Dear Diary,
At about the same time I came home, this odd looking man was walking past my shack. Really odd looking, but somehow, just a little familiar. Something about his face absolutely mesmerised me, such a weird feeling.
Well, I simply had to stop him right then and there. Once I got closer to him I noticed why something about him seemed familiar. His picture was hung up in the lab I work at, he used to be a test subject like me but ended up withdrawing. This was the first time I'd ever met a fellow victim of VP, it was strange, exhilirating, and oddly fulfilling all at the same time. Such a strange combination of emotions.

It didn't take long for us to realise we had a lot more in common with eachother than just our disorder. We had many of the same interests too, and we were both equally devoted to 'the cause' as he so put it. After leaving the facility he decided to attempt a rise to stardom, to bring VP into the spotlight. He said it would probably increase funding, and research. I've never felt such a strong admiration for anyone before.

It didn't take long for my heart to start pounding and butterflies to start fluttering. I knew it was wrong, I had Leod after all.. but it just felt so right.
After our long discussion; Dillan, that's his name by the way, and I pretty much just played for the rest of the day. Everyting from water balloons to pillows. That and maybe a little harmful flirting. What? Don't give me that look, Diary, Leod wasn't around so it's okay. I mean what he doesn't know won't hurt him, right?

Wrong, I ended up asking DIllan to stay the night, which he happily agreed. At which point flirting turned into hugging, which turned into kissing, which turned into me feeling like Llama spit. Because now I was torn between two great guys, one of whom I am engaged to. Which really doesn't make matters better.

First, I have Leod, my fiancé. The first guy I've ever met who liked me for me, and actually treated me like a human being instead of a monster. And Dillan, some guy I just met, who just happens to have the same condition as me. Who I also have this amazing connection with, and I really, really want to kiss right now. I guess, until I make up my mind.. I can just have both?
Later that night, Leod decided to pop in unexpectedly. While Dillan was still there. "That's alright, I'll just play it cool." Or so I thought. Dillan and I were talking casually while Leod put on a movie, everything was going pretty smoothly.
After our movie, I cooked up some dinner for the three of us. As I was cleaning dishes the guys chatted amongst themselves, I thought I might actually pull it off. I also started wondering if they'd be ok with polyandry. After the dishes were done Leod put on another movie and Dillan and I got back to chatting. Just when I got a little too confident, so did Dillan as he tried to plant one on me. Right in front of my fiancé. Er, technically behind...

Now granted, Dillan didn't know he was my fiancé. Can't really blame him for that, Leod seemed to understand. Instead he just blamed me.
I can't believe he hit me though. Although I probably would of hit me too, if I were him. And it didn't really hurt. After that he just walked angrily and went back to his farm. As I turned to Dillan I waited for round two, but it never came. "I-I'm sorry, I didn't know.." Was all he said. I told him it wasn't his fault, that I should be the one apologising. Dillan just came back with the most comforting words ever, "Everyone makes mistake, you are only human." Well, maybe not for most people, but when you've been called everything but human your whole life, it means a lot when someone says otherwise.
In the end, Dillan ended up staying the night and kept me company. It was nice knowing that I had someone there to comfort me. But I couldn't help but ask myself, "where should I go from here?"

Till next time
- Rosalie Graham