just generally being a nuisance and messing everything up. It doesn't seem like anything major, I know, but it gets -very- annoying when I mention that to someone and they're all "HOW CAN YOU SAY THAT! THAT'S DISRESPECTFUL! SHE'S A HERO, DON'T MAKE UP LIES ABOUT HER! SHE WAS MY BEST FRIEND!". Normally, this comes from people who I know for a fact did not know her personally, only through the media after she passed. Yes, mate. You can totally tell me I'm lying when I was in a weekly class with her for 2 years and you never met her in your life.

Another thing about her that pisses me off (or, not her, but her legacy) is how much her Rainbow Foundation is talked up and pushed in everyone's faces. The rainbow shoelaces everywhere are fine, I guess. Making every business in this region put a rainbow in their window and changing the name of the Winter Market to "Zaidee's Rainbow Winter Market" last year was too much, and I'm not surprised so many businesses pulled out of the Winter Market. Currently, a supermarket chain are marketing "Zaidee's Rainbow Foundation Apples", grown "near to Zaidee's home town of <town>". Ooh, I wonder how you found these special apples grown near her home town. It's not like this region grows 80% of Australia's apples, or anything like that...
I know what she did was great and she did save a few lives, (even though she was too young to choose for herself so I'm pretty sure her parents are the heroes in that regard) but it's been 7 years. They need to stop plugging it so much. The charity attention is so ridiculously unbalanced here.

Sorry for the long vent, needed to get it off my chest. xD

Doing homework whole day--not cool nor fun.

It really amuses me how today I can be attracted to somebody and the next day, I don't give a flying f*ck about them. Probably has to do with their lying, being two-faced and stuff like that. The person I loved so much until pretty much the day before yesterday is no longer my interest. I swallowed A LOT of stuff from them (please, don't take it literally ) and I'm fed up. Just like that.

When is this heat going to let up? It's nearly October and it's over 100 out! Geez.

Some of the comments being made about women finally being allowed to serve on the front line of the Australian Defence Force are really sickening. Especially from women! How can people assume that EVERY SINGLE female acts a certain way or are automatically weaker and more emotional then EVERY SINGLE male? Are we really that backwards? What is or isn't dangling between your knees makes no difference. UGH. Things like this makes me ashamed to be Australian.

I want to slap whoever came up with the idea that women have no hips. Damn jeans, fit meeee!

I can truly say that I hate my World History teacher. How is it that in class, we're in Chapter 1, but at home, we're being tested on Chapter 2? This is his response "If you read the text, you should do fine." Um, no, buddy. If you discuss it in depth in class, you should do fine. I read the text 4 times already, and I don't get any of this. I'm not dropping out of this class, though, because that would be admitting defeat, and, as Charlie Sheen would say, "defeat is not an option." This dude doesn't even TALK about World History. These are our topics of discussion:
-How much he hates snow.
-How much he hates Disney reruns.
-A movie was shot at his college and it was all lies.
-How he wouldn't save his wife if he could save either a stripper or her. (This guy is an utter dickwad for that statement alone. Everything else is an added bonus.)
-And much, much more pointless bullshit.

As fascinating as his hatred of snow is, what is he truly being paid for: talking about snow or talking about World History? I'm guessing the latter, so this asshole better start doing his job or I swear I'll go apeshit.

...And that concludes your scheduled rant!

My geography teacher is not a nice person.

She treats everyone in class like a child when we're all technically adults apart from a couple of 17 year olds. She told my classmate, and quite loudly, that he should have his eyes tested and told him to move to the front of the class. I mean, fair enough, suggest that he moves to the front of class, but couldn't she have told him about getting his eyesight checked at the end of class or something?

Then today, my friend and I were walking around the building because we still had another 20 minutes until our class started. My friend and I happened to be walking through the staff carpark, which is somewhere you have to pass in order to do a full circle around the building and she turns around and says "you're not supposed to be back here" Good lord. We have gone around there so many times, many other teachers have been there too when we were walking through but they have never complained to us about walking by there. It's not like there is a secret staff room around there with all the answers to exams or something. It's a car park. Just like the student carpark on the other side. GAH.

She seems to take every opportunity that arises just to tell someone off. I would hate to be one of her kids, if she has any.

All the other teachers are such kind people, yes some may get agitated by certain students being disruptive, but they are actually likeable as human beings, they know when to get strict and how to make the class enjoyable. This woman is just grumpy all the blasted time. She is killing my enjoyment of geography, which is supposed to be my favourite subject.

Spent all day in hospital thanks to a faulty burette which imploded and got my arms covered in glass and sodium hydroxide. I ended up being cut pretty deeply, and it's still painful. Quite possibly the scariest moment of my life.

Just glad I don't have to pay for the burette, they're over £200..

Vent number 1: I have a horrible cold, my nose feels like something is constantly tickling it, runny, stuffy. Blech!

Vent number 2: I have the theme song of Sesame Street stuck in my head. Shoot me now.

People are unreliable.

Stop pulling on my bagstrap. Stop pulling on my arm and trying to force me to follow you. Stop trying to engage in a conversation with me and with me only. Stop stopping me from getting to know other people. Stop following me around. Stop waiting outside my classroom for me. Stop being so clingy.

I'm beginning to crack.

I'm absolutely exhausted, and I won't get much sleep until Sunday.

I woke up with cramps at 4AM and couldn't sleep for nearly an hour and a half, so I'm absolutely exhausted.

Was supposed to meet up with friends to go partying tonight and EVERY SINGLE ONE OF THEM bails to go watch a show on TV. So what do I do? Gather up my non-partying friends, crank some System of a Down and . . . they all sit around watching TV.

-headdesks- I CANNOT WIN.

The hard drive in my laptop died when Wheatley decided to knock it off the kitchen counter. I have lost all my pictures, my custom content and my writing, though I suppose the damage could have been worse.

EDIT: Someone accused my thinking as being "naive" (may I add they spelt it as "nieave") because I believe in equality. I seriously think that women can do more disservice to their own gender when they refuse to re-evaluate their thinking and buying into misogynistic points of view. I have my rage face on today.

Wow, nothing I ate today was even remotely healthy.

My tonsils hurt like crazy when I swallow (it went from mild stinging to unbearable hurting). My nose is fucked up, and I have fever. Kill me now.

First came sore throat, then came the cold I somehow caught and now fever. Great weekend.

My older half-sister's boyfriend is a mega dipshit. He just can't go a single day without causing mucho drama. Today's daily dose of drama was about how he's going to teach his son to be a bully. WHAT THE FUCK? I've been bullied many, many, many times, and it made me cry to think there are people like him who think that "the bullies in 2nd grade are the leaders 20 years from now". It completely boggles my mind! Also, he said (and I quote) "bullying is a part of life." No... it isn't a part of life. Is it in the rulebook that everyone must be bullied in order to pass through schooling? He's such an ignorant asshole. I don't understand what the FUCK my sister sees in him. He isn't good looking, that's for damn sure. Maybe it's just his money, but he isn't even rich, so that'll fade. He has no redeeming qualities about him. I honestly hope that for his son's sake that his ex-wife (who he knocked up way before marriage) gets custody of that kid, because he's a bad influence on ANYONE, especially a child.

Sorry about the very, very negative vent. This just got to me so hard, and I want to punch him in the face.... so hard....

I'm so steaming mad-- I got a C+ on my literature paper. The professor is such an unreasonable grader; it's not so much the ideas that she takes issue with as nitpicky differences between my diction and her narrow-minded view of the perfect writing style. I took a 400 level literature course at a local university in my hometown and got an A on my 40-page literary analysis paper; getting a C+ on a five-page literary analysis essay in a 200 level course seems a bit preposterous. However, perhaps I should be proud, seeing as no one in the class scored above a C+. As an educator, you're doing something wrong if a C+ is the best that anyone in a class of twenty-two people can do. I really hope my GPA can come back from this clusterfuck of a class.