You are doing the right thing- ignore them! I'll give you a good comment to counteract the bad- I think you are a nice person and you work hard to be a better person. If we met in real life perhaps we would be friends!
Hope that makes you feel better!

Thanks...I had an otherwise happy birthday. Besides, it's not my first rodeo when it came to dealing with trolls, the rude, and flame wars.

Highly amused by the jeans I ordered mostly out of curiosity cos they don't sell the women's ones here. I got me 2 pairs from Brand1 and 5 pairs from Brand2.

Brand1 jeans were not a success - they should've been because both were my size but neither fit. They were also hilairously short
Brand2 jeans were interesting. Pair1 I got in 2 different sizes they both fit well so I'll need to pick one. Pair2 was also 2 different pairs but pair A was much too big and pair B had a major fault cos 1 leg was much narrower than the other (who needs their blood to flow?). Pair3 was good too but I'm just not sure I like it enough so that's going back too.

I just want real jeans that can live 10 or more years without losing thier shape you know? Like sure stretchy jeans are cool and all but have you had jeans worn soft that can hold themselves together???

Took a shower for the first time in a while...I had been spending time caring for my parents, especially since Q4 sales are going to pick up in November. My parents work in retail stores and distribution centers, so I may have to learn about dinner prep.

Otherwise, I took a good nap.

Wedding (2nd this year). Ate too much food/cakes, had some good laughs, and all in all had a great time.

(Despite the "cursed" week leading up to the wedding - at least 5+people getting hurt or being sick, and several trips to the hospital between them)

Part of the list of things we needed to get done yesterday was to bring the pigs to the vets for nail trims. Both of them are fine; it was a tech appointment.

I warned the tech that was going to be doing their nails that Cole is a drama queen. Doing something as simple as putting him on a scale in a vet office environment sets him off. I don't know why as I weigh him here at home and he doesn't do that. I digress.

They brought him to the treatment room to do his nails and weigh him. He wasn't back there for a full minute before he started screeching. He could be heard over a waiting room of 4 dogs of various sizes, phones ringing, talking from exam rooms, ect... It was so bad another tech came out to tell me that he was just sitting on a towel on the exam room table and screeching letting everybody know that he's mad. I explained that I did tell the tech that took him that he was a drama queen. Whether she believed me or not, I don't know but she found out first hand that I wasn't lying.

Lincoln on the other hand just put up with the scale and the nail trim without all the noise and drama.

If guinea pigs held grudges, I would say the show Cole put on was carry-over from Friday as both of them had a bath and blow dry. Both of them were mad at me until right before it was time for their bed time treat. I don't think pigs hold grudges for 24-plus hours though.

The commentary will be interesting the next time they have to go for nail trims.

Not in a mood to talk.

So much on my mind lately.

Not worth talking about.

It was, once again, time for me to ask the community outreach center to send out a message to donors (which I was blatantly honest about the facts about my situation) so they could send me a gift card for a meal at a restaurant or a shopping trip online. It wasn't crowded so we were in and out before our originally scheduled appointment.

On the way to and from the center, we saw about 5-7 deer that were hit by trucks.

(The mating season, scientifically known as rutting season in terms of deer biology, is currently in full swing.)

I did my chores after lunch. I am currently relaxing after one of many office visits. Tomorrow, a house inspector is coming to take a look at the house (tax purposes, my grandfather has this covered under the number of houses under his estate).

Better not screw up tomorrow.

Today is therapy day.

Not much of a fan to expose an underbelly of any sorts. But it's needed to help alleviate my problems. I got more than two problems.

This is another day for me, but my mom's official birthday is today. I have been 37 for a week and currently I feel like I am fatigued by the whole world situation.

I decided to give her a bag of Swedish Fish (her favorite candy) as a day-of gift. I was on DoorDash. Turned out the reason my garbanzo puffs weren't there was the shop was out of stock.

But I did sign up for a discount for delivery (I monthly, or even fortnightly, have something DoorDashed, depending on how much I have on hand.)

On a perfect week of oral hygiene ($14) and kitchen duties ($25) combined, I make $39 total in pocket change (compared to the monthly check).

The $14 is incentive enough to keep teeth in my mouth when I go for sedation dentistry and go under.

Before they started last time, I shouted "No Fentanyl!" I was scared while on the table, but my rights as a patient were honored. I have parents with addiction as part of their traits, so I was scared of the idea of fentanyl as it's highly potent.

But otherwise, $39 is okay with me, I don't mind the money for dishes and dental routines.

Today, I have received $150 in checks from my grandparents and my aunt LuAnne.

Spent it on rainbow boba, the complete Captain Planet Franchise (two series were made in the 1990s), a Taco Bell lunch and I resumed my subscription to club hismile for my toothpaste of the month. November is Passion Fruit...

I did the dishes when I finished eating every time and eventually ran the dishwasher. I am waiting for a package of animal shapes pasta (like those kids' Mac and Cheese kits), cheese sauce powder and and the remaining hair extensions in pink.

Tomorrow, the Amazon driver will be very worn out when they deliver the majority of yesterday's orders sent out.

Great day. Halloween was so wonderful, I love the little village we moved to last year. We went out at around 5 and weren't back until 7, the kids buckets were full to the brims with sweets and toys. In our old house there weren't many houses to trick or treat at because most people didn't participate and there weren't many houses about outside of our cul-de-sac.

Also, this made my day: My son (2.5) went to the first house, which was our neighbours next-door-but-one, and he just ran straight into their house as they opened the door. I called his name a few times but then I had to go into their house to get him and he's sat there in their living room playing with a wooden garage and cars. I had to pull him away and guide him out the door... then he quickly did a U-turn, ran into their kitchen and asked the other neighbour who was cooking what was for dinner It was so embarrassing but also I was literally crying with laughter. Luckily the neighbours thought it was funny too, turns out they had made special gift bags for my kids (even though they've only ever met them in passing)

Rough day to start. My left eye is irritated and I have to come up with 19 ideal droids with personality.

It has been a chill Saturday for the most part.

We went to Lowe's for a couple 5-gallon jugs of water. Of course we had to check out the plant section. They had a Hoya wayetii on clearance for $7.00, so I snagged it. Our local Lowe's kills plants with too much water. Since Hoya wayetii don't like a lot of water, I took the plant out of the pot when I got home and wrapped the soil with paper towel. I'll leave the plant that way for a couple of days or until the soil is no longer soggy.

After that, Dingus wanted to go to the bookstore, so we went to Barnes and Noble. They were having a thing where a customer could purchase a children's book; Barnes would in return donate said book. I used my $5.00 credit to buy a copy of Goodnight Moon so they could donate it.

Other that, it has been a uneventful day.

As far as this weekend will go, the world situation, such as the flood situation in Spain, is bleak looking.

Where I live, before a storm hits, road crews come to areas with tons of branches tangled in wires and cut them off, some times, the entire top of the tree or major branches are felled in a way in order to prevent downed wires, unwanted wild fires or both. Lately, we are in the middle of a dry autumn. Without any rain, even one careless flick of a cigarette coal and we're set ablaze.

My father was slammed near the end of work last night, when the people came in droves. He was...well, baffled, at best.

My mother dealt with waves of surges and the eventual trickle of merchandise to pick, put, and pack.

At least I have an idea on what to buy them for the "cake and cuppa" (it's not always cake, but it's always a dessert paired with coffee or tea.)

Went to the doctor about my implant. Aside from a battery inspection next year, I was in and out in a rather short time compared to the wait.

On the way back, at the convenience store\gas station, I went to pick up a snack and drink. When I went to get a Coke from the fountain, I got sprayed in Coke syrup. I decided to go with Pepsi and I was able to pick up salt and pepper kettle chips. I alerted the man at the counter that the Coke option was not functioning and shown my hoodie was covered in Coke syrup.

I came home to my packages.

I got:
*A set of 2 bracelets couples would share
*Special Healthcare items
*Snacks
*My dishmatic

Waiting for today:
*White cake mix (currently planning to make a bunch of cupcakes.)

My cat was just watching a squirrel that was on the deck landing.

Just so much nervous...if I am not here for a few days, take the assumption I am in a state of anxiety where I have completely withdrawn.

The world situation is just driving me nuts.

I'm back...and my nephrologist raised her voice at me, which triggered me to cry (it stems from a bad memory). If she was trying to tell me what not to eat, she should use a gentle voice.

I was about to throw out all my cooking and baking projects, but my father told me that's a waste of money. So I am stuck with food I'm not allowed to eat because the healthy food I was to eat is constantly getting recalled due to mishandling and the lack of oversight committees.

Hello. After a messy couple of days, I am going to attempt making a bunch of cupcakes 🧁. (I bought 30 eggs and I won't let them go rotten.)

I have baked cakes before and I plan to make them colorful.

For now, I am trying not to lose hope in life. Even with the grim world situation, I am going to start creating more art again.

15:00
I just finished the dishes and had a nap. Forgot how tiring and messy baking cupcakes was.

Out of stress, I almost ate the 15 I baked...

In regards to my health, I am under stress and would need to get the cortisol test again to see how bad that is. It would have been done last year, but my parents kept forgetting about returning the kit, even if it was in plain sight that it could bite them.

Well, I am doing fine with my kitchen porter gig. $39\week may seem like pocket change, but I like having a chance to earn spending cash.

With my club hismile discount, they're selling all kinds of toothpaste for around half price. Apple Pie, Lychee, Matcha, Rainbow Straps (like sour belts) Red Frog (Australian candy) and Cheesecake.

They have about 50 wacky flavors compared to standard toothpastes. It's wild...

I can only pray I don't injure myself during my break like last year on Thanksgiving Eve.

Right now? I have been waiting on a few deliveries from Australia.

I also had been sleeping off the anxiety of being told to flush out sugar and salt by a doctor who yelled at me. I currently am drinking water with the essence of fruit. I think I will change nephrologists. (My last one had horrific bedside manner. The way she yelled at me came out of left field. Did not see it coming at all.)

Came back from another doctor. I am going to be seeing a pulmonologist and a new nephrologist, along with my old endocrinologist and my psychiatrist. (my father is willing to drive far out of town if it means better healthcare for me.)

I foresee more doctor appointments in my foreseeable future.

18:45
Today, I bought 3 cucumbers, 5 lemons and a dragonfruit from my nearby grocery store. For $10 total of produce, considering that dragonfruit is imported, it was a decent price.

I had lemon water, cucumber chips and currently freezing dragonfruit blended with 2 tablespoons of sugar. Of course, I was attempting to make a sorbet, but it was a failure due to lack of clean vessels for freezing. I found my ice pop molds and made 4 ice pops as that was all I had.

Of course, I would have to probably test to see if I should fine tune that recipe.

Not much happened today. Phone calls were made, dishes were ran through the dishwasher, experimented with coloring pasta. (Note: use more food dye when boiling.)

I tried out the dragonfruit ice pops and I think I should have used a bit more sugar. It wasn't balanced enough.

I wrote down my appointments for the new doctors so I can get it to my father.

I actually have been getting more confident in scheduling appointments with my doctors.

"Phyllis, Mabel, I think I can handle the phone calls today, take your lunch breaks for as long as you need."