Not much happened today.

I did some chores and had some takeout.

For now, I'm just trying to get through today as tomorrow is mailbag day for me.

Today, I am worn out from caring for my father, who got some form of respiratory "ick". He is attempting to get sleep after the rough night he had last night.

I feel bad when I can't help the people in my life that matter. My dad may have been a professional chauffeur and puts those skills to good use when I need a ride to the doctors I see.

He does more than that. He tends to overextend to help others. He would do anything to get smiles from those he cares about.

Goodbye 2024, although I think there are going to be some repeat performances in 2025. The BS is starting today, New Year's Eve day. Last year [ 2024] the new year rang with with credit card fraud. I will be checking for that tomorrow. I digress.

I checked my email this morning. There was a thing from the doctors billing office saying I owe a co-pay. I called and asked what the the co-pay for as I paid said co-pay when I arrived for my Nov appointment. They insisted that I still owe them money. I let them know that I'd get back to them after calling the insurance company.

I called the insurance company. I asked if there was a additional charge beyond the co-pay; they told me no.

I logged into my credit card account, found the charge. I paid my bill for the Nov appointment the day it happened. The doctors office didn't get around to putting the charge through until just over a week ago.

I called the billing office again. Explained that I just got off the phone with the insurance company and told them the date they [ the billing office] put the charge though. Then asked again what was the co-pay for.

The story went from I owed them money to now I owe them nothing. Not even 10 minutes prior they insisted I owe them, but now I don't. I was then told the charge was written off. In other words, somebody didn't do their job. They figured I'd just roll over and pay them a second time and not question anything. Now I have a second email stating my balance is zero after asking them to send me a physical bill.

Around and around we go. It is so unnecessary but because they are corporate owned, they think people will just bow down and kiss their asses. I'm sure plenty of people do that as they wouldn't do this and think they could get away with it otherwise, however, I'm not one of those people. The bill was paid, the laziness on their end is not my problem.

EDIT: Our dryer died. I don't leave the house on New Year's anything because drunk drivers. I guess we're making use of the drying racks until further notice.

New Years Eve Day has me throwing out trash, setting up electronics, washing dishes, getting special gifts in the mail with gift money from family, preparing items for donations.

Essentially purging out what is no longer needed so someone else can make use of it in their lives, while upgrading to do more with my life.

The whole family is going on a diet and I am serious about it. Our last meal from a fast food restaurant is going to be KFC...I missed eating it for Christmas because I had a thing of potatoes that put me in a carb coma.

So even if the tradition of Christmas KFC is off by a week, we are starting a new year. Although I stress ate during 2024, I have a team of 20 doctors watching me, and within reach via speed dial.

I am learning to let go of certain issues I have little to no control on.

I've decided this year to focus on my physical health. I've been doing a fundraising challenge for a mental health organisation called "Move for Mind" where you exercise for 31 minutes per day for the 31 days of January. Finally got my first donation today after sulking about it for the past week that of all my friends, I've been promoting it the most and I'm the only one with 0 donations. I've done 21 minutes of exercise today already (just walking to/from the shops) but I'm probably gonna go for a run later. If anyone has any other exercise ideas that don't involve going to the gym or using any specialised equipment I'm all ears

I'm still getting over the New Year's hangover of sleep deprivation.

Lately, I plan on working on my healthcare regimen. I still have cleaning to do. I have a clear sink. I am still aching.

My parents are finally getting around to fixing my bed as it shifts as I thrash in my sleep.

For now, I am taking it easy today. No rush to my work. I don't have any places to be right now. I have my first doctor appointment of the year on Monday.

We ventured out of the house while the sun was still out.

Our dryer that died is at least 14 years old. When we went to buy a new one, companies now charge $25.00 for a cord. Well, that is how much a 3 prong cord is. I have no idea what a 4 prong cord would cost.

I don't plan on buying another dryer any time soon, but when did the collective we as a society get to the point of having to pay extra for a electrical cord for a major appliance? Clearly I missed the memo on that one.

Then we went to the 'clean' Target. It wasn't as clean as it typically is, but it is after Christmas and all the vultures are out trying to 'get a deal' on Christmas stuff whether that be bins and totes, decor, wrapping paper... whatever. Anywho... Our kitchen timer died, the pigs' treat container broke and I want to be done with the bathroom closet. A couple more bins, then I can scratch that project off the To-Do list.



If you do a search on YouTube, you can find all kinds of free workouts there. There is cardio, body weight workouts, ect... If you do come across one that requires a light weight, use something like soup cans. Jumping rope or skipping is also a good workout. The only requirement is a jump rope.

I caught the "ick" from my father. I am so sore that I spent half of the day asleep. My big archival project is on hold at about 6.8% complete. Regardless of my new year cleaning and changes, not much happened today.

But at least I slept well last night.

I didn't started feeling bad until I got up from my chair in the kitchen.

I have an upcoming psych eval and I'm wondering if I'll get an official and professional diagnosis for Autism. So far the woman interviewing me said it definitely seems like I have Autism. As far as jobs go it's a difficulty, not so much of the job in and of itself, but mainly the PEOPLE.

When she quickly mentioned that Autism is a disability...well though I wanted to argue the opposite there's no reason to when the medical community is taught that by matrix system. I don't have any issues doing most jobs, the issue is always the same with being the one most take their anger and frustration out on. The one to verbally and/or psychologically abuse or sexually harass. So I tend to quit because I deserve respect than to be treated lower than dirt. So no, I don't have a disability, the world has a disability and is mentally ill and not even aware of it. Because the world goes by what is good is evil and what is evil is good. But few know and live by good is good and evil is evil.

So far being self-diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome and OCD/Staring OCD; there isn't much, if anything, that I cannot do. But here lies the issue since I have a strong sense of right and wrong and I am among the rare for being my authentic self instead of changing who I am just to fit in; I refuse to conform to the hive mind matrix system and thus I'm fortunately forever an outcast however intentionally so wrongfully labelled as "Disabled". But there's something else about my autism, a gift, an ability, a superpower, whatever one wants to call it; I intuitively understand and know about psychology and can pick up on all kinds of verbal and especially non-verbal communication such as facial expressions and body language. Reading between the line. That's why I see so much in the A.I. of TS3 and can easily read human simulations of psychology. Which is why I'm so fascinated by the A.I. in TS3.

Unfortunately, some on Autism Spectrum learn to hate being different and hate themselves because they are indoctrinated to what they have is a so-called disability and is so-called bad so you should feel depressed and take responsibility for the mistreatment from others and get stuck in that cycle to not realize your truth. From my perspective I was created differently on purpose and there is absolutely nothing wrong with me; but the world. I don't have a disability. If we all were the same, well, what a boring world it would be. You'd be happy and grateful that an Autistic person smelled something burning on fire before everyone else did and went to go investigate and warned everyone else before it was too late.

There are some people with Autism who are happy, joyous, care-free and overall free of the matrix. We love ourselves...flaws and imperfections included because it's all a part of what makes us, us. There is no such thing as perfection. What a delusion except for only One.

I visited family for our annual post-Christmas meet up. Same conversations as usual "why don't you apply for your PhD" and then "well you could always become a nurse" (they're all nurses). This year I might actually apply though, since the kids are now in full time school. I've been looking at BN hons degrees in mental health nursing. At the end of the day, I'd love to do the DClin I've been talking about apply for for years, but realistically there just wouldn't be that many jobs in the area and I'd probably have to move more towards a city to do anything with it. At least we need mental health nurses round here. I'm just worried about funding options because Student Fiance apparently won't pay for another degree (unless its specific degrees) and I don't have the money to self-fund. I would be entitled to an NHS bursary but I have no idea how much, how often, whether it covers every year. I should really stop googling and pondering, I have to wake up for work in just over 5½ hours.

I went through my gummy candy making kit, throwing out molds and mixes I don't or can't use anymore and currently, I am working on the ultimate multivitamin\supplement. As you may guess, I have low stamina as a human and experience numerous chronic health issues from a number of deficiencies in vitamins and minerals.

It may require studying other products and make attempts to attract a clientele that needs it. Of course, a good chunk of Millennials in the United States suffer from chronic health conditions.

I also am studying how to market something I made. I am great at creating items, but I suck as a salesperson. I never really developed the ability to lie, which, for better or worse, may be why I am not in advertising.

I'm up at around 2:00AM-3:00AM, I am cold. I have a claim being investigated in my bank, but it's not that bad. Although it started half a month ago, they're getting around to fixing it when the update went from 12/28/2024 to 1/4/2025, I was actually happy...I am no fan of the idea of slow turnaround.

The fact I am attached to Well Fargo, an infamous bank due to their unscrupulous practices, their customer service tactics and lest we forget that dead woman who was found in one of the offices in the Southwest after a 4 day break.

Then again, I can't change banks due to the paperwork to reapply for my allowance and how slow New Jersey government is. It's like changing horses midstream: I can't.

As macabre as my situation sounds, I have to wait it out for the time being. Things aren't bad otherwise. I am sleeping better on my bed since my father fixed it. I am almost over my "ick".

I am considering purchasing more compression socks for my swollen legs and feet and no slip ankle socks to help me walk in my house (completely hardwood. 0% carpeting, so the cat drifts like Tom from the "Tom and Jerry" shorts to the point of ridiculous. Like "off the frame" ridiculous.)

Only reason there isn't carpet anywhere is because the house was built to comply with those with the need for wheelchair accessibility, but sadly, my grandmother, wheelchair bound at the beginning of construction, would end up bedridden near the end of construction prior to her passing.

(she was fighting Parkinson's and my grandmother wouldn't go out of this realm without a fight, so I donated to Parkinson's research during Holiday Season 2024, among other healthcare jobs and welfare of the defenseless classes, of which I am. I think I gave up between a quarter to half my check to worthy causes.)

I am otherwise fine, I ate rice 3 times a day over a 24 hour period and drank ginger ale while forcing my NSAID down. (Sore throat makes swallowing pills harder.)

I am feeling better after feeling like I got hit by a convoy of 18 wheelers and they found me jammed under the fender.

Somehow, I do and don't question how I am still alive at 37. Only good news about the world situation is it might turn in favor of those who seek justice 😉 but that is for next week.*

*World situation may be subject to change, restrictions apply, results may vary, open to US citizens in the contiguous 48, AK, HI, and all outlying and applicable territories.

P.S. Mr. Frump in the hospital will probably reply via iron lung. (Weird Al Yankovic reference.)

(OK, I needed to vent some silliness after that long and boring spiel.)

Actually, the only things I have awaiting me personally next week is my first office visit of the year to see a dietician and I may end up probably quoting Adam Savage from the MythBusters "Pop Rocks and Cola" myth "...I can't imagine a human consuming that much crap...well, maybe I can..." To describe the nutrient poor diet I have.

Alongside the fact there are limited options for weight loss for women with PCOS and insulin resistance.

That and I have a therapist session over the phone again.

I was watching something stupid yesterday ( I don't remember what it was...) and the following video popped up in my recommend feed. At first I wasn't going to watch it as I already know CVS sucks.

It's a story about how CVS became a monster-sized monopoly, explains how they put small pharmacies out of business and now they [CVS] are going to be closing 900 stores. The only reason CVS is taking action is because their Wall Street overlords are pissed off. At the time of writing this post, a person could by a single share of CVS stock for under $50.00.

https://www.marketwatch.com/investing/stock/cvs

Why CVS Sucks Now...And Is Getting Worse



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=woACpI9C9XE

@Gargoyle Cat,

A lot of big name pharmacies are going under. Walgreens is gone and Rite-Aid is also at risk since year's end of 2024 where I live.

Also, I plan on upgrading my parents' video player from a discontinued DVD player to a Blu-Ray player as I feel that it could be useful. Especially since I plan on buying any shows removed from the services they use that are on physical disc that they like...that and WiFi tends to be fickle due to the extreme weather in my rural town. Somehow the power remains, but the WiFi is hit.

Grocery shopping. Got lots of stuff for meals for under $100. I had a full day before 8:45AM!

Still waiting for my return for something expensive taking too long to ship and my weekly pay.

Ate some chicken udon with such large green onions that they looked like leeks. It was delicious.

Me and my parents are sick with the ick my father brought home.

First dad, then me and now mom. The Panda family is dealing with a headache, body aches and tiredness.

It has been a week and it is only Tuesday.

Instead of sounding off yet again about my health insurance company and CVS ( it wasn't a store problem this time; we changed stores) I'll do something else.

TIKTOK’S BEAUTY OVERCONSUMPTION CRISIS IS OUT OF CONTROL

https://youtu.be/kzn6HFgCAe0?feature=shared&t=256

Most of the stuff shown expires within 6-12 months. Opening and putting 40 razors on a shower wall means 40 rusted razors that can't be used, because rust and skin don't play nice with each other.

Within this video there is the question of where these shopping habits come from. FOMO, a cope from trauma, rage bait, a shopping addiction ( looking for a dopamine hit) searching for clout and or thinking they can simply write all this junk off on their taxes.

What happened to saving the planet and all that?

I am currently looking after my mother who has an ear issue.

For now, she's asleep and I'm doing laundry.

As for anything financial, I am awaiting a claim to be settled over something that I didn't remember ordering, I am awaiting a refund for a machine order I cancelled and I need to save up my eyeglass money as my vision is getting worse again.

As far as my robotics project, I instead cancelled it to buy a custom made army of droids from Las Vegas. Someone already beat me to the punch. But I guess I should leave it to the professionals, because I have no clue how to build a droid.