Nicked my thumb on something while out gardening/mowing the lawn/cleaning the lawnmower. Didn't feel anything until I washed my hands, so I have no clue when it happened. Was wearing some plastic gloves (mostly to keep dirt and grass off my fingers, not for protection), so whatever it was probably went straight through.

Anyway, I'm in the process of changing workplace (working within the same overarching setting, but in a different place and with a diifferent client group, so to speak), but it's looking like July and August are going to be a bit of a void in that I have little to no clue what's going to happen (directly before the summer holiday was perhaps not the best time, as it's not been quite an A4 way to change job, and everyone is either currently on holiday or going on holiday). My job situation is probably going to get a bit more stable after the summer, though. Just have to sort out some things, because communication is lacking (not surprised there, though). I hate having to sort out things... :/

I had a shit day.

I was to fast for a blood draw as part of pre-op, which I nearly lost my cool over some mother not keeping her kids in line, and when I finally went to get examined, I had a panic attack.

Worse, I was informed I have an AV block, which means my heart has electric abnormalities. It's benign, but I have to go to cardiology tomorrow to get a doctor to give the doctor a second opinion.

Worse. I think I am about to get my period and the restless night and fasting was just brutal.

I was just not myself.

Update: Went to the cardiologist. Turned out one of my meds was screwing with the results of my EKG. The AI was still learning.

I don't have any issues with my heart as far as it racing in fear or extreme emotional reaction

I was able to pick up something to eat. Also had my once a week caffeine boost.

I cleared the first round of appointments. Round 2 is next week.

I also have to call about my meds for my PCOS as I am skeptical about them. They don't look like my normal ones. I better do that in the morning.

Diagnosed as breast cancer(worse thing(?) is, targeted therapy won't work due to its type I forgot what-it-is, so I'll get surgery next week).

Best of luck with surgery and have a speedy recovery.

Mom came home with gastritis, a swollen lymph node, antibiotics, the list went on of how she made herself sick and what is needed to feel better.

That's another thing to dread beyond surgery on my mouth.

Yeah. My teeth need work.

Oh no, I hope things go well for you and that the surgery is successful. Best wishes to you.

Stressful day. Went to pick up pups from the kennel where they had spent the weekend. They had just been groomed, but I never ordered that. In fact, when asked, I said, "No, no grooming!". They had never been professionally groomed before. Because it's a small family business, I paid for it, even though they offered to not charge me. But then I noticed one of my dogs had a very red eye as I put him in the car. My regular vet is on vacation, so I had to find an urgent/emergency care place. When we got there, the other eye turned red. This isn't red as in lack of sleep, allergies, or conjunctivitis. It looked like head trauma. - bright deep red where the whites should be. The emergency vet ruled out all serious possibilities (thank God!) and landed on stress to the throat/trachea with the result of bruising in the eyes. Probably from fighting against restraints while being groomed. The dog was so stressed. He was whining and unsettled until we finally got back into the car (2 1/2 hours after getting to the emergency vets). He immediately crumpled on the back seat. Needless to say, I was stressed too. Lost a day and a lot of money. Pup is ok, he will heal. I have to figure out what to say to the owner of the kennel since he hires people to come and groom.

My pre-op results came back and the way they made it sound, it sounded like cancer.

I was so happy to go shopping again...then the crow, seagull and pigeon of chaos crapped all over my good mood.

Had a mostly alright day at work today, if a bit long. But really tired. Yesterday was... Ugh.

Was yelled at this morning, but not unusual with that particular client. And I'm almost convinced a couple clients really don't like me, or at least that they've decided to not listen to me - but I'm new and communication (or lack thereof) is a big issue, so I'm giving it a pass for now. Hopefully things get a bit better when we get to know each other.

Rough start, I guess...

Visited hospital for checkup. Heard one of removed tumors from right breast was cancerous. So additional surgery is planned next week. Looks like more tissues are going to be replaced with some fillers.

Good that they got your results quickly and can take more action. I hope it all goes well, and that you aren't in too much pain or distress. Sending hugs!

Ugh. My sister posted on Facebook about how she's having trouble with my step-Dad to step up and be a Dad (she raises my younger half-siblings since my Mum's passing 11 years ago). Which I mean, is bad... but what annoyed me was all the comments saying how amazing she is for raising 4 kids on her own. 4. She did not correct any one of them that she hasn't been raising the oldest of my younger siblings in about 9 years. She sent him off to live with me because he was "too difficult" almost a decade ago, never once asked about him, and even now while he struggles through a neurodegenerative disease in his early twenties (which he did not want the family knowing about) she recently went and told my cousin and his wife that "he's crazy and lives in a mental home" when they asked about him. I'm very close to my cousin and his wife too, so clearly if I hadn't told them then maybe I didn't see any reason for them to know that and it wasn't for her to say

I dunno. Maybe I'm overreacting. I'm just very defensive about my brother. Especially the way she talks about him and would treat him when he was in her care and it kinda caught me off guard today when my cousin's wife asked about it. His diagnosis, the process of getting a diagnosis, and how much he has deteriorated in the past 2 years alone is a bit of a sore spot for me.

I'm sorry to hear about your brother, I remember you talking about him. You did so much for him and were there when he needed family. Try to ignore your relatives! Who needs 'em.

I hope you are keeping well too!

Thank you, he's on a medication that seems to be working really well with his tremors and his mobility has improved. He's doing really well, which made my sister's comment about him really off-handed. Luckily when I explained to my cousin and his wife they understood, respected my brothers privacy and were also disgusted by my sisters comments.

Otherwise, we are all doing well.