My gosh, this is such a stupid vent considering everything that's happening in my life right now, but this girl in my Psychology class did an amazing oral presentation today, and I have no idea how to live up to that. The teacher told her afterwards that she'd be receiving a mark between 96% and 98% which is absolutely phenomenal. Ugh.

I'm crying right now when I saw this on Sims Secret. Oh my God. Who did this?

That's so rude! (I had to get a magnifying glass to read that and even then couldn't properly manage it so my friend read it out for me.) I can't believe that person (I'm going to hazard that it's a She because that just seems so catty) would compare what you're going through to that MJ person. I saw what that girl came up with :o

Try not to take it to heart, love. People who insult others by means of an anonymous website are completely insecure about themselves and to be perfectly frank, are utter plonkers.

I got a message on facebook from a girl I used to be very good friends with from ages 11-14 saying that she wants to see me. Her exact words were "I HAVE to see you." There is a reason we aren't friends anymore and she must realize that it's her fault. It's too long a story to explain what happened, but imagine being fourteen in an all girls school having your two best friends turn on you and accuse of things that you know you didn't do but which everyone else believes you did because there's two of them and only one of you. Girls in the year above me bullied me for the next year, they would follow me around at lunch shouting things and blocking doors so I couldn't get away from them, whisper things behind their hands while laughing at me, look at me like I was shit. The only person who said she believed me was my English teacher after I spent 20 minutes crying after knocking on her door to stop those girls from following me, because the only way they'd stop is if they thought a teacher was about to see them. In the end, after a year and a half, it turned out that it had been the other girl we were friends with who had done the thing everyone thought I'd done all along. One of the girls from the year above apologized to me like that was it and I was supposed to say 'Oh, okay, sure, I forgive you' and the girl that's messaged me tried to restart a friendship. So you can imagine how really I don't HAVE to see her.

The funniest part is that I don't want to reply saying that I don't want to see her because of all of this because I don't want to upset her or hurt her feelings so I know I'm going to end up replying saying that of course I'll meet up with her.

Anyone want to come forward and say why you disagree with my post above? i don't find it the slightest bit funny that someone is crying because of what one anonymous person has decided to say against her. It is sooo easy to laugh at someone when no-one knows who you are, isn't it? Everyone's a big tough guy when they're safely behind a keyboard.

People are douchebags. Just ignore them and don't try and create the inevitable drama. After all, this group is just a bunch of hormonal girls.

I agree-- that's absolutely ridiculous! People tend to forget that online insults can sting just as badly as they can in real life. Either way, it's not right to compare suffering, nor is it okay to judge another person's troubles as 'real' or 'fake' or 'funny' when you know nothing about their situation. Every single user on this site is a real person, with real feelings and real problems that deserve to be respected.

I'm really sorry, DigitalSympathies-- both for your original issue and that comment. I really hope you feel better soon.

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Thank you guys so much. I was really more upset over being compared with someone who made up these wild stories than the actual post on sims secret itself. I totally agree with Ranta here, and I can say for myself that you guys know I'm a real person and you know my story. Who would just go out without even knowing me and accuse me of something like this? Immature bastards. I know what I type may be a bit over-the-top sometimes but I have a lot of drama in my life . . . it's just the way I describe it, I guess.

^ Don't worry about it. If someone is sad enough to go trawling through the vent thread and go to the trouble of editing/submitting your post here then they should probably take a look at their own life.

My sister won't let me watch my fave movie,Interview With A Vampire, because she wants to watch HER show. She's been watching TV all day. I haven't gotten to watch any TV except when she was sleeping!

Apparently Harold Camping now believes the Rapture will occur on October 21st. Geez, why is this guy so eager for the world to end? I don't mean to offend anyone, but if he wants to meet God so soon.. there are other ways to do it.

EDIT: Taken directly from definition 5 of "moron" on Urbandictionary: "This refers to 90% of the population and there inability to make logical and common sense decisions." Yeah, that's not ironic at all.

Ah, but is it not a sin to take ones own life? He would get into trouble with God, whereas if the whole world ended, he'd preumably go up to heaven and God would be happy to see him.


...Or something along those lines

I'm so tired of feeling.

My brother won't be home for my graduation.

Someone stole my iPod at the gym.

Was that MJ person the girl on here who pretended to be a pregnant teenager who was carrying twins and then created loads of fake accounts and argued with herself?

If so, yeah... I don't really see how your post, DS, is anything like that. People are bastards.

Vent: Why am I so tired lately? I have the energy of a pregnant 90 year old. It's pathetic!

I have to write a senior column for the student newspaper about what journalism has meant to me. Only seniors who've worked on the paper for their entire high school career get to write one. I've been looking forward to this for four years, but now that I'm here, I have so much to say and only six hundred words in which to say it.

First day off in 5 days, getting the flu.

Aww! Feel better Dolly!

My vent: I want Friday to be here already! I want my 3 day weekend to be here now! (I'm off Monday! Woot Woot!)

Emily, I will bring you soup and tea and ANTM to watch until you are better :3

I love you

why do people instantly judge those that smoke pot?
All the groups on facebook about how it's disgusting? Its a personal choice. Yeah, it might not be an incredibly good choice, but technically pot hasn't got many negative health affects, and is much better for you than alcohol or coffee even .

I am sitting in the office feeling awkward in my own home. If your new boyfriend being here gets us in trouble again you can take all the wrap.

I hate when people are late and they don't bother to text you. My uncle was supposed to come over at 6.30, It is now 8pm and I am starving.

Last Oprah episode today :-(

I'm so exhausted emotionally, I spent most of the night crying with various friends. Two more days left of high school.

In two and a half weeks my friends and I will be moving out of my university accommodation to go back home. I can't believe how fast this has all gone. Today we wrote a list of all the things we had to do before we leave and there were so many last time things, like going to certain restaurants and college events for the last time ever, that it really started to hit home that we're graduating soon. I didn't really feel upset when I left high school because I always knew that I would be able to see my friends during school breaks, but this isn't the same as everyone will be in different places doing different things.

^ I'm with you on that one! It's horrible!

I had a... really strange dream last night. I don't even know what it was about, but it ended with a really cool sort of Harry Potter-esque battle scene between a giant spiked snake and.. a person, I think. Then for some reason, I was hugging a ghost of my dog.

What the hell?

Er, yeah, you could say that! Why did you have a knife thrown at you? :o

I'm really going to miss my High School career. Graduation is creeping up. I can't believe the day has finally come. My bestie is kind of disappointed, because I've decided not to go to San Diego State. I got accepted to UCLA.

I hate travelling, whether by car, train or plane, I always feel exhausted. Not to mention it's really hot today.

I keep mistyping...It's been a week since I typed anything...stupid exams.

It's kind of ironic how much effort it takes and how difficult it is to make my hair look good in a messy bun. I feel like ripping my hair out by the roots.

ETA: 20 minutes and 8 attempts later... I f'n give up.

I need energy . . . I just want to sleep but I NEED TO FILM THIS SHIT.

I graduate tomorrow and I have a really bad sunburn on my arms, chest/shoulders and a little bit on my face

I'm tired, but I can't fall asleep!! (It's midnight here)

I have so much hair. So. Much. Hair.

Swap? I regret every single day I wished for thinner hair.

Last night, two friends and I went to the downtown cinema to see a movie. The problem with going downtown is that it's tricky to navigate because it's all one-way streets. Because I know my way around better than the other two, I was the designated driver. On the way home, we turned onto a street and cruised for maybe ten feet before we saw lights approaching in the distance. One friend said, "Uh, are we on a one-way street?" The other friend chimed in with, "Yes, we are. And we're going the wrong way." After that, we all started screaming and panicking and I pulled over to the side before anything bad could happen. However, I've never been flipped off so much in my life. Once we got out of the way and came to a stop, we were all still flailing and screaming, and some biker on the sidewalk was standing there doubled over in laughter.

Fortunately, my parents weren't upset when I told them; in our city, it's an easy mistake to make because downtown is so convoluted. I'm really a very safe driver... this adventure kind of made me doubt that . The only problem is that my friends will never let it go :P.

In relation to yesterday's post.. why does doing my hair every day always have to be a freakin' battle?!

My bestfriend is acting like an asshole. She's pissed because I'm going to UCLA instead of San Diego State. If she were accepted to UCLA I would be HAPPY for her, I would be sad but HAPPY that she was even accepted. If she wants to be that way then it's perfectly fine, just don't talk to me anymore. But I think it's really such a douche thing to do when you're not happy that your friend was accepted into one of the top schools in California.

Rabid, the way you described that has created the most hilarious image in my head!

Dreamy, yeah that is pathetic. You're going off to college, it's unrealistic to expect that you'll go to the same school and she's being pretty selfish to be annoyed that you chose a better school over the one she's going to just because you'd be together. When you start college no one knows each other - it's part of the fun because it means that everyone is so open to meeting new people. Congratulations on getting in btw and try not let your friend's reaction put a damper on things because you will have an absolutely awesome time.

There is a giant flying bug that tries to commit suicide every night by flying into my window/screen over and over again for hours. He has yet to succeed.

I feel like my period is coming on. I just feel.. really weird in a bad way. Bleh.

So sleepy, so many assignments to do.

SimPE isn't working well, stupid plugin window ain't working. Guess I'll have to clean my room after all. *sigh*

Edit: My room gathers a horrendous amount of dust, it's not even possible and of course since it's my lucky day ; the vacuum isn't working and it blew a cloud of dust bunnies straight up my nose. Stupid desert climate.

Bad hair day, bleh. I can deal with my actual hair not doing what I want it to do, but when my bangs are screwed up, I always feel like there's nothing I can do to make it right. Pinning them back or to the side looks terrible.

Holy crow, why are sims 3 patch updates so big?!

ETA: Anddd after 45 minutes of waiting... "Error loading patch." So I get to do it all over again. Woo-freakin-hoo.
ETA again: AGAIN! I give up. I guess I don't get to use any custom content/mods this time around (and the game pretty much lacks without it). Argh...

I've completely lost my appetite recently and I have no idea why. I've been forcing myself to keep having meals when I don't really want them but I've had to leave food from virtually every meal this week because I feel so full that I think I might be sick if I ate anymore. Ordinarily I'm the type of person who almost always clears a plate and even if I start to feel full and think I've probably eaten enough I tend to finish meals rather than leave a bit on my plate, because it feels like such a waste. It's really irritating me.

Edit: I just did one of those online symptom checker things and it told me I have postpartum depression.

Going to go and murder some sims to feel better .... alright, not murder them. Hell I can't even make their lives a misery without feeling bad. Lol. Ahwell, it's theraputic even if they don't die

I wish my "mother" would just stay out of my life. /sigh

My Psychology teacher decided to move my presentation, which was supposed to be on Thursday, to tomorrow, which means I'm stressing because it's nowhere near finished. Ugh.

My friend gave me his unused extra copy of Glamour Life Stuff and the disc wouldn't read, so I went to go download it from the EADM and it says the code is not valid or something. *headdesks* Whyyyyyyyyyyyyyy~

My mouse will soon be buried in the graveyard of all things awesome. It's squeaking and I can hardly double click anything, why do all good looking things go? why?!

Excuse me, I need a moment.

My mother is in another one of her charming moods. She hasn't been like this for a while, huh.

Apparently I'm psychic.

Just want my boyfriend home with dinner. I am cold & sick & hungry

I'm SO cold. I don't think I've been properly warm since Saturday morning when I was all toasty in bed.

My glasses snapped in half so now I have to go around like Harry Potter for the next week. Which would be awesome but I really did love my glasses. *sigh*

If period cramps could be relieved the same way normal aches can, I think being a girl would be a hell of a lot easier.

Woke up to a murder scene in my pants. o.o

cupcake, Pamprin Maximum Relief works wonders!

Why can't people act their age? Tonight two of my housemates and I had a friend over to watch a movie. After it finished we spent two hours talking and while we were talking our other housemate got back from work. She sat down and joined in the conversation a little, but literally as soon as our friend left she stood up, stormed up the stairs and we could hear her slam her bedroom door. The amount of times I have heard that door slam is just unbelievable considering she's 21. Sure, when I was thirteen I'd slam my bedroom door after an argument with my parents, but I grew out of that pretty quickly. I don't know what our supposed crime is now and I don't really care. She just comes off as an immature idiot when she does this; none of us care why she's upset because it will only be over something ridiculous and we're not all going to follow her, desperate to make amends. Why hasn't she figured out that she's just spiting herself and making us all dislike her? People don't want to be friends with people like that because it takes too much energy to be constantly asking someone what's wrong and if they're okay and blah blah blah.

I've had an English teacher for the past two years who has taught me so, so much. He supported me hugely within the department and wrote me a letter of recommendation stating that he's never had a student as talented as I am. It's not uncommon to invite meaningful teachers to graduation parties, so my parents told me to give him an invitation to mine, but it just makes me nervous. This teacher is one of those hip young teachers that has close, buddy-buddy relationships with a lot of students. I know that he thinks incredibly highly of me, but I just don't feel like we have the relationship that would warrant an invitation. I talk to him about books during classtime and we have a strong academic bond; I don't hang out in his room during passing periods and talk to him about the meaning of life like other students do. I know that I'll end up inviting him because my parents will kill me if I don't, but it's going to be so awkward.

My high school Latin teacher's partner has hanged himself in the woods surrounding the school and she was the one who found him. I feel just awful for her. I haven't really spoken to her in the past year but we used to talk quite often, especially while I was still at school, and she was always very kind to me. She wrote me a wonderful reference when I was applying to universities and was always encouraging and willing to listen. She used to talk about him in classes frequently and I never would have imagined that he was depressed. Now I understand things much more. I really wish this hadn't happened to her.

My friend always leaves every assignment to the last possible moment, and then uses it as an excuse to be incredibly bitchy. She's had almost seven weeks to work on a presentation for Psychology, and she only just started tonight. These presentations are about 20 minutes long and require the use of powerpoints, handouts, class activities, and giving a mini-lesson, so they're very stressful. I don't see how she can manage to leave it to the last minute and then use it to justify her bitchiness. Last night I was stressing about mine because my teacher moved my presentation forward to today, but I was still forced to help her through all her petty relationship issues. Tonight, I need to ask her one very important question, and she immediately bites my head off and says she's "way too busy to deal with my shit." Hm. Charming.

Gack, 'here' doesn't look like a word anymore.

I feel so lazy, tired and dizzy. Curse you hot weather!

It sucks when it's hot and humid, you take a shower, and you're sweaty again before you even start getting dressed. Yuck.

*Insert going for a drive for no other purpose than to just to ride in an air-conditioned car here*

My dog nearly gave me a heart attack today. He almost ran into the street in front of a moving car. Needless to say his punishment is that he won't be roaming outside without a leash for the rest of the year!

My friends are fucking idiots sometimes. We went for a drink tonight and during the thirty seconds it took me to order my drink at the bar they'd started talking to some guys. I didn't really mind sitting with said guys and talking to them, but after a while I was really ready to leave, especially as I was tired anyway. My friends thought it would be a great idea to leave too, only unlike me they wanted to leave with these guys we'd known all of two hours. So there we are heading in the direction of home and I tried to steer us towards the well-lit route with cars passing by but my friend shouts out "This isn't the way we usually walk, we normally go that way!" and points at the dark, deserted narrow road that is fine to walk down during the day, but isn't really the way you'd want to walk at night with three strangers. I pretty much forced us to go the well-lit way, hissing at her to shut up, but as we got near to our house she starts saying over and over "That's our house, that's where we live!" I just want to tell her to shut the hell up but it was too late by then because they had already heard her. After making sure they knew where we lived my friends then insisted that we went back to one of the boy's houses. Obviously we're all still alive, but how stupid can you get?!!

I am just so angry. Why do they have to have such big mouths?

I got a grand total of about 1 hour of sleep last night. It was just too damn hot, even though I had a fan on.

On another note, for a guy who was so urgent for me to text him, it's really hard to keep a conversation going when I'm doing all the talking and he just sends 1-3 word replies. Or else the convo goes like this:

(After not talking all day) Him: Hey
Me: Hey! What's goin' on?
Him: Just getting ready to [go somewhere, do something], bye

Really?.. why bother texting me in the first place then?

Why do I care what people think? Why can't I do something without thinking how everybody I know might react? I know it's nice and polite to think of how others might like or dislike the things you might do but it still aches me to do that, not to mention the awful stress it puts upon me.
Bloody hell.

So sitting in the kitchen five minutes ago with my friend discussing last night and the stupidity of telling three strange boys where we live, we hear a knock at the front door. It doesn't take a genius to work out who was at the door. My friend started freaking out and despite me telling her to just stay in the kitchen and wait for them to leave she kept pushing open the kitchen door to peer through the living room window to see who was there and if they were gone yet. Naturally, not being blind, they saw her. Eventually they did go away but they don't exactly live far from us so it's not like they can't come back or we won't run into them by chance.

So yeah, this is great, just great.

We've had no water for 13 hours. And it's not going to be back any time soon! D:

As if the door knocking wasn't bad enough, about half an hour after that post we started walking to campus and this car pulls past us, does a u-turn and drives back past before stopping and it's them. JESUS, I literally never want to leave the house again. One of them bullied us into agreeing to go for a drink with the three of them, and then they proceeded to be an hour late for this drink. While having the drink a number of disturbing remarks were made, including:
"I've seen you loads of times this year, even though you haven't seen me"
"We went looking for a corpse earlier"
"Would you rather lose one of your arms or both your legs...that isn't a threat..."
"I tried to climb through your window earlier...I reckon I could do it, don't you?"

On the positive side of things, I think they might leave us alone now.

I had a dream that my dad was shot to death in front of me.

What the hell brain?!

On the bright side, I woke up before I got raped. Whee.

I'm supposed to go out for a drink with this guy who used to mean the world to me, and I'm pretty sure our conversation will get pretty awkward, but what I'm the most afraid of is that it might not happen at all.

My Harry Potter and the OOTP book is really dirty on the outside from sharing a closet for about 4 months with some flower pots, and whenever I open it dirt falls into my lap. Great. Just great.

My mom finds the absolute DUMBEST things to start a fight over. God forbid her husband work and make money for an extra 3 hours on Friday. "So I have to make my own dinner and eat by myself?" And of course that has blown up into absolute ridiculousness.

ETA: Oh my lord... I love my mom but relationship wise she gets more pathetic every day.

Nightmares aside, I walked in two puddles of dog pee today.

That awkward moment when you're trying to impress a guy who values good spelling and grammar, and you spell the same word incorrectly twice in the same sentence -.-

I was walking home from campus with a friend when a van drove past. A few minutes later it drove past again and this time the charming man in the passenger side made a vulgar gesture involving moving his hands up and down towards his mouth...I imagine I don't need to spell it out. The van then turned in the road and drive back past us, this time stoppping. The driver apologized for his friend's behavior only to then ask us if we we would do the act which his friend was gesturing before and if we wanted "the best sex of our lives" and to "experiment in the back of the van". As you can probably imagine, tempting as the offer was, we did not want to get into the back of a van with these two strange and frankly unattractive men. In what world did they think we'd have said "Oh, go on then"?! What was the point in them being total assholes and making us feel incredibly uncomfortable and nervous? Had they looked in the mirror lately? They weren't what I'd call a catch. They weren't what anyone would call a catch.

some people have some nerve!

There was a moth in my room flying around erratically, I swear they always try and attack me. I turned around from my computer and it was racing towards my face, I quickly threw a cushion at it. I'm such a wimp when it comes to insects.

One of my friends, also my boyfriends best friend, is leaving for Marine bootcamp in July. I can't imagine someone like Aaron being "battle ready" and after watching the bootcamp videos online and seeing things like the bayonet assault course, i really don't want it to happen. I know Derek and I have to support his decision as his friends, but it's extremely scary.

Stomachache all day.

^ Eat a banana. It helps me every time I have a stomach ache and/or cramps, more than anything else.

Me? I can't focus on anything. GAH.

I was carrying my laptop and managed to fall down some stairs, consequently sort of chipping part of one of the corners. It's not noticeable or a real issue, but ugh. Plus, my tailbone is killing me now.

Waaaaaaa I've officially finished uni I don't like it. Went out last night and said goodbye to everyone and now it's all sad and scary.

Goodybe, studenthood. Hello, unemployment.

El-flel, I know how you feel (Edit: heh, I just noticed your signature-- my name is Ellen, too!). A week from now I'll be totally done with high school, and in less than three months I'll be moving away for university. I'm excited, but it's all happening way too fast. I've made so many amazing new friends this year, most of whom are in younger grades, and I'm nowhere near ready to say goodbye to them yet.

This sucks.

^I'm going through the exact same thing.

Ugh, the past 2 days it's been horribly hot here. In hot weather my back aches, and I get awful migraines. I wish I could just go out and enjoy the sun, rather than feeling like shit all day

I'm in the exact same situation, and I agree with your sentiments. I'm excited to move forward, meet new people, and take one step closer to realizing my career dreams, but I'm going to miss everyone left behind.

A separate but related vent: I feel like I'm the only person I know who will genuinely miss his/her parents upon leaving for college. Most of my peers can't wait to get out from under their parents' thumbs; they talk constantly about all of the exciting things they'll do without their parents around to forbid anything. Perhaps I feel differently because my parents have never been unreasonably strict and I've never been horrifically embarrassed of them like so many of my peers. I think that I see my parents as wonderful friends, whereas most people my age see them as nuisances. Don't get me wrong, I'm excited to start a new chapter of my life by living alone, but I just know that I'll be that kid bawling while hugging the parents goodbye on move-in day. I don't understand how seemingly everyone else can be so insensitive.

I had to stick my hand into the toilet cistern today because my friend came to me to tell me it wouldn't flush and apparently I'm the go-to person for plumbing problems now. On the bright side I could have a second career as a plumber now, as I managed to fix it.

If exams won't kill me, revision will first...

Loud music shouldn't be allowed when idling your car RIGHT OUT FRONT OF MY ROOM, ASSHOLE.

EDIT: Oh, look! I have a black family in my game, that lives in a nice house and has top-level jobs. That doesn't warrant a call of "those people are just selling out", Mr. Friend, thank you very much. Ugh. People can be ignorant assholes. I like to have a racial mix in my game, not racist stereotypes.

Just finished having an interesting conversation with my friends and I against these three guys. Okay, so we're watching the MTV Movie Awards and they played the clip from Black Swan when Mila Kunis and Natalie Portman were getting all hot and heavy with each other, and Taylor Lautner and Jason Sudeikis were watching them make out. My thing is, if men enjoy women on women action, what makes them think we don't enjoy a good man on man action?

I mean seriously... all we get from men in movies are little smooches. As my friend said, "you gotta meet us halfway here guys "

So I woke up this morning with something in my eye that wouldn't go away. My dad thinks it was a blister or something. So I went back to sleep and now the pain is gone, but my right eye is all blurry. Whee.

Trying to finish a 100 question review sheet for Social Studies. Question 27... joyus!

My left arm is aching badly.

I locked myself out of my house without my car keys when I left for work this afternoon and the rest of the day was just hellish.